(Clearwisdom.net)
I started cultivating Falun Dafa in the Spring of 1997. I benefited both mentally and physically. My body was purified, and all sorts of sicknesses were completely cured. Most significantly, I understood how to be a better person!
I could not read before cultivating Dafa. I was only able to listen while others read at the group practice site. After July 20th, 1999, the group practice site no longer existed and I had no lecture tapes to listen to. It looked as if it would be impossible for me to overcome the difficulty of being unable to read. I often held up the book Zhuan Falun with tears running down my cheeks. One day, I opened the book unintentionally, and I found that I could read it. I could not believe it! I could not express how thankful I was toward Master for this miracle.
My fear came out in facing the huge evil after July 20, 1999. I was doing the exercises at home in secrecy. I dared not tell people "Falun Dafa is Good." Hence, I felt terrible in my heart, and I felt that I did not deserve to be Master's disciple.
One day in August 1999, two female Party Secretaries from the town government came to my home with two policemen. They asked me, "Do you still study (this)?" I remembered Master's words, "There are also people who become scared in the face of pressure and give up their cultivation. Can these kinds of people achieve Righteous Attainment? At the crucial moment, won't they even betray a Buddha? Isn't fear an attachment? Cultivation practice is like great waves sifting the sand: What remains is gold" ("For Whom do You Practice Cultivation? Essentials for Further Advancement"). I answered, "Why not study! Dafa is so good, I benefited both mentally and physically." They left without any words.
Later, I realized from the standpoint of the Fa that the Fa-rectification process is advancing with giant strides everyday. We should use every second to do what Master said, "Validate the Fa with rationality, clarify the truth with wisdom, spread the Fa and save people with mercy--this is establishing the mighty virtue of an Enlightened Being ("Rationality," Essentials for Further Advancement II). I spent several thousand Yuan [average monthly pay of an urban worker is 500 Yuan] to print many truth-clarifying materials.
When I saw Master's new article "Foretelling the Fa's Rectification of the Human World" and the Clearwisdom article "Make the Best Use of Time to Clarify the Truth to the Precious Chinese People," I went to Tiananmen Square with determination. But when I saw so many police at Tiananmen Square, my fear came out again. I thought to myself, if I dare not help with Fa-rectification here, I won't need to study Dafa after going back home because I do not deserve to study this Dafa. So, I prepared myself to unfurl a banner. A policeman came over to check my ID. The vicious policeman said to me, "All you need to say is Falun Dafa is a [slanderous term omitted]." I answered, "With so many people here, who gave you the power to make them curse Falun Gong? What is wrong with Falun Gong?" That policeman called a van. They knocked me to the ground after several round of kicks and punches. One policeman stepped on my hands and scraped them very hard with his boots. The driver of the van slowly stepped on the gas pedal and intended to steer the wheels to drive over my body, but he dared not because so many people were watching.
As they pulled me into the van, I tried my best not cooperate with them and shouted loudly, "Falun Dafa is Good! Falun Dafa is Righteous! Return the Reputation Falun Dafa! Return the Reputation of My Master!"
I was sent to the nearby police station. They asked me where I was from? I said, "From Heaven!" That policeman laughed sarcastically. He asked a female officer to search my body. Master said, "No matter what the situation, do not cooperate with the evil's demands, orders, or what it instigates" ("Dafa Disciples' Righteous Thoughts are Powerful," Essentials for Further Advancement II). They forced me to take off my outer clothes and took my banner away. Then they stripped off my pants and touched my whole body in an evil way. They dragged me to the floor, and took 50 Yuan from inside my socks. They tried to force ammonia solution into my mouth. I closed my lips tightly, but they poured the ammonia solution through my nose. They even pulled my eyelids apart and poured alcohol into my eyes. They also used a little brush to poke my nose, which felt like needles stinging; it was extremely painful. They also tried to poke my mouth with that brush, but I closed my lips tightly. They used multiple layers of cheesecloth to cover my mouth and suffocate me. When they saw that nothing made me give in, they used a bamboo strip to stab my philtrum [an important accu-pressure point in human body]. I was struggling with the pain on the floor. The police said I moved without permission so they slapped me more than 20 times. They stepped on and scraped my fingers on the cement floor with their boots. They wanted to drag me away, but I did not cooperate with them and fell on the floor. They forcefully stepped on my cheek with their boots and pulled me to the hallway by my hair . The 19 fellow practitioners that were arrested came to carry me onto a long bench. When the police dragged me to another room, they pulled my eyelids apart, poured hot chili pepper water into my eyes, and sprayed two bottles of ammonia solution onto my face. They used a brush-like tool to squeeze stuff into my nose and mouth. They used three multiple layers of cheesecloth to cover my mouth and used a bamboo stick to stab my philtrum. They also forced soap into my mouth causing me to vomit several times. These inhuman police conducted tortures one after another. They said they would give me an injection and turned me over facing the floor and stripped off my pants. Three police laughed in a dirty manner, "Her buttocks are so white." I thought immediately, "Master, please protect me, do not let the evil harm me!" They pulled up my pants right away.
