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I did not go back to the location where I usually do business after the Spring Festival. Instead, I continued with more widespread local truth-clarifying activities. Some fellow practitioners did not understand my behavior. I told one of them, "Why didn't I want to go back to my business? It is because we have too few practitioners who can prepare truth-clarifying materials. We need someone to prepare them, so someone has to sacrifice himself first. Since I have enlightened to it, I will just do it." Cultivating diligently until today, I believe that every true Dafa disciple will not remain attached to achieving consummation. Neither will he or she remain attached to the deadline for cultivation. But there still exists one question, that is whether you truly believe in Dafa or not. When Teacher taught us the Fa, to what degree did you actually believe in it? If what Teacher said is true, then do you actually treasure this period of time? Do you take this period of time seriously? Can you still calm yourself? Why do you not cultivate more diligently?
I often interact with businessmen who are very attached to their benefits and gains. I have to bargain with them. Yet we are still Dafa disciples who are doing Dafa work, not ordinary people doing Dafa work. How can we handle this relationship correctly? Teacher told us to be good people who think of others first at every moment and in all places. We have to think of others before we think of ourselves. It is not easy for the businessmen to do business either. They have to get up early and stay up late at night. I should not bring any trouble to their lives or spirit when I am doing business with them. Nonetheless, our Dafa disciples' money does not come easily either. Every penny represents benevolence for sentient beings and complete personal sacrifice. It is really not easy. I sent forth righteous thoughts to eradicate the trickiness and cunningness in bargaining behind these businessmen. For Fa-rectification, such a sacred mission, only the purest deserve it. When I really melted myself into the Fa, I truly felt that all that Teacher has given is the greatest and most beautiful. Whenever I went out of town to buy merchandise, I would save my meal money and use it in Fa-rectification. No one forced me to do this. I only want to say, "Our Teacher is so great! His disciples should also be the best."
I heard that a fellow practitioner's parents died, leaving her alone. She was very pessimistic. She did not feel like having any contact with other people. I felt that she was in a difficult situation. No matter what she did before, since she was still cultivating, I should help her to plunge into the torrent of Fa-rectification. The intent of the old forces is to cause damage, to stop Dafa disciples from forming a group that is as indestructible as a diamond. If helping this woman is good for the Fa-rectification, I will simply do it. I have very strong righteous thoughts. When I told her why I came to talk to her, tears came into her eyes. Everything melted in the great benevolence of the Fa. The scattered particles will be reunited.
One morning, I was informed over the phone that a fellow practitioner's store was being held under surveillance. Much of our money for preparing the truth-clarifying materials was kept in her shop. What could I do? I notified the other fellow practitioners not to go to her store so as to avoid any unnecessary losses, meanwhile, we sent forth our righteous thoughts as a whole group to help her. I felt that I had a heavy heart. The practitioner whose shop it was would be under great pressure while kept under surveillance. Dafa disciples are one body, and we have to help each other and encourage each other when we are in tribulations. I thought, I must get into her store. The money should not get into the demon's hand and the Fa-rectification process should not be stopped. When sending forth righteous thoughts, I once again cleared my perspective. This is not personal rashness or impulsiveness, neither is it a personal way of showing off. I have to be responsible for fellow practitioners and the Fa. The old evil forces, no matter what you have arranged, I will not acknowledge it. I looked at all these things with righteous thoughts. As a result, the fellow practitioner was safe, and all the money was brought back.
We have to place each foot forward with absolute righteousness. We have to meet every test and tribulation with a high standard. Let's be Fa-rectification disciples in an upright and aboveboard manner. I do feel the pressure. On my shoulders the burden is heavy. Cultivation is really difficult. When I felt passive and shed tears, in my mind there reverberated "Cultivation is hard. It's hard in that even when a terrible calamity strikes, even when evil madly persecutes, and even when your life is at stake, you still have to be able to steadfastly continue on your path of cultivation without letting anything in human society interfere with the steps you take on your path of cultivation." ("Path") When I checked inside, I found that deep in my heart there existed the notion of selfishness. I cared about my personal suffering. If I did not meet this period when Dafa is spreading with tremendous benevolence, where would my true self be? I felt lucky and happy. Life itself is created by the Buddha Fa. Without the Buddha Fa, I would have no existence. At this important moment, how can I be selfish? "Having heard the Dao in the morning, one can die in the evening." Where is my self-confidence? This passiveness in not me! This selfishness is not me!
I used to think that it was big tests and tribulations that could temper the real gold. Now I have come to see that everything happening in the process of cultivation, no matter how big or small, presents a choice for you to demonstrate your position. Are you a human being or are you a god? I think of "solid cultivation." When any confrontation appears, we have to either face it directly or avoid it or go in a roundabout way. I understand that true "solid cultivation" is "in the midst of crucial tests, a great cultivator is able to give up his ego and all of his ordinary human thinking." ("Position")
