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Greetings to our great, benevolent and respected Master!

Greetings, fellow practitioners!

I'd like to report to Master some of my experiences in the past a few years and to share with fellow practitioners.

I'm a senior and I had many illnesses that were hard to cure before I started practicing Falun Dafa in June 1998. Through studying the Fa and practicing the exercises, I came to realize how precious Dafa is. Today all of my illnesses are gone and I'm truly thankful to our compassionate Master. Though I have stumbled through the past 13 years of cultivation I've never had any doubts about our mission or the greatness of cultivating in Dafa.

1. The world suddenly changed

The evil Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started to persecute Falun Gong on July 20, 1999. I decided to help people understand the facts about Falun Gong because the CCP had widely broadcast in China and overseas slanderous lies and propaganda to deceive people all over the world. In May 2001, together with fellow practitioners, I went to Tiananmen Square and we opened up a banner and shouted, "Falun Dafa is good! Do not believe the slander against Dafa's Teacher!"

A gang of police officers ran at us and grabbed our banner. They pulled our hair, hit us, threw us into the police car, and took us to the Tiananmen Police Substation. They locked us up in an iron cage. They then interrogated a few practitioners and poured a poisonous liquid into their mouths.

Later that night, we were taken to a county police station so they could record what I'd wanted to say. I said to them, "'Falun Dafa is good. Truth-Compassion-Forbearance is good. Stop slandering the founder of Falun Gong.' Nothing else." The head policeman told the note-taker, "Write down what she said." Then he asked me other questions, but I didn't say anything. After that, they forced me to give my fingerprints before taking us to a detention center. In those early days, we didn't realize that it was wrong to let them take our fingerprints. At the detention center, the police searched us one by one and took all our money. The next day, police from our area took us back to our local police station.

I refused to go inside, so extra police were called to force me to go inside. They hit me, carried me upstairs, and handcuffed me behind my back to a heater. I did not give in to their bribes of freedom, and I was immune to their threats, beatings, and curses. It was very painful, but I held one strong thought in my heart that I would never report on my fellow practitioners. After over four hours, the police gave up.

After we were locked up in the detention center of our local county, Teacher strengthened us and we created an environment to study the Fa and practice the exercises. We openly clarified the truth to police officers and criminals. Many Chinese people learned the facts about this evil persecution. Some of them even started to practice Falun Gong.

On the morning of July 20, 2001, on the windows of several prison cells, we hung up Dafa banners and clothes with "Falun Dafa is good and Truth-Compassion-Forbearance is good" that had been written in toothpaste. The police tried to take them away. Some practitioners' clothes were torn and their upper bodies were bare. After a while, more armed police, came and they stripped our clothes off and searched us. They handcuffed a few practitioners, and they took away all our personal things, including tissue paper. We started a hunger strike to protest this inhumane persecution, and six months later, we were all released.

In 2002, a fellow practitioner and I were distributing truth-clarification flyers when we were followed and illegally arrested. A few days later, we were taken to a forced labor camp. In 2003, we came home. Withstanding all kinds of pressure and interference, I resolved to continue spreading the facts just a few days later.

2. Clarify the truth to save people

After I came home, I teamed up with another practitioner to clarify the facts to people face to face, hand out flyers, and hang up Dafa posters. We created posters during the daytime and posted them at night. Later I found a way to make posters faster and better. A fellow practitioner and I got an idea to use stencils. The results were very good. We encouraged the other practitioners in our area to try it, and it was a very effective approach to validate the Fa.

In 2004, the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party were published. Together, two other practitioners and I helped people to withdraw from the CCP and all its affiliated organizations. We wandered around and, just like Teacher said, we met all kinds of people. Some of them thanked us, some cursed us, some threatened us, some even tried to report on us. When we studied the Fa well, we were able to keep a pure heart and mind. We had strong compassion and righteous thoughts ,and we achieved very good results. When we had more everyday people's notions, the results were not as good and we could be taken advantage of more easily by the evil.

One day I was trying to clarify the truth to a young man. As soon as he heard "Falun Gong," he took out his mobile and tried to call the police. Another practitioner managed to run away to send forth-righteous thoughts. He grabbed at my clothes, saying, "You aren't going anywhere." I threw his hand back and turned to walk away. He followed me. I asked Teacher to help me eliminate the evil elements that controlled him. I was very calm. I explained Dafa to him on the way. I talked about how corrupt and cruel the CCP is. I told him that good people will be rewarded and bad people will be punished and that heaven is getting rid of the CCP. I said to him, "My child, don't do this. This is not good for you. I tell you these facts for your own sake." He was deeply moved.

