(Clearwisdom.net) I am a senior internist, and since childhood I have completed 17 years of empirical science education, and also worked in that capacity for several decades. In my mind, my notions about empirical science is probably more stubborn than others. This is what I must face up to. I know that Master said, "The Fa can break all attachments," ("Drive Out Interference" from Essentials for Further Advancement II) As long as I study the Fa, and assimilate the Fa in my mind, the Fa will be able to eliminate "ordinary human notions." The Fa can guide me to make the right choice at critical moments.
On July 15, I woke up on time at 11:55 p.m. I felt a sharp pain in my back, in the area of the left scapula. It was a severe burning pain, and felt like something was torn. I calmed down for a moment, thinking that it would pass quickly, but it didn't. The pain didn't lessen but made me perspire. I was suddenly on guard, "It's an illusion, interference! I must not acknowledge it. You leave me alone," I said. I immediately sent forth righteous thoughts and requested Master to strengthen me and help me pass the test! A Dafa disciple's good physical state is needed to validate the glory of Dafa and must not allow any beings using any excuse to damage their bodies with "illness karma." I felt more and more at ease. I had another thought. Dafa disciples are one body. Dafa is harmonized and indestructible. The old forces covet every disciple. I must not allow the old forces to create a gap in me. My compassion emerged and I recited Master's Fa:
"During the Fa-rectification of the cosmos, I can make a reasonable arrangement for those of you who don't interfere with my validating the Fa; I can have you become beings in the future. Those of you who seek a benevolent resolution should leave me and wait in my surroundings. If you really cannot leave me, then don't have any part in interfering with me. In the future I will be able to achieve Consummation, and I will offer you a benevolent resolution." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2004 International Fa Conference in New York")
Master mercifully gives all beings' a chance. When I thought of this, my eyes moistened. I am giving these beings a chance. They should go ahead and choose! The most basic requirement is that they cannot interfere with my validating the Fa using any excuse, and they are not allowed to disrespect Dafa disciples. Dafa disciples' every step has been arranged by Master. Master lets his disciples reach consummation. These beings appear in my body, so we apparently have a predestined relationship. Whether they want to be part of my future is all up to them!
I became more and more tranquil, and the severe burning pain in my back gradually lessened. At this point I felt I was tall and straight, as tall as the heavens and incomparably noble. I was enveloped in a steady stream of righteous thoughts, and I was peaceful and serene with no fear at all. At that moment, the pain was almost gone, leaving only a slight residual burning sensation. I continued sending forth righteous thoughts, "Eradicate all evil factors that damage Dafa, disintegrate the remaining dark minions and all elements of the evil communist specter in other dimensions. To the disciples who are being imprisoned and constrained, hurry and use righteous thoughts to rid yourselves of the shackles, return to and assist Master in the tide of Fa-rectification. Time is pressing, so don't hesitate. Use a Dafa disciple's righteous thoughts to strengthen fellow practitioners in the forced labor camps or jails." I looked at the clock. It was 12:40 p.m. I had sent forth righteous thoughts for 45 minutes. The pain had disappeared, though I didn't even notice when.
Regarding this "condition" of mine, it is a very common "acute condition" that I see clinically. I can make the diagnosis and treatment easily. If I had relaxed my main consciousness even a bit at the time and let the evil take advantage of the loophole, the outcome would have been totally different. Through this process, I personally experienced the nature of righteous faith and righteous thoughts. To tell you the truth, I am not diligent most of the time and feel ashamed for letting down compassionate Master, as I often divert my attention to everyday people's things (work and living). However, ever since I obtained the Fa I have firmly followed Master at all times and places, throughout the persecution of Dafa and during Fa-rectification, and never wavered or hesitated. Once I chose Dafa, and compassionate Master, my faith was firm. It was Master's strengthening, the foundation built on studying the Fa, and my firm belief in Master and the Fa that enabled me to pass this test. A physician is especially susceptible to the idea of "illness" (especially senior physicians). This is also the reason why I was often interfered with. Through studying the Fa, I became more vigilant towards "empirical science." I think about Master's teaching almost every day:
"Nothing is as profound as BUDDHA LAW. Of all teachings in the world it is the most wondrous and highest science. To open up this field, ordinary people have to fundamentally change their way of thinking. Failing that, the reality of the universe will forever remain something of a myth to mankind, and ordinary people will forever grope around inside the box created by their own ignorance." ("On Buddha Law" from Zhuan Falun)
I am Master Li Hongzhi's disciple. I walk the cultivation path arranged by Master. I am a cultivator who opens up this Buddha law field. I must change my way of thinking as soon as possible. In Zhuan Falun, Master used an example about a 50-year-old practitioner who was hit by a vehicle but was not hurt when she was on her way to attend the lecture, to tell us a principle,
"We'd say that a good or bad outcome comes from one thought. The difference in one thought leads to different results." (Zhuan Falun)
Where do our righteous thoughts come from? They are from Dafa.
My third eye is not open. Although I can't see through my third eye, I constantly feel Dafa's boundless mercy. I earnestly want to say to all fellow practitioners: We should study the Fa, listen to Master's words, do the three things and cultivate ourselves while doing them. There is not much time left. If we can do it, that is cultivation, and not just work. Use Dafa as a touchstone for everything.
This is what I have realized. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.