(Clearwisdom.net) On September 10, 2003, "610 Office" * officers kidnapped me. Helped by Master's strength and fellow practitioners' righteous thoughts, I left the brainwashing class after six days. In retrospect, these days looking back on the experience, I have the following to share with you. Please kindly point out any of my attachments:
1. When breaking with emotion, nobody can affect you
On the morning of September 10, the head of the "610 Office" came to my home to talk with me. I wasn't at home. He then asked a subordinate official to wait for me and left, to return later. After I came back, this official told me his intention. We waited for the head outside. My daughter called me several times during that time, telling me that a classmate had invited our family for dinner and I should leave right away; otherwise, we would be late. Later I realized that Master tried to tell me that I should leave right away. Considering the good relationship with this official who used to be very kind to me, I didn't want to embarrass him. So I didn't go. After a few minutes, the head of the "610 Office" arrived with seven to eight people and dragged me into a car, taking me to a brainwashing class without saying a word.
That night I couldn't get to sleep. I repeatedly looked inward. I remembered that Master said:
"Cultivation is something you do right in the thick of tribulations. They'll test whether you can sever your emotions and desires, and they'll see if you can take them lightly. If you're attached to those things you won't be able to finish your cultivation. Everything has its cause. Why can human beings be human? It's exactly because humans have emotion. People just live for emotion. The affection among family members, the love between a man and woman, love for parents, feelings, friendships, doing things for friendship's sake--no matter where you go you can't get out of emotion. You want to do something, you don't want to do something, you're happy, you're unhappy, you love something, you hate something--everything in society comes completely from emotion. If you don't sever emotion, you won't be able to cultivate. But if you do break out of emotion, nobody can affect you, and ordinary attachments won't be able to sway you. What replaces it is compassion, which is more noble." (The Fourth Talk, Zhuan Falun)
I found the reason for my present circumstance - I took "friendship" too seriously and thus let the evildoers take advantage of me. I didn't fully understand the evil in this critical moment and loosened my vigilance. That is why I was kidnapped. I was so full of regret. After a while I calmed down and silently prayed to Master that I would do better in the future. I went on a food and water strike from the day I got into the brainwashing class to protest this abduction.
The days following my food and water strike, all kinds of feelings bombarded me. During the days of the Mid-Autumn Festival, my daughter and friends sent in fruit, beverages, moon cake and various kinds of other food. My relatives and friends persuaded me to eat a little bit when nobody was watching. No matter whether or not I ate, the guard put the food by my side at every meal, accompanied by another round of persuasion. The vicious persons in the brainwashing class bombarded me in turn, "You don't eat? Let's see how long you can hold up. We see this quite a lot... If you keep refusing, we will force feed you." I closed my eyes and refused to eat anything. No matter who said what, I was not persuaded at all. On the fourth day they sent me to the hospital. Although I took in some water, I still refused to take any food. I made up my mind to hold on until they released me.
2. Take the opportunity to clarify the truth
On the way from my home to brainwashing class, the head of the "610 Office" was very wild. He threatened me by scolding his subordinates. I realized that this was a good chance to expose it. I shouted out, "Stop it! I am cultivating Falun Dafa. What's wrong with being a kind person, behaving according to 'Truthfulness, Compassion and Forbearance'? Look at you! You talk one way and act another. You said you wanted to talk with me but it turned that you arrested me." He stopped talking right away and started to contact the brainwashing class. I continued to tell the truth to the five remaining guards in the car. I told them, "Falun Dafa has now spread to more than sixty nations and regions! Jiang Zemin was sued overseas!" They all listened quietly and silently till I got to the brainwashing class.
My employer-company sent one person per day to monitor me and live with me in one room in this brainwashing class. The door was locked from the outside. Even going to the bathroom required calling someone to open the door. Those several people who monitored me were all sick with this. I thought that all these people had the predestined relationship to be with me. I took the opportunity to tell them the truth.
After I was sent to the hospital, the number of people to monitor me increased from one to two. During six days, seven people watched me, as well as two frequently visiting officials and drivers, a total close to a dozen of people. I told them the truth according to their acceptance level and answered their questions. I felt happy in my heart to make them have the right understanding of Dafa. Some of them had a very good understanding of Dafa and discussed some deeper questions with me; for example - loss and gain, the relation of De and karma, reincarnation and so on. One also showed high admiration of Dafa practitioners. He asked me one day, "Why don't you run away?" I said, "If you let me go, won't they blame you for dereliction of duty?" He said, "I am not afraid! Everyone neglects something. It won't be much more than the deduction of a bonus or disciplinary penalties. When your reputation is restored, mine is also restored, right?" I felt very happy hearing his words. Then, when nobody was around, he helped me and gave me some good ideas on how to get out.
