(Clearwisdom.net) I had a late start in cultivation of Dafa, and my understanding of the Fa principles was not that clear for a long time. As a result, I suffered a lot of tribulations during the persecution. But every time I was in trouble, Master always helped me to get released from detention. In October 2008, when I was being detained, I developed a "sickness symptom" that eventually led to my release. I knew it was a result of Master's protection and fellow practitioners' efforts.
It was during the time of the Beijing Olympics that I was arrested by several dozen police officers, and my home was ransacked. At the time, I only had one thought: they [the persecutors] are also people waiting to be saved by me. It was not the first time I had told those police the facts about Falun Gong; so this time I had nothing to fear.
After the police brought me to the State Security Bureau and did some paperwork, they took me to a room that had more than 20 young police officers in it. They were all tired and sleepy when I came in. After I made some small talk, they became interested in what I had to say. Soon all of them gathered around to listen to me. After I told them the facts about Falun Gong, they started to ask questions. Our conversation lasted until the next shift the following day. Encountering a new crew of officers, I again told them about Falun Gong. The police officer who led the group to ransack my house asked, "Why did you keep so many illegal items in your house?" I said, "You are doing your job, and I have my own belief. What you consider illegal was my treasure. Your action to ransack my house was illegal, and you are persecuting me. I am a victim." He was very angry and became speechless. After he left, I told other officers about the truth. My talk had a definite effect on them; someone even announced his decision to quit the Chinese Communist Party and its affiliated organizations.
In the evening, they sent me to a 610 Office brainwashing center. I wondered what my omission might have been that caused this, but I could not find it. I knew that the evil had no right to persecute me, despite my omission, because what I was doing was validating the Fa and saving people. I thought, I do not belong here. Now that I am here, I should eliminate the evil at this moment. I kept sending forth righteous thoughts and recited Master's teachings that I could remember. On the third day, a fellow practitioner gave me a copy of Master's lecture from the 2008 New York Experience Sharing Conference. I hand-copied one for myself and read the lecture twice a day. Prior to that, I had read this lecture many times. But when I read it in the brainwashing center, it felt like a lecture that I never heard before. I began to discuss with other practitioners so we all could improve our understanding and relinquish our attachments. Gradually, I realized that I was too attached to myself, and the evil took advantage of this and had me arrested.
I would tell every police officer I met the truth about Falun Gong; some listened, some did not. One day, a State Security police officer tried to get a confession from me. But I kept telling him the facts and talked about the benefits of Falun Gong. He was disappointed with me and said, "I am trying to get some useful information from you, but you keep telling me about Falun Gong. If Falun Gong is so great, how come you ended up here?" I said, "You are doing your job, but I have my own belief. We are equal under the law, we are not that different. If you don't get paid, would you still be here to do your job?" He jumped up, "How would I support my family if I don't get paid?" I said, "Well, for our belief, we have spent our own money, risked our lives, and told people the truth. Do you dare to say it is the same thing as your job? You told me that Falun Gong is not good; could you tell me why is it not good? Have you read Zhuan Falun?" "No," he replied. I continued, "If you really want to learn about Falun Gong, read the book please. Maybe you will understand why we are doing this despite the risks. If Falun Gong was not good, we could not have kept our faith for even ten days, let alone ten years. More than one hundred countries have Falun Gong practitioners; thousands of awards and proclamations have been issued to Falun Gong. Why is Falun Gong persecuted only in China?" After a long silence, he said, "Maybe you should go abroad." I said, "No matter where, good and bad should not be confused. The truth is eternal. But you have to know what's right. The truth will be known to the whole world one day." After saying these words, I was about to leave the room. The policeman said, "I took notes on what you said; is it ok?" I responded, "Of course it's ok. I really wanted it in writing anyway. Let me tell you something to save yourself. If you want to quit the CCP, you could write the message on a bill of paper currency and spend it. It could save your life in the future." "Is it that simple?" he asked. I answered, "Yes, Gods and Buddhas only look at your heart." Everyone in the room laughed.
When I clarified the truth to the women hired by the police to watch me, I started to chat with them about their life, work, and social issues that interested them. They came from a poor region and signed up for the job for a meager paycheck. Looking at these people, my heart was full of compassion. I tried my best to answer their questions. After I told them the truth, many of them agreed to quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. After a home leave, one woman brought back a list of more than 50 names from her home town; they all wanted to quit the CCP. Some of the women later became Falun Gong practitioners.
When I was first sent to the brainwashing center, the energy field appeared to be dark when I sent forth righteous thoughts. But the second day when I sent righteous thoughts, a flash of golden ray was cast into the field, and Master's law body led many people to me. I immediately realized that I should use my divine side to think. With Master's law body, the righteous gods, the positive elements in the universe, and fellow practitioners' strong energy field, I felt very confident. The energy field surrounding me suddenly brightened up. On the third day, the energy field became even brighter, and all righteous gods were providing support to me. On the fourth day when I sent forth righteous thoughts, four golden characters "wo yao hui jia (I want to go home)" appeared in front of my eyes. When I shared this with other practitioners, they all felt very encouraged.
A fellow practitioner told me that some hired "assistants" in the brainwashing center were quite harsh to practitioners. They often abused practitioners with violence and verbal insult. The practitioner told us to send forth righteous thoughts to punish the "assistants." I thought, we still have human mentality, such as competitiveness, showing off, selfishness, a desire to change others and not ourselves, resentment, etc. Cultivators have no enemies. Even these "assistants" came here for Dafa. They may not be good people in this life, but that does not mean they were bad in all other lives. They might have been waiting for this moment for many lives. Now finally they have a chance to know us and be saved by us; we should use all our compassion to help them, and not focus on their ugly side. We should focus on their good side. After I had these thoughts, the next day they completely changed to different persons. Some helped and cared for me; others changed their behavior. Some even wanted to quit their job at the brainwashing center.
In order to disintegrate the evil forces, we have to start from our own hearts and relinquish our old notions. When every one of us can face the evil persecution without any fear, the evil will have no place to survive.
September 23, 2009