When we came to a crossing, I said, "Don't follow me anymore. I'm going to visit a relative." He stopped and saluted to me and said, "Thank you." Then he turned and left. After I got home, I looked inside myself for the cause of this because I knew it was not an accident. With a peaceful heart, I dug out the root cause and realized I had not been studying the Fa well so I had developed some attachments.

Teacher said,

"The old forces don't dare to oppose our clarifying the truth or saving sentient beings. What's key is to not let them take advantage of the gaps in your state of mind when you do things."("Teaching the Fa at the 2002 Fa Conference in Boston")

Teacher has always been protecting and caring about us. With Teacher's help, the three of us have been coordinating with each other very well. We encourage and help each other. During the cold winters and scorching summers, we walked all the crowded and quiet streets in our town. We never complained.

Clarifying the truth is also a process of cultivating ourselves. We can often spot our own issues, like ordinary people's notions, fighting, jealousy, zealotry, showing-off, laziness, etc. Whenever the issues surfaced, fellow practitioners would kindly point them them out to remind each other to remove them. Now when we meet people who are rude or curse us, we don't get mad. We have no hatred or complaints anymore. Sometimes people have refused to quit the CCP, but we know our efforts have not been in vain. We are hopeful that they will quit the CCP and its affiliates later when other practitioners talk to them.

One day a fellow practitioner and I went to a house. The owner was a CCP official. When he found out we were trying to get him to quit the CCP, he shouted, "I retired from the Public Security Bureau. The CCP gives me over three thousand yuan every month. You ask me to quit the CCP? I will not. My niece is a Falun Gong practitioner. She has been asking me to do this now for two years. I will not quit CCP no matter who talks to me." We were not dismayed by his attitude. We just had one hope, which was to save him. My fellow practitioner started to clarify the truth to him with compassion. I sent forth righteous thoughts and added in a few words occasionally. I asked Teacher to help eliminate the CCP's evil ghost behind him. We talked about how corrupt the CCP is; how the CCP persecutes good people; the stones that were found with the prophetic words on them; offered several different predictions; and the imminent dangers of not quitting the CCP before it is eliminated, etc. Eventually, he sincerely said, "Help me quit the CCP." He told us his last name. We asked him to remember, "Falun Dafa is good. Truth-Compassion-Forbearance is good." We also asked him to pass on the information to his family when they got back. Then we gave him the DVDs and truth-clarification flyers. We were very glad that he was finally saved.

Many fellow practitioners went to the countryside to clarify the facts to their relatives there and to help them withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations. I didn't have any family in the countryside and I used to get carsick, so I didn't travel to the rural areas. Sometimes I thought it'd be nice if I had a relative in the countryside.

Teacher saw my wish so He gave me an opportunity. One day we went to a bus stop to clarify the facts and hand out flyers. When the other practitioner went to talk to someone, I saw a man in his 70s and started to chat with him. I asked him where he was going. He said he was going to a certain village. I said, "You must be an official in that village." He said he was. I then said, "You must be a veteran CCP member then." He confirmed again. I asked, "Has anyone clarified the facts to you about Falun Gong and the CCP? Have you quit the CCP?" He admitted that others had talked to him about Falun Gong and the CCP, but he hadn't quit the CCP yet. So I offered him more facts and urged him to withdraw from the CCP.

I asked, "You look familiar to me. Are you so and so?" He said, "Yes, you look familiar to me, too. Do you know X?" I said, "That was my father." He was very excited. "Oh, my, it so good to see you again! When your father passed away I tried to get in touch with you but couldn't find you. Are you all OK? Your father was such a nice person. I will never forget him." It turned out that about 50 years before, my father worked at the village store. At that time, I was little and his family came to the township to live.

After quitting the CCP, he told me his wife had just had a surgery and was still in the hospital. They'd be going home in a few days, so he invited me to visit them and gave me their home address. He said people in his village all said Falun Gong was good and they enjoyed watching the ShenYun DVD's, too.

After I got home, I decided I should make the best use of this opportunity to clarify the facts in that village. So I got some truth-clarification materials and some milk to visit his wife in the hospital first.

