(Clearwisdom.net) My husband was once a Falun Gong practitioner, but is now half-hearted about cultivation. He has always been opposed to me clarifying the truth about Falun Gong. He felt that it was dangerous, and had once asked me to guarantee that I would not go out to clarify the truth. Whenever he found out that I was working on truth-clarifying materials or clarifying the truth, he shouted at me and quarreled with me. He threw big temper tantrums and spoiled the harmony and peace of the whole family.
Thus for an extended period of time, I worked secretly on the truth clarifying materials. I took the opportunity when he was out of the house to create two or three books of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. Then I quickly went out and distributed them. This situation persisted for a long period of time, but I felt that this situation wasn't right.
During this period of time, I persisted in surfing and reading the articles on the Minghui website (Chinese version of Clearwisdom.net). I also began looking inward and found that I have many attachments. I learned that I have to cultivate myself when there are problems. I understood that it is the old evil forces that use the excuse that practitioners still have attachments, and thus arranged the persecution. These things are directed at our own mind nature. I tried to use Dafa to reflect upon my actions and thoughts. This way I found that I had many attachments, including attachments of competition, jealousy, desire and lust, showing off, carelessness, being self-centered, etc. I managed to give up some of these attachments, and I also tried to eliminate my resentment towards my husband, and I stopped criticizing him. I treated him much better than before. At the same time, I also persisted in memorizing the Fa and sending righteous thoughts. Of course I am still very far from meeting Master's requirements.
Recently, my husband and I changed jobs. I didn't have access to a computer and printer and I was unable to create any truth-clarifying materials to save sentient beings. I felt very anxious and bought a second-hand mobile phone behind my husband's back. I wanted to send short mobile phone messages to clarify the truth. But after I bought it and charged up the battery, I forgot to keep it in a safe place, and my husband saw it. In the end he only reminded me, "Separate the usage of this mobile phone from our usual mobile phone and pay attention to safety." I was very surprised and asked, "How did you know what I would be using this second mobile phone for?" He laughed and replied, "Isn't it your intention to send short messages to clarify the truth using this mobile phone?"
It was clear that my husband was no longer against my clarifying the truth, and I was very grateful towards Master for his compassionate care and protection. I realized that in the past my husband was against my clarifying the truth because my mind-nature was poor and my attachments were too many. In the past I was not even up to the standard of an everyday person, and I didn't look inward and examine myself when I met with incidents. According to the law of the universe, the old evil forces dare not oppose truth-clarifying activities, but I met with a lot of opposition from my family in the area of clarifying the truth. This is really because my mind nature didn't meet the standards and requirements of the Fa. Thus the old evil forces used this as an excuse to interfere. As long as we look inward and improve our mind nature, it will bring smooth sailing. It is just like how my husband changed from opposing my truth clarifying activities to supporting me. I didn't do much in the human dimension, I merely followed the requirements of Master and improved my mind nature. The change was dramatic. I really experienced and understood the words,
"Cultivation depends on one's own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one's master." (Zhuan Falun)
I understand that as long as we improve our mind nature, Master will make good arrangements for us.