(Clearwisdom.net) Recently, I encountered several issues, and in the process of resolving the issues I realized many things. I would like to share my experiences with fellow practitioners, in hopes that they will be of some help to others.
1. Eliminate the Chinese Communist Party's culture
Since the persecution started I have clarified the truth consistently, but when it came time to talk to people about quitting the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), I became fearful. One day, I read the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party and to my surprise I found that I had certain thoughts that were in agreement with the vicious CCP culture. At that moment, I knew that some of their evil elements were still attached to my body. Once I evaluated the CCP's culture with the standard of the Fa, I found that I saw things very differently. I realized that it was time to eliminate its influence completely. As I cultivated forward, I truly felt that my every thought and action were somehow soaked with the evil CCP's factors. After realizing this, I started to be very calm when trying to persuade people to quit the CCP. It was in fact never my true self that was afraid, it was the evil CCP's factors attached to my body that were afraid of being eliminated.
2. Other people's selfishness is the reflection of our own selfishness
I have been working in a new company for almost two months and I have openly clarified the truth to people at my workplace. Many people have changed their attitudes toward me as a result. At the beginning they opposed me or laughed at me, but now they understand the facts. I have given out many copies of the Nine Commentaries to my co-workers.
Yesterday, the vice president of the company said to me, "After watching you work here for two months, I have decided that you are not qualified for this position. I've decided to let you go." Many of my co-workers believed that the problem was not my ability to perform the job. Rather, the reason for my boss' decision was because I practice Falun Gong. But no one in the company was willing to stand up for me and say something on my behalf.
I realized that this situation was the result of my own shortcomings. My environment must also be a reflection of my true xinxing level. In fact I realized a big problem. The issue was that I always had thoughts like, "I've done well. I must walk a righteous path. I've clarified the facts very well to them. If they still don't change, then it is their own problem. I must not have any loopholes. I must clarify the facts to every one of them, so that I won't regret it later, etc." These thoughts were all about me! Everything made sense and sounded reasonable, but why was there so much of "me" in my thoughts? I was selfish after all! Was I clarifying the truth for myself? Didn't I clarify the truth in order to save them? I felt that this was the same issue as the difference between "protecting religion" and "true cultivation." This was real selfishness.
I suddenly understood why the people around me who knew the truth didn't help me. It was due to their desire to protect their own personal interests. Our surroundings can reflect our true xinxing; if we are selfish, others appear to be selfish as well. Therefore, in the process of clarifying the truth, we must cultivate ourselves well in order to truly save others.
3. If we do not eliminate our selfishness, we will not be able to restrain the old forces
Yesterday I went to a fellow practitioner's home because I wanted to discuss some of my cultivation issues and share about how to solve them. But when I got there, I found out that the fellow practitioner had encountered an even more difficult issue. He had recently been released from a labor camp for the second time, and the day before I arrived five perpetrators from the national security team had surrounded him.
Regarding the persecution against this fellow practitioner, I found out that this practitioner's problem was similar to mine. It is that we think that if we cultivate ourselves well we have done the three things well. Thus, we were unable to restrain the old forces' interference and were often taken advantage of. The old forces are selfish and we were selfish as well. Selfishness cannot restrain selfishness. It was like what Teacher taught:
"There is no constraint between this qi and that qi. When one develops gong in high-level cultivation, what one generates is the high-energy matter, which can indeed heal, repress, and control an illness..." (Zhuan Falun)
Only when we truly become selfless, can we truly generate gong, heal illnesses, and restrain the evil.
4. We are controlling our own cosmos
After I was fired, I thought it was because I practiced Falun Gong. I wondered whether I should insist on restraining the evil before gaining complete control over my surroundings.
