(Clearwisdom.net) Greetings, revered Master! Greetings, fellow practitioners!
I have practiced Falun Gong for eleven years and would like to summarize my cultivation experiences and report to Master.
Refusing Bribes and Verifying Dafa at Work
I am a construction section manager at work. Many people admire my job and think that it earns me a lot of money. During the holidays, many construction companies that do construction projects for our work unit would send our company gifts. In 1998, just when I had begun the practice, I received a DVD player as a gift from a construction company. They had a family member who worked in a DVD player manufacturer, and they said they could get it cheap. I thought then that I had better take it since they had already bought it, but I intended to pay for it. When I asked the price, no one would tell me how much it was, so I checked the price at a department store--about 2,300 yuan. I wanted to reimburse them for the cost of the player, but they refused to accept the money. Finally I told them that I was a Falun Gong practitioner, and I should do the right thing. My supervisors and co-workers were astounded at what I did. From then on they treated me differently from everybody else.
Doing Well at Work to Verify Dafa
I am responsible for my company's budget with some construction companies and have a certain authority. Many hidden rules have replaced the principles and policies in the normal construction business. There is one saying now that goes: "Whether a construction company earns or loses money depends on the person who does the budget." At year's end I provided a fair and accurate budget that considered the advantages of both sides (our work unit and the construction companies). Persisting in upright principles and policies, I was able to deal with conflicts from both sides. They called Falun Gong a "righteous army." I earned the full trust and confidence of both sides.
Offering People Salvation and Fulfilling Our Vows Made Long Ago
I took any opportunity at work to talk about the goodness of Falun Gong and the communist regime's persecution of people, and asked them to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). Having worked with a team of a dozen people who worked for our work unit a long time, I interacted with them a lot, frequently told them things about Falun Gong, and brought them flyers and other materials to read. They understood, and everyone withdrew from the CCP.
I frequently brought up those topics with the other companies' leaders with whom we had projects. I would make many attempts--until they were convinced and quit the CCP. I also reached out to other colleagues who worked in different divisions; and many of them quit the CCP.
Realizing Shortcomings and Determination to Solve Them
Yesterday, our family of three had an experience sharing. Each of us looked inward. I was in a cold sweat when I realized I had so many problems. I still have attachments while cultivating: to be competitive, to seek comfort, to fear, and to lust and desire. Master said, "the entire cultivation process for a practitioner is one of constantly giving up human attachments." (Zhuan Falun) At this point I was embarrassed for the still existing attachments after so many years of cultivation. I felt I had let Master down.
I still have another serious problem--I cannot tolerate criticism. The problem is so severe that my practitioner wife and I often run into arguments. I did same thing at the work, especially with construction companies who worked for us. I treated them like I did my own staff; had no patience to listen to their suggestions, argued with them from time to time, and forgot I was a Dafa practitioner, which led to bad results. Sometimes I even lost my temper with my superiors and insisted that it was the right thing for me to do. I forget to look inward, as Master and Dafa require.
Master said,
"So, when you get into a heated exchange and it stirs things up in you, or you get into a conflict over something that concerns your vital interests, perhaps the factors behind it were put there by Master. Maybe you only get upset when it's a case of someone saying something that really provokes you or hits a sore spot. And maybe the person really did treat you wrongfully. But, those words weren't necessarily said by that person. Perhaps they were said by me. (Everyone laughs) I want to see how you handle things at the time. When you butt heads with that person, it actually equates to butting heads with me. (Master laughs) (Everyone laughs, applauds) That's all for today. I can completely remove the material substance for you, but the habits that were formed are something you definitely have to remove--definitely, absolutely. (Applause)." ("Fa Teaching Given in Manhattan" 2006)
After reading the above-cited Fa I realized that that is exactly what had happen to me, and how serious my problem was. I also understood that Master has given so much thought to this issue to save us.
