(Clearwisdom.net) Between 7:00 p.m. on November 21 and 5:00 a.m. on November 22, 2005, I experienced extreme pain for over ten hours. I even thought of dying to stop the pain. That was really a life and death struggle. However, as soon as my righteous thoughts overwhelmed this wrong idea, the pain disappeared completely.
Before I began the practice I had many illnesses and was thus always suffering. In 1994, I was so fortunate to be introduced to Dafa after attending Master's lecture class. It is Master who gives me a healthy body. I attended a Falun Dafa workshop in the Jiangbei District of Chongqing City. Master gave a lecture and adjusted our bodies. Twelve kinds of illnesses I had suffered before went away during the several days' workshop. From then on I kept studying the Fa and practicing the exercises. I also help spread Dafa. A few years later, the number of Falun Gong practitioners in Chongqing City increased to over 100,000.
On July 20, 1999, the evil Chinese Communist regime started to suppress Falun Gong. I was put into a detention center because I practice Falun Gong. I could not overcome my emotions. Police threatened me, saying that if I did not give up cultivation my son and daughter would lose their jobs. Giving in to this pressure I yielded to evildoers and wrote a guarantee statement. It was Master who saved me once again. I returned to cultivation. From then on, I have done the three things and am validating Dafa.
Two years ago during meditation and I heard Master calling my name and telling me, "Little time is left." I thought then that Master was talking about "not much time for Fa-rectification." And I still was not diligent. Later, Master reminded me again in a dream. During sleep I saw two older people at our workplace who had passed away. They asked me to go to their place. Awakening from the sleep, I realized that my predestined life had come to an end. The reason I am still alive is that Master is extending my life to be used for my cultivation. The time left is not meant for me to enjoy the lifestyle of a non-practitioner. This made me cultivate diligently for a while. But with time passing, I forgot Master's hint to me and indulged in personal interests and emotions due to my poor enlightenment quality. I was slacking off.
At around 7:00 p.m. on November 21, 2005, I suddenly had back pain. I did not pay much attention to it and continued my meditation. The pain became more intense. I still tried my best and mediated for two hours, but the pain did not stop. My spouse read Zhuan Falun to me. I studied the Fa for two hours and sent forth righteous though, but this still did not alleviate the pain. I murmured,
"When it's difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it's impossible to do, you can do it." (Zhuan Falun, from 2000 translation version)
The pain still kept worsening. I sweated a lot, and the pain was still there. I suddenly reminded myself of Master's teaching in Zhuan Falun,
"Some people were in great discomfort and would not move in their seats, waiting for me to step down from the podium to treat them. I would not do it. If you cannot even pass this test, how can you still practice cultivation in the future when you encounter many big tribulations? Can't you overcome such a petty tribulation? Everyone can make it." (Zhuan Falun)
I also recited,
"When you are overcoming a real hardship or tribulation, you try it. When it is difficult to endure, try to endure it. When it looks impossible and is said to be impossible, give it a try and see if it is possible." (Zhuan Falun)
I kept sending forth righteous thoughts, however I experienced great pain. I rolled on the bed and sweated a lot. I vomited twice. I thought the pain was killing me. I wanted to get some pain medicine. I even did not want to live any more. As soon as this thought came out, I asked myself, "Are you still a practitioner? How come a true practitioner cannot overcome the pain?" I should search for and find my own omissions. I thought the old forces must take advantage of the loopholes from my attachments. Although I had cultivated for several years, my attachments to personal recognition, interests, and emotions had not been eliminated. So, the old forces saw them and latched on to my attachments. When I felt the unbearable pain I wanted Master to relieve it so that I could get over it. Was that pursuit? I thought the old forces must attempt to take away my life based that attachment. I realized that I should not acknowledge the old forces' arrangements. I should follow Master's teachings and deny the whole persecution and all arrangements from the old forces. I said to myself, "I am Master's true practitioner. I will be firm along the road Master arranges for me. I will not permit any kind of persecution of me from the old forces. I do not allow the old forces to damage Dafa by using me. The old forces want me to die. I will not! I will finish my pathway to godhood. I will do well the three things and help Master in the human world."
I repeated this three times. A miracle happened. The pain suddenly disappeared. Master's immense compassion had given me a third life.
Master extended my life again. I should be more diligent to live up to Master's compassion. I will use all the rest of my life for cultivation. This is a requirement from Dafa. I will go all out to follow Master's teachings, do the three things well, let go of all attachments, rescue sentient beings and reach Consummation.
