(Clearwisdom.net) I am a veteran Falun Gong practitioner who obtained the Fa in 1999. Since I had too many human notions after the persecution of Falun Gong began on July 20, 1999, I went astray. I resumed my practice of Falun Gong due to Master's great compassion. In the following, I would like to share my cultivation experiences.
1. Letting Go of Human Attachments and Saving Sentient Beings
Some of our fellow practitioners couldn't let go of either of their attachment to their children or their attachment to their spouses. I also couldn't let go of the sentimentality between husband and wife. I couldn't let go of my affection for my husband. As a result, the old forces took advantage of my attachment to create conflicts and hardship for me. In 2004, my husband had an affair. I happened to hear a conversation between them which had been taped automatically by a new fax machine at home. My mind was not clear at that time and I didn't know what I should do. If I divorced my husband, it was going to tarnish Dafa's reputation; if I didn't divorce him, I couldn't let go of my bad feelings toward him. It is hard to describe the uncomfortable feeling I had inside. Later on, I thought, "I am a Dafa disciple, and so many sentient beings are waiting for me to save them: how can I become bogged down by sentimentality and emotions? Would my heart be shaken if other people's husbands had affairs? Is it only because he is my husband that my heart is so shaken?" I knew deeply inside that in my lifetime, I came here to obtain the Fa because I had made a solemn oath to Teacher that I would assist Him in Fa-Rectification. I cannot be deluded by the false images of the ordinary human world. When I thought about these things, I knew what should I do.
My husband returned home and I talked with him calmly. In our conversation, I told him that, as human beings, we should behave ourselves according to the principle of "being truthful" and we shouldn't act like the immoral people around us. They had their own families, yet they weren't responsible to their families and had affairs with others. He replied, "Are you criticizing me?" I said to him, "You should know what you've done to me." He denied it. Then I replayed the recorded conversation to him. Realizing that he'd been caught, my husband asked me what I was going to do about it. I said that I would like to divorce him, take our child with me, and go to live in one of our houses. I promised him that I wouldn't badmouth him in front of our mutual friends, our parents, or our child, since he was the father of our child. I also hoped that he would be all right. He was moved by my attitude. He said that he wouldn't divorce me and that he was lonely and was only playing with her. He promised me that he wouldn't go any further with her. He was also surprised, "Why didn't you fight with me over this affair? You surprised me by the way you dealt with this."
I replied that I was following the teaching of "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance." I told him that my Teacher told me that if a person made a mistake and later on he would like to correct himself sincerely, then we should give him a chance. That is, we should treat other people compassionately. I told him that it was Teacher who taught me how to be a good person. He said that I once again praised Falun Gong. I answered, "If I didn't practice Falun Gong, I wouldn't have acted like this today. I would have had a serious fight with you over this affair, and I would have told everybody about the ugly thing you'd done to me."
Immediately he said that he knew in his heart that Falun Gong wasn't bad like the CCP made it out to be, however, as ordinary citizens, we couldn't do anything about the evil CCP. He said he would like to read Zhuan Falun. It took him two days to finish reading it. When he was reading Zhuan Falun for a second time, the evil CCP again broadcast false propaganda to slander Falun Gong on TV. Because he knew the truth, he refused to watch the TV. Here I want to express my deep gratitude to Teacher and to thank Him for rectifying my former conflict with my husband and also letting him know the benevolent grace of Falun Dafa. This has allowed me to let go of the attachment to my husband. Later on, Teacher published two articles, "Let Go of Human Attachments and Save the World's People" and "In Fa-Rectification Your Thoughts Have to be Righteous, Not Human." I reinforced my righteous thoughts and took seriously the chances to clarify the truth to ordinary people and to save sentient beings.
2. Taking Chances to Save Sentient Beings through Solid Cultivation
Master said in the 2002 article "Righteous Thoughts" that "Dafa disciples are now sentient beings' only, sole hope for salvation." I know that I have significant responsibility and I dare not slack off a bit. I follow what Master said in "Solid Cultivation" in Hong Yin:
"Study the Fa and gain the Fa,
Focus on how you study and cultivate,
Let each and every thing be measured against the Fa.
Only then, with that, is it actually cultivation." (English Translation Version A)
I clarified the truth of Dafa to my colleagues and eight of them started to practice Falun Gong. Some of them read Zhuan Falun over dozens or even hundreds of times. I have read all Master's Fa lectures and I have also persuaded people to quit the CCP. Sometimes I wanted to clarify the truth to different people, and I asked Master to bring predestined people to me. I clarified the truth to whoever came to me and most of them understood and quit the CCP. Master said, "Every person you come into contact with in society is someone to clarify the truth to." (Essentials for Further Advancement II, "To All Students at the Nordic Fa Conference") I clarify the truth when I buy food, clothes, and other things. I clarified the truth to the vendors while I was buying something. As long as what I do is out of concern for sentient beings, Master brings the destined people to me. Sometimes when I thought about clarifying the truth to someone, that person would soon come and say they were looking for me.
I have a cousin who worked away from my hometown. A few weeks ago he came to visit me and I clarified the truth about Falun Gong to him. He said that if in his class someone said that Falun Gong was not good, he would always say, "How come? My sister practices Falun Gong." Before he left, I gave him a booklet so he could show it to his classmates. He said that he wanted his brother in college to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. I said that his brother himself had to agree in person. He promised me that he was going to persuade his brother as soon as he returned home. A few days later, he gave me a call and said that he had been in a car accident but that he was all right because Teacher protected him.
I also have a cousin who lives in the countryside. I have clarified the truth about Falun Gong to him, and he has seen the truth-clarification VCD and also has read Zhuan Falun and the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party. When I met with him the other day, he gave me a list of more than 20 people who would like to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. I said that these people would have to agree personally. Due to his persuasion, all these people agreed and finally managed to quit the CCP. By now he has already obtained the Fa and manages to practice the Falun Gong exercises.
One of my brothers is self-employed and has his own business. He is a practitioner and has managed to persuade eight people to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. My sister-in-law has already successfully persuaded more than a dozen of her relatives, classmates, and colleagues to quit. Once when I clarified the truth about Dafa to a person from my hometown, I gave him a truth-clarification VCD. The following day, he gave me a list of three of his family members plus his son and the classmate of his son, all of whom wanted to quit the CCP. Another time I clarified the truth on a bus to a stranger. When I asked him what nickname he would like to use to quit the CCP, he immediately took out his ID and asked me to use his real name.
The people that have quit the CCP after I clarified the truth to them come from all walks of life, such as CEOs, managers, mayors, teachers, doctors, college students, elementary school pupils, self-employed people, workers in the recycling business, and even taxi drivers. I don't remember exactly how many. I don't mean to show off by talking about this, I just want to say something to my fellow practitioners who haven't come out to join us in clarifying the truth about Falun Gong and saving sentient beings, since all the sentient beings are waiting for the truth about Falun Gong and waiting for us to save them. If we don't fulfill our solemn oaths, we are really going to regret it. I also realize that there is a great gap between diligent practitioners and me, and in the near future, I would like to be more diligent so that I am worthy of Teacher's compassionate and painstaking salvation.
June 11,2008