(Clearwisdom.net) I started practicing Falun Gong in 1997. Since I was not very diligent in cultivation, I did not pass the tests with firmness during the evil persecution. I hereby express my utmost regret in front of Teacher and fellow practitioners. I have been observing the course of cultivation of my fellow practitioners. Today I mustered the courage to write about my cultivation experience to show Teacher and share with all Falun Dafa practitioners.
On July 20,1999, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started the vicious stigmatization and persecution of Falun Dafa. Since my level of understanding of the Fa was fairly low at the time, I completely fell into the big onrush and dye vat of ordinary people during the following three years. However, the principles of "Truthfulness, Benevolence, Forbearance" were still deeply engraved in my heart. I worked in a transportation business during this period. In 2003, I started working for a transportation company. When I was able to obtain Teacher's new articles and lectures with the help of a fellow practitioner, tears ran down my cheeks. I deeply regretted not being able to follow Teacher's Fa-rectification progress. I was determined to abide by Teacher's requirements stringently.
I did follow the standards of the Fa. When I was in the office, I clarified the truth about Falun Dafa to my colleagues. When I was traveling, I disseminated truth clarification materials and clarified the truth to travelers. However, before long the leader of my work unit saw the truth clarification material that I was disseminating and was afraid that it would cause trouble with the supervisors. The unit leaders had a meeting with me and asked me to leave the work unit. They said if I did not want to quit work then I had to quit my cultivation. I told them that they could not stop me from practicing cultivation. I was doing everything according to my Teacher's requirements. I was very clear what I should do and what I should not do. After they tried in vain to force me to quit cultivation, they gave me 10 days to look for another job. (Since I did an outstanding job, when I had previously tried to resign, they did not let me go.) I responded, "If you are afraid of being blamed by higher-ups, I can go now; there is no need to wait 10 days." They said, "You can stay for now. We will see what happens the next several days." After 10 days, I went to see my unit head, but he said that I could continue to stay. Shortly after, to the surprise of many of my colleagues, I was transferred to a better position. I knew that Teacher had been looking after me.
After that I worked harder at clarifying the truth. Because I did not cultivate diligently enough, I was not able to make a lot of people understand the truth right away. One winter I was living in a dormitory at my work unit. I woke up one night to a strange smell. I realized that others had been overcome by coal gas. I immediately opened the windows and doors and woke everyone up. Some of the people had already lost consciousness. I took off my jacket and outer clothing to cover them and then called the hospital to take them away. I drove the rest of the people to the hospital for treatment. In the hospital, I worked the whole night until dawn to help my colleagues. Then I went back to my work unit and continued working my day job. The unit leaders came to me and asked if I was still well enough to work. I said I had no problem since, after all, I was not an ordinary person. All of my colleagues thanked me after they were released from the hospital. I told them to not thank me but Teacher Li Hongzhi and Falun Dafa. It was Dafa that saved them. Since then, my colleagues have truly believed that Dafa is miraculous.
To this day, I have been doing things according to the standards of Dafa in my daily work. My performance on the job has always been outstanding. Some people have been jealous of me and often went to the unit leaders to report me, but Teacher resolved many of the tribulations that I did not pass successfully. I again thank Teacher for his compassion. I will continue to measure my behavior against the standards of Dafa and will never do anything less. I will also do my best to assist Teacher in Fa-rectification and in doing the three things well. Previously, I did not know how to use the computer. Now I have even set up a truth-clarification materials production center.
Since my level of cultivation is limited, please kindly point out any of my mistakes.