I made a plan to go visit the village with another practitioner. On the morning before we were due to leave, I suddenly had severe back pain. It was so bad that I couldn't move. I knew the dark minions and rotten ghosts were trying to prevent me from saving people, so I treated it like the fake symptom it was by immediately asking Teacher to strengthen me. I wouldn't allow any evil to interfere with my saving people. I had a quick breakfast and then I gathered some Shen Yun discs and Dafa materials and was about to leave when my family tried to stop me. They were worried that I would be reported on. They had never stopped me before. I said with abundant righteous thoughts, "Don't worry. Nothing bad will happen." With the back pain, I left. When I got to the bus stop, the other practitioner arrived and the bus came, too. After we got on the bus, the back pain went right away. I truly thank Teacher for his benevolent protection.

After we arrived, we called on each and every household to clarify the truth and help people quit the CCP. People there were all very pure and warm. After learning the truth, they all quit the CCP. Some even walked with us for a long way until we got to the next house. The country folk all have dogs, but none of them barked or tried to bite us. In fact, some dogs kept following us and they wouldn't return even when their masters called them back. We arrived at one house, and the family was very surprised. They asked, "How did you get in? Our dog bites every stranger he sees. How come he didn't even bark when you came in?" We told him how magnificent Falun Dafa is. They all agreed and said repeatedly, "Falun Dafa is good. Dafa practitioners are all good people. We often went up to the bigger townships to sell our vegetables. Dafa practitioners never tried to pick the best veggies and they never tried to take advantage of us." The whole family quit the CCP and its affiliate organizations.

We went to another house. Many people were playing mahjong on the bed. They listened to everything we said and they all quit the CCP. We continued to call on almost all the houses in that town. Later in the evening, we went to visit the old friend of my father's. He insisted on treating us with dinner. I politely declined, hoping to have more opportunities to save the people in the township. Then we went to the bus stop and the last bus came. We then clarified the truth to the bus driver. On our way home, we kept thinking about all the people we had helped to save. So many good things happened that day that we will never forget this most precious time. We were very touched by the grace of Falun Dafa.

From this experience, I truly understood that sentient beings are waiting for us. As long as we have righteous thoughts in our hearts to save sentient beings, Teacher will give us opportunities. During the process, we saved sentient beings while cultivating ourselves. When purchasing things, we use bunches of one-yuan bills with Dafa messages written on them. People seldom refused to take those bills. Whether it was the CCP national (mourning) day or sensitive days and no matter how rampant they appeared, we'd go out to save people. We are just following Teacher's guidance.

Teacher said

"Validate the Fa with rationality, clarify the truth with wisdom, spread the Fa and save people with mercy..." ("Rationality" from Essentials for Further Advancement II)

With Teacher's compassionate protection, we have been fine every single time we ran into danger over the past few years.

3. Using my pen as a Fa tool to spread the facts

In January 2002, I came home from the detention center and continued validating the Fa. I made truth-clarification posters. I also wrote letters to families, relatives, and friends to explain the facts to them and asking them to be good people. A few months later, when distributing Dafa materials with a fellow practitioner, I was illegally arrested. In 2003 when I came home, I met some people that were deeply poisoned by the CCP. Many weren't willing to hear the facts. They threw our precious materials on the ground and stomped on them. Many materials were wasted and I was very worried.

I wondered what I could do to help people become more willing to take leaflets and understand the truth about Falun Gong? I had planned to write letters again, but I was a stay-at-home mom and hadn't even finished elementary school. Was I capable of writing to people who had more education than me? Teacher saw my plan and opened up my wisdom and I came up with an idea to use the existing truth-clarification materials of which I would quote some of their content and then add my own comments from my heart.

I took the first draft to a fellow practitioner, and he encouraged me and supported me to keep going. I took the revised version and carefully printed four copies at a time. When I hand-delivered the letter to a person and saw him carefully reading it, I was very satisfied. I knew I had taken the right path and I became more confident. I bought a lot of carbon paper and started in earnest to copy more letters. Sometimes I didn't have time to do this during the daytime, so I copied letters till 2 or 3 in the morning. My wrists ached, but I didn't mind it at all since I knew sentient beings would be saved.

With fellow practitioners' encouragement, I wrote different letters targeting different recipents, including policemen, staff at the Politics and Law departments, government officials, teachers, guards at prisons and forced labor camps, and people in different provinces. Fellow practitioners helped me type up and print out the letters. Through various channels, we found hundreds of addresses and zip codes. One fellow practitioner found a directory. Others bought stamps and envelopes for me. I sent many letters to a wide range of people in many professions.

