(Clearwisdom.net)
I began to practice Falun Dafa at the end of 1995. Teacher has repeatedly told us: "study the Fa, study the Fa, study the Fa..." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Chicago Conference")
Assimilating into the Fa is what allowed me to remain here today. In these 15 years, I have spent all of my spare time studying the Fa. Even when I was in a detention center and forced labor camp, I sought opportunities to study and recite the Fa.
Because I am able to earnestly study the Fa with a peaceful mind in any environment, I was righteous and not confused when the evil pressed down on us. Since July 20, I have followed Teacher up till today, walking from humanness towards godhood, and becoming more and more mature.
I am writing down several important steps of my validation of the Fa during the 11 years of the evil persecution, to testify to Dafa's mighty virtue.
On July 20, 1999, Jiang's regime began the insane persecution of Falun Dafa practitioners. Just like Teacher said, as if the sky was going to collapse, every practitioner felt a huge pressure. Because I persisted in my belief in Dafa, I was suspended from work on July 23, 1999, and went through the so-called "suspension for study."
Cadres at my workplace, education working committee and municipal party committee organization department repeatedly put pressure on me. As I had a solid foundation from studying the Fa, I was able to maintain sober righteous thoughts, and be moved by no one. When I handed in my "application to withdraw from the Chinese Communist Party" to the party office, my wages were stopped, and I was given a serious administrative sanction.
In that kind of evil environment, I stepped onto the path of validating Dafa in Beijing. I went there for the first time in March 2000, and was detained by my workplace for a month. During that period, a person who used to be an assistant came three nights continuously, and seriously warned me: It is wrong to appeal in Beijing, you must rein in at the brink of the precipice! I repeatedly tried to find the answer from the Fa, whether it was right or wrong to validate the Fa against the pressure. One day when I recited
"Cultivating gong has a path
mind is the way
On the boundless sea of Dafa
hardship is your ferry" ("Falun Dafa" from Hong Yin, translation version A)
I became aware that it was absolutely not wrong to step forward, validate the Fa, and to say just words for Dafa!
I was sent to a forced labor camp the first time in January 2001, where I was tortured and mistreated. I was shocked with two electric batons simultaneously on my limbs, face and lips for over two hours. I was cuffed to the ground for over ten hours, and had extreme pain in my lower back and legs. However I believed that Teacher was beside me, during the persecution process. I repeatedly recited:
"Dafa is what you carry everywhere,
Zhen Shan Ren, rooted in the mind;
A great Arhat walks the earth,
Gods and demons fear with awe." ("Benevolent Might" from Hong Yin, translation version A)
With these formidable righteous thoughts, I endured the torture from high voltage electric batons. I knew Teacher protected me and realized a Fa principle through this test: My personal cultivation path is connected to Teacher's Fa-rectification, and my personal cultivation and Fa-rectification were on the same path. It was very important for me to enlighten to this, so I could later walk my path well. After this tribulation, I sincerely felt that lots of fear and bad elements had been eliminated. Thus a foundation was laid for me to walk my cultivation path well.
I was taken to the forced labor camp for the second time in April 2003. The evil attacked me by isolating me in a room, cuffing me to a wooden plank, and depriving me of sleep for seven days and nights. I was able to pass this ordeal and maintain a practitioner's sober condition in such an inhumane persecution. This was because of Dafa's miraculous nature, and the power given to me by Dafa. When the police tortured me with electric batons, I shouted in my heart: "Teacher, Teacher!" The police instantly stopped, and walked away.
During the seven days and nights of inhumane torture, I enlightened to a principle, "completely negate everything of the old forces". I clearly realized that the "firmness" that I previously understood was an old forces arrangement. It was the old forces excuse to administer destructive tests to Falun Dafa practitioners, and I dug into the bull's horn of "firmness". As a matter of fact, I attached to this "firmness" due to my attachment of "fear of not completing cultivation". As I held onto this final attachment, it hindered me from seeing higher Fa principles, and achieving the standard of Dafa that "has no omission". I conformed to the old forces arrangement, mistakenly thinking that the illegal detention and forced labor were part of my cultivation path. I did not thoroughly understand Teacher's Fa, and accepted the old forces unreasonable persecution. I suddenly saw the light when I enlightened to this. I firmly said to the old forces: "You won't be able to reach me from now on. I won't accept any so-called test. You old forces chose to be eliminated in the Fa-rectification, so you are disqualified to test me. I will walk on the path that is completely under Teacher's arrangement for Fa-rectification." Because of my righteous enlightenment, I walked out of the forced labor camp from the intensive class 14 months earlier.
