(Clearwisdom.net) At the experience sharing conference held in New York City in 2000 I exposed the persecution of myself by the Nanjing National Security Bureau staff. However, I did not have a deep understanding of the persecution. Back then my heart was not calm when faced with persecution. Now I have come to realize it is very urgent to expose the persecution to more people.

Ever since I learned of the detention of Charles Lee (a U.S. citizen detained in China on the charge of tapping into Chinese TV) in Nanjing Prison, I have been thinking about the details of how I was persecuted by staff members, including a man surnamed Gu. I realized that no matter who commits crimes under what excuses, he or she has to be responsible for his or her own actions.

In May 2000 my husband and I went back to China to visit my family. Because of the persecution of Falun Gong, my husband was very worried about me. He is an American and he loves Chinese culture. At the same time, he was very aware of the viciousness of dictator Jiang. Before my departure, he begged me not to mention Falun Gong while we were in China, or tell anyone that I am a Falun Gong practitioner. Otherwise, not only might I be arrested, but my family might also get into trouble. I promised I would listen to him. Out of his concern for my safety, he insisted on putting the book Zhuan Falun in his backpack. I knew that many overseas Falun Gong practitioners got into trouble while going through customs. Therefore, when it was my turn to pass through customs, I was extremely nervous. All other passengers were required to go through a pass on the right, but somehow a man directed my husband and I to go around and thus we safely passed through customs. I was eager to see my family so I promised my husband that I would not mention Falun Gong. He was relieved and agreed to have me go back to Nanjing first, and he would meet with me in Nanjing after he was done with his business.

While in Janjing visiting friends and relatives, I naturally talked about Falun Gong during various conversations. Seeing that some of them were poisoned by the lies, I told them how my grandparents and I benefited from practicing Falun Gong. I also exposed the lies and told them how Falun Gong was widespread around the world. I did not forget my promise to my husband, but my conscience did not allow me to keep silent. Seeing that I was very healthy, gentle, and kinder to others, my family members were all amazed by the power of Falun Gong.

One night around 8:00 p.m., I took a taxi to go from my grandparents' home to my mom's home. When the taxi was making a right turn at an intersection, a dark colored sedan and two motorcycles stopped us. A man with a gloomy face ordered me to get out using a low voice. As soon as I got out, a man immediately snapped away my luggage, and dragged me into their sedan together with another man. With the two motorcycles clearing the way ahead, three or four men including the driver escorted me to their place.

One of them was a man surnamed Gu. A Nanjing native in his late 30's, he has a round face and is not tall. I remember he said he has a bachelor's degree. He was very good at chicanery and was the leader of those engaging in persecuting overseas Falun Gong practitioners going back to China to visit. He was very hypocritical. Even when he was threatening you, he still had a smile on his face. He once said to me, "After you go back to the U.S., be aware of the possible consequences if you dare to tell anyone that we have talked to you. You should know your family is still in China and your husband has business in China. Plus if you want to still come back to visit..." He also said, "If we did not want you to enter customs, we would have arrested you right before entering customs. We have been very nice to you."

There was another young man with a very tall and strong build. He seemed to work for Gu, always carrying out Gu's orders.

Both men's supervisor was a woman in her late 30s. Gu often went to ask for orders from that woman. She seemed to be a hysterical and bossy woman. She could attack Falun Gong in a high pitched voice nonstop for a long time. She slandered Dafa in front of my parents, not giving me any chance to speak. She and Gu went to my home. They pretended to be caring about my family when in fact they were threatening them. My dad had a stroke and was bedridden. He was too scared to say a single word.

When they interrogated me, they often changed places. I remember one time it was in a restaurant on the east side of Nanjing, another time they parked their car in the Nanjing Liaison Office of Wuxi (a neighboring city of Nanjing). There were several men present at the interrogation, including drivers, note takers and so-called leaders.

Gu kept saying he was my friend. I thought of clarifying the truth to him often. Gu has the chance to read Minghui.net. I am waiting for him to quit doing evil one day. After I returned to the U.S., I called him several times advising him not to do evil anymore. Not long ago, I called him again. He told me he is still doing the same thing and he slandered Charles Lee. During the conversation, I suspected that he also participated in the persecution of Charles.

I remember very clearly that Gu said during my detention, "We have special people dealing with overseas Falun Gong practitioners in various branch offices of the National Security Bureau. Falun Gong practitioners in China are taken care of by local police who are usually rude and beat people." Gu knew the truth very well but he just kept on doing evil.

I hope that my experience can help you see through the nature of the persecution of Falun Gong practitioners by the National Security Bureau, as well as their hypocrisy. I was wrong in the past thinking that the persecution of me was not as severe as the persecution of Falun Gong practitioners in China. Even though the persecution takes on different forms, they are all persecution of Falun Gong practitioners.

I would like to declare null and invalid all the things I said under pressure, abduction, threats, and intimidation in 2000. Out of fear, I have said something that a Dafa cultivator should never have said. I know clearly that my actions let Teacher, Dafa, and fellow practitioners down. I feel bad that I did not realize this point until today. I write this article with righteous thoughts, and I hope it can help expose the evil. I will walk my path righteously.

Seen from this dimension, no matter what I said, as long as I was answering questions asked by the National Security Bureau, I was in fact cooperating with the evil. Regardless whether or not my act had brought loss to Dafa or fellow practitioners, it was a stain on my path of cultivation. What I did was equivalent to leaving loopholes for the evil, and it was an excuse for Gu and other people to take credit using the words I said out of fear. At the same time, they also thought their tricks worked on me, and they would further intensify their persecution of other practitioners.

The whole process of exposing evil from different angles and at different levels is also a process of seeing more clearly about oneself, removing attachments, and purging oneself.

Gu's cell phone is 86-13003419755.