(Clearwisdom.net) A cultivator will meet with a variety of interference at different levels.
"The interference will come from family, society, good friends, and even fellow cultivators. And along with this there is interference from changes in the state of human society and from human notions that were formed in society. All of those things can drag you back to being like an ordinary person. But if you can break through all of it, you can advance towards godhood." (Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. International Fa Conference).
Recently, I've met with interference from fellow practitioners. I've written down my experiences so I can share them with everyone and expose my attachments to fear and lust, and thereby get rid of them.
In mid-April 2005, our study group received a batch of booklets for truth-clarification. Right away we arranged for practitioners to distribute them in their areas. There is a sub-division close to the police bureau, and it's guarded with an electronic security gate, which makes it difficult to spread truth clarification materials there. In the beginning I asked other practitioners to do it, but right away I decided to do it myself. Later a practitioner from our group told me that another practitioner told her that I shouldn't try to get others to spread truth clarification materials there. I was very upset upon hearing that. Hadn't I finally taken care of it myself? I really wanted to argue with the practitioner who had said that, but I remembered Master's teachings and that I should always look inward when something happens to improve my xinxing. When I looked within I realized that deep inside I had the attachment of fear. Even though it's not obvious, it does exist.
Not long after, another practitioner in our group told me she had heard from another practitioner that I was too close to my ex-wife. I was very angry. My wife and I had been divorced for several years. I didn't re-marry, and live with my mentally challenged daughter. My ex-wife usually comes to see my daughter every month or two. After the visit she leaves. We don't have much contact at all. When I calmed down, I thought again about this. Although what the practitioner said wasn't correct, her words had targeted my attachments. Thinking it over, I remembered how over the course of my cultivation I had experienced the test of lust several times. I kept upgrading my xinxing to pass the tests, but in dreams where I was confronted with the test of lust, I hadn't done very well. When I see a pretty woman, I cannot help but to look at her more, which shows that I still have the attachment of lust deep inside. It's time to get rid of it.
My xinxing has improved, and I feel very good. I no longer feel angry toward other practitioners, and I thank them from the bottom of my heart for giving me the opportunity to improve. I realize that whatever interference I encounter, it's no accident. It's targeting my attachments.
"Any time some kind of interference comes along in your practice, you have to look within for the cause and find what it is you still haven't let go of." (Zhuan Falun (Translated by North American Practitioners, 2003))
If we can recognize our attachments, the interference will no longer exist. When we meet interference, we should keep our righteous thoughts, find the cause based on the Fa, and cultivate ourselves diligently. In this way we can strive forward courageously and diligently on the path of Fa-rectification cultivation, and reach consummation.
June 27, 2005