The process of writing letters is also a way to cultivate myself. I often had all kinds of ordinary people's notions and attachments. For example, I spotted an attachment in me to fighting with when writing to policemen. With Fa-study and sharing with fellow practitioners, I understood that, in fact, those policemen have the most miserable lives. I rewrote the letter to them, sending forth genuine compassion towards them. When fellow practitioners praised me, I developed the attachment of zealotry and showing off. Now I know all these attachments were exposed through cultivating in Dafa, and I wouldn't be able to achieve anything without Teacher and my fellow practitioners.

When I had the attachment of fear, I'd have dreams where police officers intercepted the letters that I wrote. I then sent forth-righteous thoughts to remove my fear and studied the Fa to get back to the right frame of mind that a Falun Dafa practitioner needs to have.

Teacher told us a long time ago,

"It is the evil that is afraid of people knowing the truth of the situation, not Dafa disciples." ("A Suggestion" from Essentials for Further Advancement II)

My fear was dissolved every time I improved on the Fa. We have sentient beings in our heart and we are doing what Teacher asked us to do, so who dares to persecute us? The evil is not qualified to test us! Sometimes when writing letters, I couldn't stop my tears when I thought of all the sentient beings that were poisoned and deceived by the evil's lies. Whenever I was lazy or being selfish and pursuing comfort, I wasn't willing to take the time to copy letters. However, when I thought about the sentient beings that are waiting for us to save them, I'd pick up my pen again. When I was interfered with or ran into difficulties, fellow practitioners would support me and urge me to continue. We all have different paths and we all use different ways to validate the Fa. Using my pen to validate the Fa and save sentient beings is my sacred mission.

The Fa-rectification process is progressing steadily, so the content of the letters needed to be updated. I wanted to write about everything so people would know the whole truth. However, with the space being so limited, it's hard to address everything clearly. A few days ago, I took a new letter to fellow practitioners for their insights. All of them said the letter was not clear and they asked me to start over. At that moment I failed to look inside. Fellow practitioners tried to share with me, yet I refused to listen. I became very frustrated and said I wouldn't write letters ever again. Seeing my issues, one fellow practitioner said to me very seriously, "If you are going to act like this, please disregard what I just said." I was shocked and came to realize my strong attachment to validating myself. Was I behaving like a Dafa disciple? At that moment I questioned whether I was worthy of being saved by Teacher. Hadn't I let sentient beings down? I was so ashamed of myself.

Two days later, Teacher's new article "Be More Diligent" was published.

Teacher said in "Be More Diligent:"

"A Dafa disciple's righteous thoughts stem from the Fa, and your cultivation is not a matter of how good, as a human being, your ideas are or how brilliant your approach is. Rather, your cultivation is a matter of whether you manage to have righteous thoughts in the face of challenges. If the idea that someone puts forth, or his approach, is lacking, then you can have a rational discussion, set up by the coordinator, with your project members. But, when what you bring up is not agreed upon or accepted, and yet you feel it's obvious that your approach is necessary for things to be done more ideally, you start to become negative and passive. Actually, though, as a Dafa disciple, if in such cases your thoughts are righteous, and what you are thinking about is cultivation, about being responsible, and about how it's something that should be done well, then you should quietly take whatever it is that you feel is lacking and do it well. That is in fact how a Dafa disciple should handle it. If all Dafa disciples could manage to handle things in this manner, everything out there would go extremely well, for sure. "

Fa-rectification progress has come this far now and yet the evil persecution hasn't ended. There are so many sentient beings yet to be saved. We haven't fulfilled our mission and responsibilities. What reasons do I have not to do well?

With my xinxing level improved, I strengthened my confidence. We should do well with what we are expected to do. We know we are assisting Teacher with Fa-rectification. So we must walk down this path to the end. At that time, I read a letter on Minghui Weekly. The letter was very well written and it was very complete. I referred to that letter and added my own comments. The new letter was two pages long. It was full of compassion and it was very clear. Fellow practitioners helped me type it out. I made copies and mailed it out to many places around the nation.

4. A little flower

More and more material centers have been set up all over China. I also thought about making materials for practitioners in my local area to reduce the workload of the other larger material centers, but I didn't know whether I was able to do it and I was worried I wouldn't have the financial means to continue.

Teacher saw my heart. At the beginning of this year, fellow practitioners gave me a printer, paper-cutting knives, etc. I cherish my printer very much. I gave it a name "Jia Huan." I wrote the name on the printer and talked to it, "It is very fortunate for you that among all the printers, my fellow practitioner chose you and made you a Fa weapon. We are making the most sacred materials in the cosmos to save people. We should not waste paper and we should print each and every page well so you can fulfill your responsibilities and mission. We should coordinate with each other well to do what we are expected to do and make every copy powerful to save sentient beings."