3. Not cooperating with evildoers in any situation
The second morning in brainwashing class, the police told me to go to the second floor for some matter and told me it would only take a few minutes. At that moment I was talking with my family folks who were visiting me. I didn't have a second thought and went upstairs. There were only a few people in the room. The banner in the front told me it was for so-called "commencement of class."
Then I heard arguing voices from the second floor. Several female practitioners refused to come. At that moment I realized that I had done it wrong. Master had pointed out in the scripture "Dafa Disciples' Righteous Thoughts are Powerful", "Why should you, a Dafa disciple, fear the evil ones when enduring persecution? The crux of the matter is that you have attachments. If not, do not endure passively, and face the evil people with righteous thoughts at all times. No matter what the situation, do not cooperate with the evil's demands, orders, or what it instigates. If everyone does this, the environment won't be this way." I went downstairs right away. The guards asked me why. I told them I had something to do. After a while they called me again. I told them they already had some people there. Then someone came by and said the meeting was cancelled. At that moment I very much admired those female practitioners who did so well that it broke the arrangement of the evil's intentions.
From then on, I kept on doing this - as long as I was in the brainwashing class I would absolutely not eat nor drink. No matter who came to persuade me, I would not change my mind. All I asked was to release me. I stayed in bed every day.
Later I was sent to the hospital. I persisted in not taking injections and medicine, no matter what the doctors and nurses said. On the second day, the evildoers brought seven to eight persons to push me on the bed and forced an injection. When they saw that I no longer moved, they all went back to brainwashing class, so I pulled the needle out. Then the vicious enforcers came back to force the injection on me. This time they left one person to monitor me.
Through the above experience I realized that doing such could attract lots of energy and attention away from the vicious people. When everybody would be doing it this way, the evil would be terribly exhausted and defeated. The brainwashing class would be eliminated.
4. Always remember that I am a disciple of Master
This is my first time experiencing such tribulations. I am not a confident individual and was also afraid at that time that I might not do it well. However, I kept on doing the following:
1) Always remember sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil
No matter if it is day or night, whenever there is no one talking to me, I would keep on sending righteous thought and comprehensively eliminate all ghosts and evil spirits and the old forces' interference. We eliminated the evil in the brainwashing class every day when we were still at home. Now I am here myself. Isn't this a good opportunity to send forth righteous thoughts in close proximity? I did not relax a bit and kept on the whole time.
2) Remember Master's words; "righteous thoughts with righteous deeds"
Besides sending forth righteous thoughts, I also kept on reciting Master's scripture to strengthen myself. For all I could remember and all fellow practitioners recited to me, I repeatedly recite. In this evil environment, reciting Master's scripture, carefully study its profound meanings. I felt my mind was immediately clear. I had no fear and was full of strength. It didn't matter that I did not eat or drink. Nothing could affect me.
3) Remember that I am a disciple of Master. I must follow Master's requirements.
Whenever my heart was unstable or I experienced a critical moment, I would ask Master to strengthen me, just as if Master was by my side. For example, the second day into the brainwashing class happened to be the Mid-Autumn Festival (Moon Festival), also my second day of my hunger strike. I was not confident and asked Master for strength. I also thought that, "I, a disciple, make up my mind to break out the den of monsters! This is not the place where I should stay." In the past I would be very uncomfortable for missing one meal. Now I didn't eat or drink for two days but felt very comfortable and went to sleep shortly after. I woke up at midnight. The light of the full moon shone on me. I felt like seeing Master and was very excited. I said to myself, "Thank you, Master, for strengthening me. Thank you, all you practitioners who sent forth righteous thoughts for me."
On the third day of the food and water strike the vicious people told me, "If you still do not eat and drink tomorrow, you will be force-fed. It hurts badly." I thought, "Master, your disciple will do it well. I am not afraid of force-feeding, but it is better not to let them do it." During the afternoon of the fourth day they informed me to undergo a medical exam in the hospital. They even ordered me to take my clothes with me, to prepare to stay in the hospital. When I arrived at the hospital I was diagnosed as suffering from high blood pressure, low blood sugar, kidney dysfunction, tachycardia, (irregular heartbeat) and other ailments. I was asked to be hospitalized immediately and therefore did not have to endure force-feeding.
After I was admitted to the hospital, I began drinking water but still kept on my hunger strike. In my heart I asked Master to strengthen me. I made up my mind to break out of the hospital. On the seventh day in the morning around five o'clock, as soon as the door on the third floor opened, the hospital staff were exchanging shifts. The guards were sound asleep. That is when I took the opportunity and, in the process of washing my face, walked out of the door with dignity. Although I hadn't eaten for six days and nights, I walked easily and relaxed. Just like this, I broke out from the den of evildoers and was back into the torrent of Fa rectification.
* The "610 Office" is a bureau specifically created by the Chinese government to persecute Falun Gong, with absolute power over each level of administration in the Party, as well all other political and judiciary systems.