Shared at Chicago 2002 Conference
Hello [...] I am a Western practitioner in a group from Milwaukee, Wisconsin.
I was a little hesitant about sharing my experiences, but a fellow practitioner told me its very helpful to other practitioners and when I read others' experiences I find it good as well. So I will share these particular ones with you...
I have had many experiences all my life that other people did not have and I was always sort of a rebel because I knew from a very young age that the world we lived in was very wrong...the pollution, the money system, the trends.... I did not like to be put in that "box" and did anything to get out of it. I was very fearless and pushed things to the limit and suffered a lot of hardships because of this...my mom used to joke and say it was because I was born in the year of the horse and according to Chinese horoscopes that is the year that the population drops because no one wants to have a rebellious child...especially a girl rebel. The more I ignored society's ways the stronger these special experiences became and in 1992 or 1993 the experiences increased tremendously...
I did not practice any spiritual practice and did not have a master that I knew of anyway... because of these more powerful experiences my attachments were dropping away very quickly. I had had reached some very unique places compared to everyday people. Some were very scary and some so powerful that one time my head went outside next to my body. I remember I could look back at my profile and saw it was like the negative of a film with no color. Then as if suddenly connected, a lot of information came through the top of my head and out my mouth very quickly. It was very profound and I understood everything I was saying, yet it was information that was above me, not something I knew of before...after I was done my head snapped back into my body and I looked at my friend whose mouth was hanging open. I said wow!!! How did I know that?!!! He said my face turned into a negative picture like on a film and purple was all around me...my friend did not even believe in spiritual things at that time. He thought, "Wow take that information to NASA!" We cried and laughed very hard for a long time at how we had been trapped in our own heads for so long and we had the key the whole time. It was if everything I learned before ...every belief I ever knew was thrown out the window and I had been freed of all the nonsense of the world. It lasted a long time after that. We felt we were in a very different dimension at that time. After that I experienced many of the things in the book Zhuan Falun...
These things were happening until about 1997 that is when I had this very special experience. Words do not give justice to what I felt and heard that day but I will try to describe it the best I can.
I was standing by the stereo talking with a different friend when all of a sudden I noticed the music was changing and the singer on the CD was no longer singing but was having a mental conversation with me and greeted me with, "Hello"...I was then asked if I could go deeper into the music to follow him...I could easily go deeper and began sinking into the most beautiful music I ever heard...sort of like classical with violins, but not of this world by far... We then came to a place where the music turned "upside down" or we went "underneath" the music so to say. Then suddenly like an explosion the whole room lit-up very brightly and the place was swimming in the stereo sounds of millions of voices singing sweetly in the distance. I knew these were many beings singing so peacefully.
I was then asked if I would like to meet them.... I said yes please... I then felt the presence of a million or more light beings in front of me. They did not have any form that I can recall, yet they felt tall to me and I felt their individualities. A female presence glided towards me softly so I will call this being a "she." She gave me much information at a very fast speed... Communicating like reading a dictionary in less then a second. Some of the things she said were, "Do you remember us?" "We are from a very far away galaxy and the overwhelming compassion that I was feeling would forever protect me and save me and that they had never forgotten me" ... She also asked me for my help and that they needed my help and if I would help them...I promised I would.
I was very clear headed and felt so much understanding. Everything made perfect sense. No questions needed to be asked and a feeling of supreme peace and a welcoming home came over me.
She then said they must go...an urgent feeling came over me I wanted to go with them, but knew in my heart I could not. She said, "not to worry that they were always with me" ... "That change is coming and I will see them again that I just had to wait"...then they disappeared. I had a clear understanding that our space-time was so different. That in just one blink of their eye a hundred years would pass here...that they were always watching over everything and that they were deeply a part of me and everything around me...
I felt very incredible, my heart was wide open...I looked at my friend who was now on the couch his head hung down as if in a trance...He woke-up and I said, "Did you see them?" "Did you hear them"? I felt so good like never before in my life. He said he felt strange as the room was all glowing ...he started to cry and said he could not stay and he left. I did not see him again after that.
I told a few people as time went by who said that they were everything from angels to aliens so I just kept quiet about it...I knew this was something else... Yet I knew this experience was just a very small part of the big picture. I just had a little taste of what was out there in the vast cosmos.
Four years after that I had little or no attachments to everyday society and felt light and free...I was in tune with everything around me...I heard trees talk and rivers laugh...I knew evil was like a huge mirror that looks like it goes on forever, but with the right stone it shatters like glass...and beyond that is where all the good stuff is playing...
I drifted around and was then guided to yoga and many other teachings. I learned a lot and I respect all the great masters' works that I had read, yet I knew I had a very high master somewhere, but I could not find him. I began to think he had not materialized in this earth plane yet and maybe would not and I would meet him later...My human side still kept praying to find that teacher... because I also knew I needed genuine guidance.
I never forgot that experience yet as time went by I wondered why such beautiful and powerful beings needed my help...how could I possibly help them? What was I capable of? I was a mere speck compared to them. What changes? Why did I have to wait? My logical mind took over...
At this point I was slipping back into societies ways and I could do nothing to stop it ...I was almost back to where I started and then a miracle... I was caught before I hit the bottom...A friend showed me he had the first book of Falun Dafa [Zhuan Falun]. I later ran into the book at a bookstore and began to practice at home. Then another friend gave me the flyer so I went to the practice site to make sure I was doing the exercises correctly. Neither one of those friends practiced. It is now 8 months into my practicing Falun Gong...I do not feel left behind in my understanding of it even though I feel I am starting over from scratch after such an experience ... yet being a Dafa Disciple I have a feeling of those much higher realms.
After reading Zhuan Falun I realized I found that master or that master found me... I understand why supernormal abilities are locked-up because if not guided well and if the mind is not right it can lead to unnecessarily painful experiences and one can fall very fast...without a master one can fall...
When I received the North American tour lecture and began reading about the enormous cosmic bodies we are responsible for that experience really had an impact on me at this level. I cried very hard. I knew I had a long way to go with my ego and petty attachments I had redeveloped. I am very grateful because I am transcending farther because of the tests and a part of me hurts because ...the suffering we are aware of and yet have to endure to stay in society is still "suffering consciously"...
Sometimes I feel I have such little time now with 3 jobs, an apartment complex to run and a mother with terminal cancer and so on... Yet when I study the Fa, send forth righteous thoughts, spread the Fa, and do the exercises it just flows through my life touching everything. It breaks through levels at a very fast pace farther than where I was before...I now remember my promise with a completely new outlook.
I am in awe of Master Li's truthfulness as he explains things to us at each level, his tolerance for our imperfections as we cultivate, and his immense compassion as he stays by our side through it all... I strive to reach those ultimate goals...
There are millions of beings, there are trillions and trillions more...Master said, "They are countless." Master also said, "Dafa disciples are magnificent...as a matter of fact the responsibilities that you shoulder are quite big..."
Each one of us represents a huge cosmic body...there are billions of people and billions more could represent those enormous groups of divine beings like the ones I remember...In my understanding this is the test...to keep up and not get lazy especially during this time period....
In Milwaukee we have a fairly large city and many come to the practice site yet few stay...I guess I am the only one in 2 years that has stayed. I know it is not easy to attain the Fa...yet I also know we have to keep trying to improve our ways of spreading the practice to others....
Even though right now in my life everyone is demanding my time when before this I felt I had so much free time...so my human side gets hurt and panics for more time and my divine side just sits and smiles softly. Situations keep coming with unique ways of spreading the Fa as not to let those divine beings down.... It's so important that we do not let them down. This is my understanding. Thank you.