Suddenly, I remembered Teacher said,
"Have you thought about this: whoever has persecuted Dafa, whoever has persecuted Dafa disciples, however high the involved being is, an equivalence between that being and you has formed. No matter how high it is it becomes equal to you. But, what's involved are Lords of very high colossal firmaments, Lords of boundless colossal firmaments, and even higher beings, and yet now those highest places of different colossal firmaments that have done bad things against Dafa have formed an equivalence with different Dafa disciples of mine." ("Teaching and Explaining the Fa at the Metropolitan New York Fa Conference 2003")
"The overall situation of the Fa-rectification in the cosmos has been changing rapidly, because Fa-rectification has been charging ahead at a speed that transcends all times. It is getting closer and closer to this "real" dimension, and is getting closer and closer to the range that is visible to the human eye. It has been coming closer to the surface from the microcosm, and the range [of space] that is left is very small now. Of course, although the remaining range in the surface human dimension is smaller now, as you know, the final factors are of higher levels, and the volumes of the partitioned factors are larger now." ("Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. International Fa Conference 2005")
I also remember Master said,
"The Dafa disciples
ascend to the heights of the heavens
In control of Heaven and Earth, rectifying the human realm" ("The Foretelling")
I suddenly realized that we will replace the old forces in the highest levels of the cosmos in the future. It is time for us to control the cosmos. Having understood the Fa, I felt myself becoming tall and large, and was able to resist all the evil that surrounded me. I calmly clarified the facts to the people related to me. I told them that they must not persecute (or use excuses to persecute) Dafa practitioners.
In the past, I often thought I was like a child limping while walking. Teacher was beside me and helped me to stand up from time to time. I kept on walking. Today I suddenly realized that I was about to reach my position. Teacher helped me and I can now control my own cosmos. Later, when I clarified the truth to my supervisors, I found out that I was not fired because I practiced Falun Gong. It was that they felt that I was over qualified, and they didn't have a position that was suitable for me.
I thought that maybe this was Teacher's arrangement. I've clarified the truth to many people around me. I've also distributed the Nine Commentaries to all the places close to my home. Maybe it was time to move on to other places and clarify the truth there.
5. Clarifying the truth should be an ongoing effort
One of my colleagues was a doctor. One time when I was clarifying the truth to him, he replied with some cold words and a disdainful look. The next day, when I passed by him I heard his clear-minded side saying to me, "Even though I treated you badly, please don't ignore me. Please save me."
Because of his plea for rescue, I immediately ignored his disdain and treated him as usual. Not long after that incident, our relationship became harmonized again. He also learned the truth about Falun Gong. When my supervisor wanted to gather information about my practicing Falun Gong, he warned me in advance.
Yesterday I spoke to him and another person who holds a masters degree about withdrawing from the CCP, but both of them played dumb. For one second, I almost wanted to give up. Suddenly, I seemed to hear Teacher's voice, "They don't participate in the discussion. But you just go ahead and speak what you want to say, they will listen."
I talked and talked and it seemed nobody listened. I felt as though my dimension was in chaos. I tried to send forth righteous thoughts to clear it up. In half an hour's time, none of them said a word. Later, the person who holds the masters degree suddenly asked me a question. Then the doctor also asked a question. I then knew that they had been listening.
One hour passed quickly and they only asked a couple of questions. But they already understood a lot. I felt that clarifying the truth to them had helped to eliminate many evil factors.
It is exactly what Teacher said,
"As Dafa disciples tell people the facts,
It's like sharp swords shooting out together from their mouths,
Shredding apart the rotten demons' lies.
Lose no time and save them, hurry up and tell them." ("Hurry Up And Tell Them")
I truly felt that when I was clarifying the truth, swords and arrows shot from my mouth. Large quantities of evil elements were eliminated.
When it was time to return to work, I heard the doctor's clear-minded side say to me: "Help me to clean it up. Please help me to clean it up often. I can't do anything about it." I knew he was really unable to change his belief in science and Marxism/Leninism. He was pleading for help.
To tell the truth, we cannot give up after one or two tries just because they didn't listen or didn't change their attitudes. They have been indoctrinated too deeply by the evil. Every time we clarify something it can only help to clean up some of the evil factors. But I can see results every time. If we are persistent, one day when all the evil is cleaned out, they will be saved. Only by doing this, are we able to save good and innocent people.
Before I left the company, I went to the vice president and clarified the truth to him. He didn't like me saying those things to him, but I still told him everything with a smile on my face. Meanwhile, he seemed to have been shocked several times because my tone was calm, my voice was soft, but I was very firm.
Teacher said,
"Don't worry about what they say, [but] every word that you say is like a thunderclap to them." ("Teaching the Fa in San Francisco, 2005 (Lecture and Q&A)")
When I was ready to leave, he thanked me. I saw that he was thinking. Later, I sat with the president for a while. He very much liked to listen to the truth about Falun Gong. He asked about the self-immolation incident, the Zhongnanhai event, and many other things. We talked for two hours. I kept on smiling while speaking every word. Several people came to visit him, but he impatiently told them to leave. The conversation continued until he understood the truth.
In fact, a lot of everyday people are eager to hear the truth about Dafa now.