(Clearwisdom.net) I am thankful for Teacher's arrangements and the Minghui/Clearwisdom website for providing an opportunity for practitioners to share experiences. Here I would like to share how my cultivation has improved during the last two years.

I was filmed while distributing truth-clarification materials. My company director ordered two colleagues to monitor me closely and threatened that if I still practiced Dafa, I would be forced to go to a brainwashing center.

During those days, I frequently repeated Teacher's poem "What's to Fear":

"Should you have fear,
it will seize upon you
If thoughts are righteous,
evil will collapse
The cultivator's mind
is loaded with Fa
Send righteous thoughts,
and rotten demons explode
Gods walk the earth,
validating the Fa" (Hong Yin Volume II, translation version A)

My righteous thoughts were strong. When they talked to me, I did not allow them to say Teacher's name directly. Only if they added the title Mr., would I allow them to talk to me. They asked me how I could believe in Dafa, being such a refined person. I replied that since I cultivated Falun Gong, I realized that being refined was the result of Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance.

An article from the Minghui website that discussed the importance of sending forth righteous thoughts and eliminating persecution helped me a lot. I reread Teacher's Fa regarding sending forth righteous thoughts. I repeated it again and again. Through reading every day, I gained a real understand of sending forth righteous thoughts.

After that, when I sent righteous thoughts, I could hear a windy "huuuu" sound. Maybe Teacher had already given me a mighty Fa tool. Dafa harmonized everything for me. Even my workplace's strict monitoring could not have an effect on me. Someone recently asked, "In the end, who washed whose brain?"

I was honored by my colleagues and neighbors as being a good, righteous, honest, diligent and fair person. But then one night the tables turned and I was the one blamed and who "needed help." I was not allowed to do any important work. Also, I was threatened that I would negatively influence the future of my husband and children [due to my practicing Dafa]. My family and friends who knew the truth were very worried.

In recollecting my thoughts and actions over the recent weeks, I realized that something was wrong. I had been at my workplace for thirty years. I like people and people like me. If I look down on someone, they say I am so refined. If I hate someone, they never communicate to me that this is incorrect. Is that harmonizing Dafa? Teacher said, "Zhen-Shan-Ren is the sole criterion to discern good and bad people." (Zhuan Falun) As Dafa practitioners, we can only use this standard to judge people. I discovered that once my concept changed, things improved. It felt that everything around me, even the flowers, smiled at me.

One month later, someone brought me a Guarantee Statement and asked me to sign it so that I could continue to work. In the paper, there was wording to the effect, "I will not do anything to threaten our country." I said, "I am a Falun Gong practitioner! Everyone knows I do well on my work projects. But I am not allowed to continue a certain project because I practice Falun Gong. That does not make sense. I will not sign it." They said, "If you sign it, you will be alright." My director said to me seriously, "If you don't sign it, you will deserve whatever happens to you." I replied, "Please remember that I will still cultivate Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance. I will still practice Falun Gong even if you put a knife to my throat." He was shocked. Actually, I was surprised too.

I only clarified the truth to a few colleagues before the tribulation. In the end, I always said that I had to bear it patiently. Thus, I was not easily angered. Shouldn't I cultivate Forbearance well?

One day I reviewed Master's "Teaching the Fa in the City of Los Angeles" and noticed a question by a practitioner:

"Disciple asks: Having interacted more with Western practitioners and Taiwanese practitioners, I really feel that the mainland China students who grew up in the wicked Party's culture have been corrupted quite a bit. From our habits of thought to what we say and how we carry ourselves, there is so much that we should search deep within over."

This shocked me quite a bit. I liked the Western practitioners' pure and peaceful heart toward Dafa. I could see the differences between the sharing of Western practitioners and Taiwanese practitioners from that of mainland Chinese practitioners. But I didn't look inside. This disciple's question helped me to check myself. I thought that I had already given up the Chinese Communist Party's (CCP) culture. But I hadn't realized that I accepted some of the CCP's culture as natural. I looked inside and realized that I have failed to look inward when I had conflict with others. I blamed others first and looked externally. Sometimes, even when I felt I handled the conflict, I whispered to myself, "I must cultivate now. Otherwise..."

Since then, I added a righteous thought to eliminate the CCP's culture when I send righteous thoughts. After I get rid of those deviant concepts and attachments, I really can do well. "To bear without any hatred or grievances at all is the Ren of a practitioner." ("What is Forbearance (Ren)?" from Essentials for Further Advancement). I look inward to find out how to go forward and get rid of each ordinary thought, and I use the Fa to measure my behavior.

I am clear on the Fa and I am identifying my loopholes. I am responsible to those colleagues who were actually forced to write guarantee statements and join the activities [against Dafa]. This duty made me not complain about them but rather find opportunities to clarify the truth to them.

I understand that clarifying the truth is a good way to deny the evil before the evil arrangement is thoroughly eliminated in mainland China. I should disclose the persecution wherever I am. No matter what kind of environment I am in, I should clarify the truth well. There are so many different ways to clarify the truth. The most important thing to remember is to have righteous actions along with righteous thoughts.

Now, I am not disturbed at all by those with the evil CCP's distorted interpretations that try to argue with me. I am patient with them as I clear up their confusion. I pay attention to them during work and in daily life. There are some to whom I have already clarified the truth, and they have withdrawn from the CCP and its affiliated organizations. I continue to share with them my path of cultivation, Dafa's power and expose the CCP's crimes.

I still have lots of attachments that should be gotten rid of. My faith in Dafa is very steadfast. I appreciate Teacher's arrangements and protection.

July 1, 2009