Because I walked on the path of Fa-rectification arranged by Teacher, I have experienced many miracles while explaining the truth, saving people and distributing materials, etc. I have witnessed Dafa's mighty virtue, and it has increased my confidence in validating the Fa.
Another thing Teacher told us to do is to send forth righteous thoughts. I learned in October 2001 that Teacher told us to send forth righteous thoughts. I did not know the purpose in the beginning, but repeatedly recited the formula. After I read Teacher's article on "Righteous Thoughts", the power of sending forth righteous thoughts kept getting bigger and bigger. From the first day of knowing about sending forth righteous thoughts, I insisted on doing it for 15 minutes every hour, over ten times a day and have never stopped. When there is a whole body arrangement, I also cooperate.
When I send forth righteous thoughts now, although my body is motionless, everything inside of my body is moving. When my mind is really concentrated, I don't feel the existence of the body, only the thought of eliminating the evil. I do not see anything with my third eye when sending forth righteous thoughts, but I believe my power is infinite, as Teacher told us:"Dafa Disciples' Righteous Thoughts are Powerful" (Essentials for Further Advancement), then it is certainly so.
Teacher also told us to do well in explaining the truth and saving people. Teacher said:
"If you don't take action to save sentient beings, you will not have fulfilled your responsibility as a Dafa disciple and your cultivation will amount to nothing, for your becoming a Dafa disciple was not for the sake of your own Consummation. This means that you shoulder a monumental mission." ("Fa Teaching at the 2009 Washington DC International Fa Conference")
Since there are many ways of explaining the truth, such as distributing letters and materials, etc, I will mainly talk about the experience of explaining the truth face to face. The process of clarifying the truth to strangers from all walks of lives is the process of constantly improving myself, letting go of myself, abandoning selfishness and doing solid cultivation.
I put aside a certain amount of time every morning and night to go into the streets and explain the truth to people face to face. I look for opportunities such as at road crossings, during walks and on public transportation. I have bumped into various people and have been able to face them confidently and not let them lose the chance of being saved due to any special status. As I only think of letting this person be saved, I am motionless, and don't feel any threat. When some people do not quit the party, I can remain calm and unaffected, not feel any hatred, and just let them wait for the next chance.
Prior to the Chinese New Year in 2008 and 2009, I went to the countryside, and spoke to people about the truth of Falun Dafa and withdrawing from the Chinese Communist Party and its affiliated organizations. I was motionless as I walked from door to door, began chatting and quickly moved to the topic at hand. Most of them agreed to quit except a few people. A few dozen people quit every time I went there. Cultivation is like sailing against the current, if you do not move forward, you inevitably lag behind. As soon as you are idle, you immediately become relaxed and the pursuit of comfort and selfishness will emerge. When you are on the Fa for everything and at all times, you can resist the pollution of the current of everyday society--the big dye vat. Sometimes when my human notions have an effect in the process of saving people, I miss some people with a predestined relationship. When I realize it afterwards, the opportunity has already passed.
These days, Dafa practitioners should have the life condition of divine beings, especially in doing the three things. We simply have to have divine thoughts, walk on the divine path, walk out of the human notions, walk out of the old forces' restrictions, let go of self and cooperate with the whole body. As soon as any bad thoughts emerge, I can instantly perceive them, recognize it is not on the Fa, and it is not me.
I am able to write this today, because my one thought of believing in Teacher and Dafa has never moved; Teacher and Dafa are my eternal safeguards. I am a particle in the Fa, so I need to play the role of a particle, do what Teacher wants, melt myself into the Fa, and assist Teacher in validating the Fa and saving sentient beings.