(Clearwisdom.net) After working through several problems, I realized that practitioners should not handle technical difficulties using only their human mentality.
During the evening two days ago, I was installing encryption software on a computer. Because I was not familiar with the installation process, I followed the instructions step by step. However, I could not succeed after trying many times. From 6 p.m. to midnight, the idea that I should stop doing it and study the Fa came to my mind several times. However, I did not do that. Later, I discovered my attachments to competition, to ordinary technical skills and to validating myself. Since the software could not be successfully installed, I went to bed after sending forth righteous thoughts at midnight. While I was practicing the sitting exercise the following morning, I suddenly realized where the problem was. When I tried it again after doing the exercises, the problem was solved in less than 10 minutes.
Last night, I tried to install the operating system on a fellow practitioner's old computer. Because it was a foreign brand, the BIOS setup was different. Originally, I thought that the installation could be finished very quickly. However, I could not succeed after trying more than half a dozen times and the time was approaching 6 p.m. My child was also asking me to play with him. Based on what I had learned the day before, I understood that I should not keep trying. I told my child that Daddy needed to deal with some important things. Then, I started to send forth righteous thoughts. Although I did not completely calm down, I felt that the energy emitted from my palm was very strong. After sending forth righteous thoughts, some clear thoughts jumped into my mind. The BIOS interface and the correction step clearly appeared before my eyes. I turned on the computer, solved the problem, and quickly finished the installation.
While browsing the Internet this morning, I found that I could not break through the Internet blockage. I tried to use FreeGate version 6.89U4 and LotusProxy, but it still did not work. After going to my company and finishing my normal work, I tried to break through the Internet blockage again. From 10 a.m. onwards, I tried every version of FreeGate after 6.72, but I still could not succeed. At 11:55 a.m. I decided that I should send forth righteous thoughts. I added one thought, asking Master to support me to clear away the interference. Once on the computer again, FreeGate version 6.81 successfully broke through and connected to the Internet. I found the link to FreeGate version 6.89U5. I downloaded and installed it on my computer, and found that I could break the Internet blockage again! The software was very fast. I thought that I really had to share my experiences in the past two days with my fellow practitioners.
I started to practice Falun Gong in 1996. After the persecution started in 1999, I was jailed in a forced labor camp and deviated from the righteous cultivation way. In 2005, I realized my mistake and began to cultivate again. In 2007, I started to help at local material sites by providing computer support to them. However, even the nearest fellow practitioner lived a great distance from me, so I could not attend the group Fa study. I was not steadfast when I studied the Fa alone at home.
When I read the article, "Calling for Papers for The Sixth Mainland China Falun Dafa Practitioners Cultivation Experience Sharing Conference on the Internet," I felt ashamed of myself. I did not practice well, so I really did not have anything to write. That evening, I had a dream. In the dream, I sat for an exam at a school. On the examination paper, an item of "self awareness" was listed. I discussed the article calling for papers with my wife at dinner. My wife criticized me, "You have not done the three things well. You have not persuaded anyone to resign from the CCP yet. Can you call this 'validating the Fa'?"
I read the Minghui website every day and realized my shortcomings from other practitioners' experience sharing. Although I have not successfully persuaded anyone to quit the CCP, I have never stopped working towards it. Thus I have worked on overcoming my fears and written letters to persuade people to resign from the CCP. I believe that eventually I will overcome my obstacles and catch up with Fa-rectification.
I understand that I am a good disciple. I have been through almost all the deviations that Master warns us about. Over a period of time, I was upset and made many mistakes. However, merciful Master never gave up on me. He was always taking care of me and giving me hints. My fellow practitioners visited me from far away, studied the Fa and discussed it with me, and helped me wake up and come back to Dafa. Whenever I practice the exercises, I cannot help crying and I feel warmth covering my whole body. The Minghui website connects practitioners from all around the world. The righteous thoughts and righteous actions of steadfast practitioners keep encouraging me. I must walk well on my precious final path.
October 5, 2009
