(Clearwisdom.net) I am simple woman farmer. In the autumn of 1994, I met a young man who was also a farmer and we married at the end of the year.
In the beginning of our marriage, life was wonderful. In November of 1995, we had our son. However, as our child grew, there was more demand for money and possessions. As a consequence, our family situation became worse and I started having conflicts with my husband. I began disliking him and started swearing and cursing like a pirate when he did something that was against my wishes. I even lost my temper in front of my son, which did not favor benevolent education for children. I lost my temper frequently in front of both my mother-in-law and brother-in-law, with whom I felt offended. I couldn't take the mental pressure and began suffering from depression, which reflected on my body. I felt severe pains daily in all parts of my body. I had to take medication everyday. However, the more medication I took, pains became worse. This situation continued for four years. The medication just could not cure my illness that was brought about from my poor mental state.
On the 7th day of the Chinese New Year in 1999, a day that I will never forget, I visited my sister and stayed at her place for one night. At the time, she had just begun learning Falun Gong. I opened Master Li Hongzhi's book Teaching the Fa in Europe by chance, and completed reading the book without a break.
Before I left her place, my sister presented me with the book Zhuan Falun. I spent three days reading the book from cover to cover. My overstressed mind became calmer. I felt that I had been waiting for this all my life. From the book, I found all answers to life. From that time on, I learned Falun Dafa and began studying the teachings and practicing the exercises.
Master has mentioned in the book,
"When a person practices qigong he has to take virtue seriously, do good things for others, and be kind--he should discipline himself this way in every action and in every circumstance." (Zhuan Falun)
"To be a practitioner you should, for starters, be able to ¡®not hit back when attacked, not talk back when insulted.' You have to endure" (Zhuan Falun)
He also taught that others may treat us badly, but we can't do the same. We can't treat others as enemies.
Under the influence of Falun Gong, my mind became more calm and purified. When there was a conflict, I started from myself and checked for any wrongdoing with whole-hearted kindness, and was able to control my mind and behavior to meet the standard of compassion that a Dafa practitioner should have. I started thinking of others first and avoided doing something that might harm others or hurt others' feeling. As a result, my mind was calm and contained righteous thoughts. My body changed and I felt more relaxed, compared to my state in the past.
Now, five years have passed since I first learned Falun Dafa. I am healthy and have not needed to take any medication since. I am friendly with my mother-in-law, and have become close friends with my brother-in-law. I no longer dislike my husband and am nice to him. Whatever I do, I don't care about my personal losses. I would like to bring the beauty of Dafa to everyone whom I meet through my words and deeds. I hope that they can have the physical and psychological benefits from Falun Dafa and enjoy a beautiful future.
Category: Improving Oneself
