(Clearwisdom.net) Recently while reading Minghui Weekly and Zhengjian Weekly (1) I often saw some practitioners who didn't break through the old force arrangements and were suffering from various karmic "illnesses." Some even lost their lives. It could be that the practitioners didn't progress diligently and had gone beyond their given lifespan, hence they walked the old forces' path and died. I had my celestial eye open and wanted to talk about my personal experience, hoping to benefit practitioners with a similar experience.
On the morning of April 23, 2005, a practitioner came in. After she entered the door, a blast of cold air hit my right shoulder and hurt me. I didn't think much of it and continue to meditate.
From October 2004 to the present, I have meditated three and half hours a day and hear music from the celestial world. A practitioner told me I shouldn't spend so much time meditating; instead I should go out and save sentient beings and do the three things well. Although I understood and knew that the practitioner's comment was a hint from Teacher, I still was attached to the wonderful feeling of peace one has while meditating. I told that practitioner, "I plan to study the Fa and go out to clarify the truth of Falun Dafa in the afternoons and evenings." I continued to do what I did. My shoulder pain got worse. Four days later, when I was at group study, my shoulder was killing me every few minutes. I enlightened and told the practitioners, "I meditate three and half hours a day. I should have eliminated karma. How come my pain got worse? It seems that I should spend more time doing the three things." That night my shoulder pain was almost completely gone.
Though I had adjusted my time and energy for doing Dafa work, a few days later, my shoulder still hurt me occasionally. I couldn't find out where the problem was, even though I looked inward. Ten days later, while I was sending righteous thoughts in the morning, I saw from my celestial eye that a young, slim, good looking woman wearing ancient clothes and adornments walking toward me. She said, "You took the money and abandoned me here (brothel)." She sounded miserable when she said the word "abandon" and cried heartbreakingly. I was going to cry with her (I was a male in that life) but I immediately understood that she was bullied by me in that life. I remembered what Teacher said in "Teaching the Fa at the 2004 International Fa Conference in New York" about benevolent resolutions. I quickly told her, "I apologize. I don't know anything that happened in that life but I know we should solve this in a benevolent way. Please stay away from me and don't interfere with me exercising and sending righteous thoughts. Once I succeed in cultivation, I will reward you with good fortune." She disappeared in a flash and so did the pain in my shoulder. Later I often felt Falun turning on my shoulder, especially after I came back from spreading the Fa. No words can express my gratitude toward Teacher.
From then on, I understood what Teacher said in "Teaching the Fa at the 2004 International Fa Conference in New York":
"Your cultivation's goal goes beyond self-Consummation, as you are to save sentient beings, and you are helping the lives of the future to establish that future."
I truly felt what Teacher said in Zhuan Falun:
"You do not have to worship a Buddha or burn incense. As long as you really practice cultivation according to the standard of a practitioner, Buddha will be very pleased to see you."
A few days later, with the wish to save the world's people, I posted flyers disclosing the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) illegally removing organs from living Falun Gong practitioners. It went very well.
Teacher gave me a new life. It was 6 a.m. on January 7, 2003. I sent righteous thoughts without following the right format because I didn't want to wake up my husband who had just come home from a trip. I planned to tell him I had to wake up before 6 a.m. in a few days and wanted to sleep in separate beds. I heard a serious voice say, "The life you have is extended for you to cultivate, not to live like an everyday person."
I sat up on the bed quickly and all my worries disappeared. I recalled what Teacher said in Zhuan Falun:
"There is a criterion, however, that the life prolonged beyond your predestined time to live is completely reserved for your practice. If your mind goes wrong a little bit, your life will be in danger because your lifetime should have long been over."
How can I practice if I carry this heavy sentiment? Teacher also pointed out:
"You must be strict with yourself. In cultivation of the Buddha Fa, you should strive forward vigorously." Thus for practitioners like me, our path gets narrower, and we cannot slack off for even a moment. We must follow Teacher closely and help him rectify the Fa. We must strive forward vigorously.
The above is what I have observed. I am limited to my level. Please point out anything that is incorrect.
Note: (1)Minghui Weekly and Zhengjian Weekly are printed digests from the Chinese versions of the Clearwisdom and Pureinsight websites