(Clearwisdom.net) I remember when I first obtained the Fa, there was a string in my heart that bonded my cultivation to the Fa. I was particularly austere, fearing that if I were not careful, I would trip and fall. I used to have this "traveling ten thousand li in a day" feeling. Whether I cultivated well or not, Master was watching me all the time. I was still attending university at that time. Sometimes, my friends would tell dirty jokes, and I thought to be friends with them, I needed to partake in the revelry. I would laugh and joke, too. At such moments, I would feel someone patting me quite heavily from behind. When I turned around, I wouldn't see anyone. Later I realized that it was Master giving me hints.
Whenever I did well, Master would encourage me. When I was carrying heavy items, passers-by would unexpectedly offer to help me carry them. I thought that as I was still young and strong, it's quite a surprise to receive offers for help. Later, I recalled that Master said that if you cultivated well, others would smile at you when you saw them. It was because of the many hardships I encountered and the sacrifices I endured according to the standard of cultivators in society, that these things occurred many times.
After the persecution started, I abandoned cultivation for a while because of fear and various attachments. My heart was full of contradictions, although I knew that Dafa was magnificent. Under the enticements of society, I didn't pass the test. I was walking a tortuous path for a long time. Although I started cultivation again, my condition has not been good.
It's been about a decade since I first started cultivation. Often, I would frequently reflect on my cultivation status after obtaining the Fa. At that time, I cultivated alone. Although I longed to contact other practitioners to share understandings, I did not have the opportunity. Perhaps my path was prearranged this way. At that time, I understood that I must be strict and follow a high standard. I dared not slack off a bit. But now, I have this feeling of time passing me by without making progress. In my heart, I know I must cultivate diligently. I try hard without success. No matter how I study, how I exercise, things do not seem to work. Even though I may turn the tide for a few days, more often I am worried about my condition. Thinking about it more deeply, what could be the real reason? Actually it's the issue of not cultivating diligently enough. Master has repeatedly said that diligence means doing the three things well.
Since we have already obtained the Fa, we must cherish the opportunity and do the three things well, as Master requires. Only when we truly cultivate diligently, can we break through the old forces' arrangements.