These evil police are not only inhumane, but also even worse than beasts. They used a bamboo stick to poke into my right fingers [see http://www.geocities.com/transrefs/Torture-tr.html for the explanation of the torture "Digging in Bamboo Sticks"], and it is very painful. When I sent forth righteous thoughts, the police stopped. They then brought a pair of iron pliers and said they would pull my teeth so I could be force-fed. I sent out a thought, "How can anyone move Buddha's teeth?" They gave up. Then, they scraped my hands hard on the cement floor with their boots. I felt no pain at all. I knew it was Master who endured these tortures for me. The police became scared themselves. They told me, "You get up yourself. We don't want to force you to disclose your name any longer." I did not acknowledge them and did not move. They dragged me to the hallway again by grabbing my hair. The 19 fellow practitioners carried me onto the long bench again [after the torture]. The police sent a mentally ill person to shout and sing near us. I recited the formula to eliminate the evil and the person left without a sound. The police were infuriated. They found several other prisoners to watch me. Those prisoners asked, "How come you beat her to such a degree?" The police dared not answer.
The 19 fellow practitioners who requested to send me to the hospital were taken away. The police shoved me to the floor from the bench. They put a piece of 5-cm-thick steel sheet by my head and then hit the iron sheet with an iron ball to generate a loud noise. The noise hurt my ears severely. I thought at this moment, "They intend to torture me to death tonight. Master, please do not worry! I will endure some. How can I let you endure all these for me. In order to do Fa-rectification, I can put down life or death. I will not let Master's mercy save me in vain." I was very peaceful inside.
Several police repeatedly tortured me in inhuman ways, such as pouring ammonia solution, forcing soap and chemicals into my mouth and nose, stabbing my esophagus, and stepping on my chest. When I sent forth righteous thoughts, the evil was frightened away. But after a while, one would come back with more evil. He separated my legs and kicked my lower body hard. He also used a lighter to burn my lips, nose, and fingers and a clipper to pull my eyebrows. I heard a buzzing noise. I sent forth the righteous thoughts continuously and they all left. One policeman came back to torture me again after a while. He used a ball to punch my shangen point [shahn-ghun, an acupuncture point located between one's eyebrows]. But he was terrified after he punched me. He poured hot water onto my face twice. Master told us, "If you are not afraid, the factor that would make you afraid will cease to exist. This is not to be self-imposed, but is achieved by truly and calmly letting go of it ("Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)," Essentials for Further Advancement II). When I could truly put down life or death, the evil was at their wits end.
An officer came and said, "You get up quickly..." Later, two police kicked me to leave. It was past 10 p.m. The evil had totally lost their senses. Master told us, "Indestructible righteous faith in the cosmos's Truth forms benevolent Dafa disciples' rock-solid, Diamond-Like Bodies, it frightens all evil, and the light of Truth it emanates makes the unrighteous elements in all beings' thoughts disintegrate. However strong the righteous thoughts are, that's how great the power is. Dafa disciples are truly stepping forward out of ordinary humanness" "Also in a Few Words," Essentials for Further Advancement II). Three policemen sent me out of the police station and I nobly walked out of the evil's den.