(Clearwisdom.net)
1. Understanding What I Came For
My mother and I have gone to a practice site together since I was two years old. When I was three, in the year 1998, mom took me to attend a young practitioners' Fa conference. After listening to the other young practitioners' speeches, I very much wanted to also give a speech. Mom went to discuss it with the organizers, and they agreed to let me give a speech. I got on stage and started to recite Lunyu. However, I could not go on after I reached the halfway point. The audience went quiet. Maybe they all worried for me. After I was silent for half a minute, I suddenly had a good idea. I put an end to the speech by saying "Zhen-Shan-Ren" loudly. The audience clapped their hands for me. I was very little and had no preconceptions, and the idea came out naturally.
The evil started persecuting Dafa on July 20, 1999, but real Dafa practitioners were not afraid. I always attended Fa conferences with mom, and the stories of Dafa practitioners going to validate Dafa in Beijing were very touching. On the way back home, I said, "They are extraordinary." Mom asked me, "Who are you talking about?" I answered, "Dafa disciples!" Though I was still naughty sometimes, my knowing side understood the truth very well.
On February 9, 2001, my mother and I decided to validate Dafa in Beijing. Mom bought train tickets and said she would tell my dad before we left. However, I was too young to understand why dad tried so hard to stop mom. Dad stepped one foot on the bed and leaned against the wall with another foot. He spent two hours trying to stop her from leaving. My grandmother was shouting and swearing. I was scared by this and said to mom with tears, "Mom, go now. Go now!"
Under protection from our benevolent Master, mom returned home safely from Beijing. Even mom felt strange about why I was so sensible and calm at that time. I liked to be with my mom and wanted to follow her around all the time. Once when she was going out to handle something by herself, I wanted to go with her and even bit her clothes to stop her from leaving. But this time, I encouraged mom go to Beijing for Dafa. It is not hard to see that children can also clearly distinguish right from wrong.
During the crazy persecution, my mother was detained, and the local police often harassed us. My dad was very afraid of them. The atmosphere in the family was bad. Dad used divorce as a way to scare mom. He tried hard to make her give up her cultivation, but mom did not agree to it. However, I lost my way and totally forgot to study the Fa, but one day when I watched a video called, "An Everlasting Story," I suddenly realized something and cried. It woke me up from my dream of a thousand years of reincarnation. I realized where I came from. As the child of a Dafa disciple, I came here to obtain the Fa. We used to be Buddhas and gods in the universe. To save the universe, we followed Master and forsook our glory as gods. We came to help Master rectify the Fa! The story deeply moved my heart. I watched it again and again. Every single sentence was deeply ingrained in my mind. Thousands years of reincarnation and waiting put me in a Dafa practitioner's family. It is all for obtaining the Fa. However, under the evil persecution, I had become lost during the final moments and forgotten my real home and where I came from. How could I forget it! I walked into Dafa again. I will also help Master to rectify the Fa, and I will do all I can to catch up!
2. Distributing Truth Clarification Materials
When I was younger, I had never been afraid of distributing truth clarification materials with my mother. However, notions started appearing as I grew older. I started to experience the attachment of fear. Sometimes when mom did not come back home on time, I would even cry. Especially after the facts of organ harvesting were exposed, my attachment of fear became more serious. The attachment of selfishness also became more serious. I was afraid of losing mom. Mom often asked me to go out with her to distribute the materials. But when I saw there were many materials in her hands, I found a reason to stay at home. Even when I agreed to be with her, I would still stay away from her and was trembling with fear. When mom found me, my face was even blanched, but she always encouraged me by saying that it was actually very easy to distribute materials and that it was my own notion that made me afraid. Mom told me to remember that distributing materials is the most righteous thing to do. It is for saving sentient beings and the truth will conquer evil in the end. She also said that my heart was not as pure as before. I could understand that but still had not taken any action. One day, on the way to my grandmother's home, mom gave me some truth clarification posters and encouraged me to do it on my own. I plucked up my courage and went into a corridor. I put up the first one successfully. Later I walked upstairs and put up another one. Then a man walked towards the corridor. Mom quietly followed me and we walked upstairs. That man entered his home on the second floor. Mom and I walked downstairs safely. This experience gave me a lot of confidence. I thought to myself, "Nothing will happen if there is interference, but isn't it much easier if there is no interference?" Then I asked my mother for the last poster and glued it to the wall. Suddenly I felt very happy, for I had let go of the attachment of fear.
I would further like to share my feelings and thoughts about distributing materials. Actually, what we are doing is most righteous. It is for eliminating the evil and saving sentient beings. The evil becomes afraid when it sees us. Then what should we be afraid of? If all of us do the three things well without worrying about ourselves, the evil will be completely eliminated. We still have selfishness, and that's why the evil can still take advantage of us. If we can harmonize with the Fa well, the persecution will soon end. Some practitioners do not dare to clarify the facts because of their fear. That is the same as being passively persecuted and giving the evil a reason to persecute us. It is actually not hard to clarify the facts. The real difficulty is in our hearts. Mom said that distributing materials is like climbing a mountain. We climb as high as we can. When clarifying the facts, we can also do as much as we can based on our xinxing level. Whether it is climbing a mountain or clarifying the facts, the key is to do it with persistence. The attachment of fear will become smaller and smaller as we put our actions into validating Dafa.
Finally, let us encourage each other in our endeavors by reading Masters' Fa,
"If you are a true practitioner, our Falun will safeguard you. I am rooted in the universe. If anyone can harm you, he or she would be able to harm me. Put simply, that person would be able to harm this universe." (Lecture One in Zhuan Falun, 2000 translation version)
It is important to keep in mind where we come from. We should not forget our purpose from long ago. It was our own choice that gave us the opportunity to obtain the Fa and follow Master to rectify the Fa. Obtaining something is hard, but losing it may be easy. Master said,
"Opportunity knocks but once. Once the illusion that you cannot let go of disappears, you will realize what you have lost." ("Practicing Cultivation After Retirement" from Essentials for Further Advancement)
March 17, 2007