(Clearwisdom.net) I am a Dafa practitioner from Beijing. I obtained the Fa in October 1998, so I have been cultivating Dafa for three years. Because I did not study the Fa thoroughly enough, I walked the path of safeguarding the Fa step by step from the inspiration of fellow practitioners' experience sharing articles on the Dafa websites.
It took me one year from the moment I had the wish to go to Tiananmen Square to validate Dafa, until when I actually fulfilled this wish. It was probably this time last year that I had the thought of going to Tiananmen to validate Dafa. "With attachments left behind, the lightened boats sail swiftly, with a preoccupied human heart, crossing the ocean proves arduous." ("The Knowing Heart") However, because of my human notions, such as my fear being too strong, I didn't take any real action.
After New Years Day of 2001, I was arrested by the local police station when I was distributing truth-clarifying literature. I was sent to a detention center where I was illegally detained for nearly 20 days before being transferred to a brainwashing class. There were six practitioners detained in one cell of the detention center, but only one practitioner in his (or her) fifties had been to Tiananmen to validate Dafa. I felt very ashamed. Practitioners outside of Beijing had conquered innumerable hardships and tribulations, broke through numerous blockades, and came to Tiananmen, Beijing, to validate Dafa. As the practitioners in Beijing, we ought to go to Tiananmen to validate Dafa. At that time, I thought that after I was released, I would definitely go to Tiananmen to validate Dafa when an opportunity arose. However, after I was released from the detention center, my work unit fired me because I practiced Falun Gong. In addition, my spouse divorced me because he (or she) couldn't endure the illegal harassment from the local police station and neighborhood committee.
After experiencing these things, around September 16 of this year, I had a dream that the test was over. However, I still had many questions left unanswered, but I didn't know how to do them when I looked at the questions, so I felt really bad. I knew this was a hint, telling me that I must treasure the time. I decided to go to Tiananmen to validate Dafa on the following weekend. I went to Tiananmen on both September 22 and 23. On the first day, I walked around in the middle of the Square, and then went home. On the second day, I went again in the afternoon. The Square had been well decorated for the National Day and there were many tourists, so the opportunity was very good too. My hands touched the banner a few times, but, in the end, I didn't unfurl it. I remembered that Master has said: "At the crucial moment when I ask you to break away from humanness, you do not follow me. Each opportunity will not occur again." ("Digging Out the Roots") I felt extremely bad at that time. The third time I went to Tiananmen was on October 14. In order to get prepared, I rode my bicycle and went to Tiananmen for a visit beforehand. I saw that all of the flowerbeds had been removed [after the holiday]. Because the weather was quite chilly that day, there were only a few people and a few police vehicles on the huge square. After I went home, I thought about validating Dafa as I had my meal. When there were only a few people going to validate Dafa, without a very strong righteous mind, it was very difficult not to be arrested. At that moment, I felt pain in my heart, as if a knife was cutting my heart and piercing through my bones. Even though it was difficult to validate Dafa on Tiananmen Square, I still went. When I got there, there happened to be a book market fair at the Working People Culture Palace located northeast side of the Square. When I passed the front of the Golden-water-bridges at Tiananmen, it started to drizzle, the book market fair had just ended and people started walking out of the fair, so the opportunity was very good. However, I didn't unfurl the banner. I had been to Tiananmen three times, but did not unfurl my banner. The feeling I had was difficult to describe.
In the afternoon, on October 20, in order to validate Dafa and fulfill my promise, I went to Tiananmen again. Before I went, I sent forth-righteous thoughts in order to eradicate all of the evil beings that were damaging Dafa on Tiananmen Square. When I arrived at the bus station to catch the bus, a bus just came into the station; I didn't even have to wait for a minute, so I successfully got on the bus and arrived at Tiananmen Square. I picked a good spot and waited for an opportunity. At around 4 o'clock in the afternoon, at the west side of the Golden-water-bridges, I took out the banner, "Falun Dafa is Good," waved it and then held it in front of my head. At the same time, I yelled out the words that had been buried at the bottom of my heart for a very long time: "Falun Dafa is good!" "Falun Dafa is the Righteous Fa." "Restore my Master's Reputation!" This time, I felt that the voice of justice was spontaneously being spelled out when I unfurled the banner. When I walked west to the bus station, the door of a bus was open, after I got on, the door immediately closed. Everything was in keeping with my wish.
I know that I still have many attachments that have not yet been completely gotten rid off. In the future, during the Fa-rectification and cultivation process, I hope to achieve the state of "Cultivating until no attachments are left" [Teacher's poem "Cultivating in Maze," of Hongyin, un-official translation] and be worthy of Master's great compassion and painstaking salvation.
