(Clearwisdom.net) I am a Falun Dafa practitioner from Shuangcheng City, Heilongjiang Province. I started practicing Falun Dafa in March 1999. I have always been very diligent and was able to catch up with the progress of Fa-rectification if I slacked off into a poor state for one or two days. Even during one year in a forced labor camp, I could still catch up with the progress of Fa-rectification.
But during the last year, I wasn't able to be diligent for the entire year. I couldn't let go of my attachment to the pursuit of comfort. Nor could I catch up with Teacher's Fa-rectification progress, just like Teacher described in Hong Yin.
Climbing Mount Tai
I climb the steep steps, stretching miles ahead,
Winding upward and steep, this road,
even to set off is hard;
Glancing back, it's just like cultivating Righteous Fa,
Pausing half way makes salvation hard.
So steel the will, and lift thy leaden leg,
Endure the pain, be diligent, and cast off attachments;
Dafa disciples, the tens of millions -
A place still higher awaits you at Consummation.
On December 11, 2005, when reading "A Suggestion" in Essentials for Further Advancement II, I suddenly saw a vision. I saw that our levels now are greatly different from what they were in 2001. At present Teacher is taking us to very remote celestial bodies. But, I also saw that many practitioners were having big problems breaking through to new levels because they are carrying too much human stuff with them. At this stage, all the human hearts and human attachments have emerged. All these things are interfering with us. Our bodies are way too heavy.
Here I'd like to share what I enlightened to, in the hope of helping those practitioners who are experiencing a state similar to mine.
Issue 204 of Minghui Weekly discussed a lot about the commonly existing phenomena of practitioners not being diligent. The biggest reason has been the attachment to the duration of Fa-rectification. During the time from July 20, 1999 to 2001, especially after the publication of Teacher's article "Towards Consummation," practitioners were very diligent. However, as time passed by, year after year, what they longed for did not happen. They felt very disappointed in their hearts without realizing it. They became relaxed in the following years, with an attachment to consummation and to the things they were trying to do. The evil took advantage of their slacking off and strengthened their attachments.
At this point, I suddenly realized that I had not gotten rid of my fundamental attachment, which is the longing for the "beautiful dreams and wishes" in my human life. I haven't discarded my attachment to comfort, and I have been too lazy. I still have an attachment to taste, among other things. Although I've been studying the Fa, it isn't registered in my heart. My mind is not clear when sending forth righteous thoughts, I only do the exercises once in a while and I am becoming more and more fearful. When I occasionally go out to distribute Dafa materials, I conduct it like a routine and I'm happy to get it over with. My mind is full of everyday people's things. The sacred mission of saving the sentient beings has faded from my memory. All these human attachments were taken advantage by the evil, and I ran into a family crisis without waking up. My body felt heavier and heavier. I felt very tired when I worked or walked. How could I save sentient beings with these impure thoughts? My words and actions were not that of a Dafa disciple. I have let down Teacher and Dafa. I have let down layer after layer of sentient beings.
I also remember the determination practitioners expressed in their articles previously published on the Internet. Only now do I feel how precious and valuable those words are! But in the past I carelessly ignored them. Even right at this moment, the evil is still trying to interfere with me by saying, "You can't write out your vows to Teacher and the sentient beings. If you write them out, you must keep your promises. It will be very hard and you'll suffer a lot! What a shame if you can't keep your promises." But I have seen through their wicked trick. I know that my determination is one of righteous virtue, enlightenment and righteous Fa. It is the sacred mission endowed on Dafa practitioners by history and it must be fulfilled. It is the thought of a god, a thought that enables me to discard my human shell. It is Teacher who helped me to enlighten to all this. And that thought is to let Teacher and sentient beings feel reassured. From now on, I will let go of all my human attachments and be more diligent. I will do well the three things arranged by Teacher, and help Teacher with the Fa-rectification. Let our divine side be fully resurrected and fulfill our grand prehistoric vows. Let all fellow Dafa practitioners bring back all their sentient beings to their heavenly kingdoms.
I'd like to take this opportunity to express my gratitude for Teacher's merciful salvation, for Teacher's compassionate hints, and for Teacher's compassionate caring and help. I'd also like to thank practitioners' experience-sharing articles, thank the staff of Minghui, thank the practitioners who produce truth clarification materials, and thank the practitioners who pass on the materials. Let's be diligent together.
Here I'd like to share one more piece of good news. My realm of thought has been uplifted since I started writing this article, as Teacher has been eliminating those bad things for me when I exposed them. But, I'll need to cultivate away the bad things on my own in the future. Before writing this article, I used to go to bed before nine o'clock as I felt very tired after the day. But now it is already eleven o'clock after I hand copied my article for the second time. I had wanted to give up during the writing but was able to persist with Teacher's help. I didn't feel tired or sleepy. Even my little granddaughter who was with me when I read the Fa accompanied me to the end. I know she must have come here to assimilate to the Fa. When I said to her, "Let's study the Fa together and return to our home with Teacher," she was so happy that she giggled out loud, and she is a baby of only three months.
