(Clearwisdom.net) Since the persecution began on July 20,1999, I have been surrounded by the attachment of fear. I felt so much pressure that it affected my ability to clarify the truth, and it caused me to fall on my cultivation path. I was afraid of being recorded when I clarified the truth. I was afraid of being found out when I sent truth materials. Generally, I was afraid of being persecuted. I always seemed to follow the old force arrangements. As a result, I didn't recover from my cough even after several months. Upon first realizing this, I felt so selfish.
Recently, from studying the Fa I suddenly realized that we should not acknowledge the arrangements of the old forces. First, the old forces belong to the old cosmos. It has no right or ability to arrange anything. Second, our path is arranged by our Teacher. It is impossible for the old forces to force things upon us if we do not admit or accept their influence. It will not be effective.
Teacher said,
"The Dharma's tribulation was a tribulation for humans and religions, rather than a tribulation for Buddhas." ("For Whom do You Practice Cultivation?" from Essentials for Further Advancement)
Actually, the old forces arrangements have nothing to do with us, because we are not supposed to be in the arrangement. Our future is arranged by our Teacher. Our future is bright. When I realized that, I felt the pressure disappear and my cough vanished. I then felt free to do the three things. I understood that I denied the old forces arrangement. I chose to follow Teacher's arrangement.
The above is my personal understanding. Please kindly point out anything improper.