When making materials, I ask Teacher to help clear all the interferences. We have been cooperating with each other very well. Occasionally there appeared to be paper jam. I'd pull the page very gently and it'd print just fine. I only have that one printer. The coordinator was planning to provide me with a computer. I was afraid that I wouldn't know how to operate it, so I currently rely on fellow practitioners to create the electronic version. I am only a very little flower. I know my human notions are not righteous since Dafa is supernormal and Dafa practitioners are able to do anything.

Once I didn't study the Fa much because I was trying to get the work done. I had a paper jam when printing Dafa booklets. I couldn't figure out what was wrong. I thought the printer was broken and talked to the coordinator about it. He said the printer was way beyond its useful life. He suggested we have it repaired and buy a new one. A fellow practitioner soon brought me a new printer. I was very reluctant to see "Jia Huan" taken away. When I ran out of powder in the drum, I replaced it with an old drum. Then I had the same issue as with "Jia Huan." Oh, it was the drum. Why wouldn't it work? I poured powder into the new drum. I brought the drum with me and put it into "Jia Huan." Everything was normal! I was so glad that "Jia Huan" was just fine. I must have some attachments to enlighten to and be removed. I came to realize that when making Dafa materials, my heart wasn't pure. I still had selfishness. I was trying to get the work done and I didn't do well with sending forth righteous thoughts. After I dug out my issues, I brought the old drum to a fellow practitioner to see if he could fix it. He didn't really know what to do, either. He took it apart and then put everything back together, and it worked again.

I hadn't enlightened to many Fa principles so it was difficult for me to recognize and remove all my notions that were formed long time ago. Teacher saw my attachment and that I wasn't willing to take criticism and helped me by using fellow practitioners to point out my problems.

One day a fellow practitioner who was in contact with me suddenly blamed me for wasting paper. I did not forbear it and defended myself right away, "I didn't waste paper. I made more materials to save people. I didn't use paper for personal purpose. It's fine if you don't want to provide me with paper." I was very upset. When I got home, I calmed down and wondered why the fellow practitioner had said that. There must be something that I should cultivate. There must be attachments for me to remove. Why did I say those strong words? Wasn't my attachment revealed in that I couldn't accept criticism? In fact, it wasn't wrong for the fellow practitioner to say what he did. I did waste some paper when the printing didn't go well. I was very sorry for my attitude towards fellow practitioners. I regretted how I had handled it. At night when we studied, we read the "Fa Teaching Given in Manhattan." I then realized how serious my attachment had become. I must get rid of it and I shouldn't always depend on coordinators to provide me with printing accessories, either.

I thank Master Li for his benevolent hints. I improved my xinxing and all the unpleasant things were gone. The next day, the fellow practitioner came and said, "I came here to apologize to you." He was very apologetic. I apologized to him, too. We opened our hearts to each other and shared understandings on the Fa. We both found our attachments and we rectified ourselves from within the Fa.

When we truly understood the Fa principles, I took the liberty to make more truth-clarification booklets for fellow practitioners. This time, the printing quality was very good. Previously I'd use up the printing powder for about six hundred pieces of paper. This time, it ran for over nine hundred. I knew it was an encouragement from Teacher.

5. Final remarks

We know there is still a huge gap between our current status and Teacher's requirements. What we did is what we should do. We did some things well. There are many things that we didn't do well and we still have many attachments to be removed.

Teacher said,

"If you had not taken action in the face of those evil circumstances, nobody would have taken action on your behalf, for people have all been waiting for you to save them. The true victims of persecution are the world's people, not you. " ("Fa Teaching Given at the 2010 New York Fa Conference")

Think about the danger that sentient beings are faced with when they are poisoned by the evil CCP. Think about the huge responsibilities that we have. How can we be so lazy sometimes? I must study the Fa well and memorize the Fa. Now it's the fourth time that I have memorized Zhuan Falun. Currently I'm at Lecture Seven. I will measure myself against the Fa requirements and get rid of my bad things. I have come to deeply understand that we are here for the Fa. We must strive forward more quickly. Otherwise, we'd let Teacher down; we'd let the sentient beings down. Teacher has exerted so much effort to awaken us and save us. The sentient beings have been waiting for us to save them. We must realize our vows and follow Teacher home!