(Clearwisdom.net) For the past year or so I have been in a state of being busy. Not until recently did I realize I needed to write about this. It came about because other practitioners also showed unfavorable symptoms as a result of being too busy.
As a website editor, it is my job to make daily updates to the website and send important articles to subscribers. I have to daily scrutinize articles containing from 40,000 to almost 100,000 words. That means going over every single article, correcting word choice, punctuation marks, sentence errors, citations and so forth before I can put them on the website. This work has kept me busy for the past year, to the point where I have had no time to do anything else. I would normally finish work at 3:00 a.m. and sometimes did not even have time to eat, occasionally even forgetting to wash my face in the morning. I felt like an endlessly spinning top. As one might imagine, I did not have much time to study the Fa, and barely did the exercises. Because of that, my lower back, shoulders and neck hurt. Gradually, my fingers hurt, too. They would hurt when I used the mouse on my computer. When it hurt too much, I would use my left hand, but time was wasted, and the problems were unsolved.
My practitioner mother told me it was interference. I started to send righteous thoughts to cleanse the field. Sometimes my mother worried for me as well, seeing me loaded down with tasks. She would also send righteous thoughts with me. However, our efforts were not very effective.
Later on, I realized the website was not my only task as a practitioner and I found a solution. Gradually my neck and back, shoulders and fingers stopped hurting. Then, I studied the Fa. I knew that once I had started working, I would be unable to finish until late at night and would by then be too tired to study the Fa. That is why I read the Fa every morning after getting up and would start the work after reading.
The Fa taught me that Dafa practitioners should have a sense of responsibility. We should do our jobs well, no matter how heavy our load is. We should not become resentful or angry when our workload is heavy. I then started to send righteous thoughts to eliminate my attachments of anger and comfort. No matter how heavy the load is, I should do it well, with a peaceful and calm mind. I also noticed a notion - believing that because the heavy workload made me tired, everyone around me should help me. Why didn't they help me when they knew that I was doing multiple jobs? I felt upset and had intended to wait, and depended on others as well. Realizing this notion, I immediately sent righteous thoughts to get rid of it.
Master wants us to show our divine powers. We do not acknowledge the old forces' arrangements and thus must not condone anything belonging to the old universe, negating and being unaffected by the old forces' interference and limitations. Master said,
"What I am doing is leading you toward godhood in cultivation, leading your understanding, little by little, out of humanness and beyond that of man, and the goal is to lead you to Consummation and the ascension of your being. " ("In Fa-Rectification, Your Thoughts Have to be Righteous, Not Human")
Prior to beginning work, I will send righteous thoughts to eliminate the dark minions and old forces' interference, completely denying their arrangements. Then I will ask Master to strengthen my powers so that I can finish my tasks quickly and most efficiently. I also set myself a time limit: I must finish all the tasks within two hours today; no one can interrupt me; time has no restrictions on me. Then I start working. Having done that, I can finish all the tasks in two hours instead of the more than six hours it had previously required.
Since then I have followed that pre-work routine daily and have become efficient. Not only do I have time to study the Fa, I also have time to practice the exercises and even to help my mother with chores. My physical health has improved; my shoulders do not hurt anymore. Having purged these attachments, I feel delighted while working on Dafa tasks, and my cultivation state has become better and better. I know that Master has helped me move one step closer toward godhood.
This experience reminds me that Dafa practitioners should not merely deny the old forces verbally, but follow this with action. Whenever something happens to us, we should first find the reason why and must search ourselves to discover the reason for our attachments instead of remaining at the superficial level.
At this point on my cultivation path I am unable to do well with sending righteous thoughts. When it is almost time, tasks at hand I think I can complete in two minutes lead me astray. I assume that once this specific task is done, I could send righteous thoughts in a "relaxed" and "worry-free" manner. However, there is always a problem that wastes perhaps five minutes. Realizing it is impossible to finish the task, I would then lay it aside but I would not have time to cleanse my thoughts first. I would have different thoughts that prevented me from having a pure mind, and I would regret this. Since I did not properly sent righteous thoughts, the old forces would interfere, and things would fall into a negative cycle.
I am bringing this issue forward to prevent me from repeating the same mistake in the future, and to remind fellow practitioners to not slack off in sending righteous thoughts. We are always busy with multiple tasks and hundreds of trivial things. Whenever that happens, we should spend even more time sending righteous thoughts, and do it well. Eliminating the evil forces helps us with our tasks. A Chinese proverb says, "It is worthwhile to sharpen your axe before chopping the wood."
We must lay aside whatever tasks we are working on when it is time to send righteous thoughts. Calm down, and make our righteous thoughts more effective and powerful.
I am a new practitioner, and my level is limited; please point out anything inappropriate.
