(Clearwisdom.net) A while ago I realized I must change and create an all-encompassing Fa-rectification environment, including elimination of a variety of interferences, such as hindrances, financial difficulties Dafa disciples experience in their lives and others.
Once, when I was in front of the Chinese Consulate, I suddenly understood that changing the situation would only take a single thought. The elements of persecution in other dimensions are material substances, and by keeping righteous thoughts I can disintegrate them. This is a part of my responsibility.
This understanding was further clarified after I listened to Master's Fa lecture in Philadelphia.
During a period of time afterwards, big interferences suddenly surfaced in my surrounding environment. I felt that my mind was always suppressed by something, and I easily felt tired. The IP on my computer was blocked. I couldn't access any websites in China, and I couldn't chat online. The computer curser often moved randomly on the computer screen, out of my control, and later it wouldn't move at all. I cleaned the mouse several times, but to no avail.
In the past, it only took one attempt to send righteous thoughts to have any problem fixed. Nothing was achieved this time after I sent forth righteous thoughts several times in front of the computer with the same kind of confidence. Several days passed, and I became perplexed. Was there anything wrong in my understanding of the Fa? Did I deviate from the Fa and have omissions, which in turn caused the interference to persist?
Today, I was chatting online together with a fellow practitioner. Two web spies in the chat room began maliciously attacking Teacher and Dafa. They crazily posted curse words and wouldn't listen to us. The situation didn't improve after we sent forth righteous thoughts. In the end we had to exit. After we exited, we sat down and started sending forth righteous thoughts. It was then that I suddenly understood what "god's fury" was.
After I returned home, with a tired body, and sitting in front of the troublesome computer, I again sent forth powerful righteous thoughts. For quite a while, I hadn't sent forth long-time righteous thoughts with such concentration. I held the mouse and tried in my mind to fix the problem with supernatural powers (I fixed a disc in the same way before), but it didn't work. I thought of buying a new mouse, but I felt what was happening was persecution; it was a matter of principle and I should not take an easy option following an everyday person's way of thinking. I suddenly realized that if other dimensions were rectified, I should be able to fix the surface material in this dimension without much effort. So I opened the mouse, and within five minutes, "by coincidence" I found the problem. I fixed it the way I thought it should be fixed and the mouse was working again, and everything was back to normal.
In spite of that, my enlightenment quality was not so good, and I was still puzzled. Was that a coincidence? My true nature still believed in the power of righteous thoughts. I tried to get online. For some reason, I believed powerful righteous thoughts would enable me to break through the blocked IP. I sent forth righteous thoughts as I got online, but it still didn't work. Again I wavered, and I tried to ask a fellow practitioner who is a computer expert for help, but he (she) was not home.
So I sat back and began to send forth righteous thoughts again. A doubt was lingering in my mind, "That's strange; my righteous thoughts were powerful, why didn't it work?" This time when I tried, I was able to access websites in China, but was still blocked from accessing chat rooms. I continued to send forth righteous thoughts. This time I wanted to cry, and I regretted ever doubting the power of righteous thoughts. The fact that I had doubts when the problems could not be solved showed that my faith in Dafa was not firm enough.
When I clicked the mouse again, I was able to enter the chat rooms. Then I chose one particular chat room and posted the whole piece of truth clarification material to around 80 people. One person tried to stop me by posting lots of stuff on the screen, but what he posted was irrelevant and he didn't curse. I kept sitting in the lotus position with my hand erect, and later I changed to the Lotus Palm hand gesture, hoping to save these people coerced by pressure and lies.
Although I couldn't stop that person, I was able to keep his speed so that others could see what I posted. After I finished posting, I slacked off in righteous thoughts, and suddenly this person's posting increased like crazy. I immediately began sending forth righteous thoughts and he again slowed down. Then I talked to that person in private and told him that I understood his awkward situation. I asked him to think about what I had posted, and that I hoped he could help innocent and kind people when appropriate. He slowed down and finally stopped posting. He quietly read what I said to him, and in the end I wished him happiness before I left the chat room.
After I left, I cried. I realized I should not have doubts about righteous thoughts. Everything in the human world is so practical and these practical things restrict me, while my divine side constantly reminds me to be rational, so that I might be blessed to be able to keep going. This seemingly endless hardship is the process for us to improve and carry out our mission.
This time, I overcame the evil, inch by inch, with righteous thoughts. Benevolent Master let me clearly see the effect of every righteous thought, yet I still found myself trapped by my human way of thinking. I think I must make a major breakthrough before I could make a complete change on the current level where I am trapped.
I realized that before the Fa, any individual or evil is insignificant. Yet one Dafa practitioner's righteous thoughts can truly break through the blockage, right in front of his (her) eyes. If we all change the situation of current persecution we are suffering with righteous thoughts from the root, negate all arrangements that obstruct us from saving people, and if our righteous thoughts can all reach that level, then we can truly achieve the state where everything will serve to pave the way for Fa rectification. God's miracles surround us at all times. All it takes for us is to realize that we must get rid of everyday people's notions.
The above thoughts are my shallow, personal understanding. Please point out anything inappropriate.