(Clearwisdom.net) My deepest feeling when writing this article was “When it’s difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it’s impossible to do, you can do it.” (Zhuan Falun). When you truly want to save people, you will succeed; when you truly wish to validate the Fa, nothing can stop you.
Working with others, overcoming resistance, starting my own project
I returned to cultivation in 2008 after a long absence. When I saw some diligent practitioners, and learned about their great effort in saving sentient beings, I was ashamed by the huge gap between us. I felt a sense of anxiety. The reading material in our study group was provided by other practitioners. I wanted to buy a printer and make our own materials, but my wife strongly objected. When I reasoned with her, she began yelling and screaming at me. Some fellow practitioners told me not to pressure my wife too much. But I felt terrible about not being able to offer salvation to more people. I did not know what to do. I was very sad. Despite the strong resistance from my wife, my determination to start the printing center was unshakeable. My mind was very pure and powerful. Soon, things began to change. My wife’s sister brought me her own printer. I began to print materials for our study group. One day, a practitioner told me that the peasants in the country did not have enough Dafa materials. I thought I should buy a car. This time, I was able to convince my wife that the family needed a car. After we bought the car, I began to drive to the country and validate the Fa.
My wife was very scared by the persecution of Falun Gong, and she strongly protested against making Dafa materials at home. I had to do printings while she was away. One day she came home when I was printing materials and saw all the papers on the bed. She asked me to return the printer to her sister. Otherwise, she threatened to take me to her parents to explain. She cried the whole night. I tried my best to explain the situation, but to no avail. Under my wife’s influence, her sister called me and asked for the printer back. At the time, my family materials center was just beginning to operate, and I had just found my path to save sentient beings. But now, everything was going to stop! This thought hurt me so bad, yet I did not know what to do. I knew that my wife was not an unreasonable person, and I would do anything to change her mind. During our many years of marriage, we had our ups and downs, but I always won our fights. But at this moment, I recalled how Han Xin crawled between someone’s legs to endure humiliation. With enough courage, I kneeled down in front of her, tears ran down my cheek, I begged: “For you, for me, and for all others, please do not stop me. You should trust me. I am doing the most righteous thing, and I will not be persecuted because of my effort to validate the Fa. Please carefully think about my words.” Surprisingly, she was speechless for a long time. Finally she calmed down and walked away. From that day on, she backed down from her strong opposition.
Together, we save people
Several practitioners and I distributed truth clarification materials to the countryside almost weekly, rain or shine. One day, three of us went together. On our way there, it began to rain heavily. We had not brought an umbrella. But no one hesitated. At our destination, we exited the car with the truth-clarification materials. Soon, we were soaked. A villager accepted our materials and said: “Falun Gong (practitioners) are so dedicated, delivering the materials in rain.” On our way home, I felt embarrassed about the weather and said: “I wish it did not rain. See how we all got soaked.” A practitioner said: “Rainy days are better, there are not too many people on the street, so we can distribute more materials.” I was moved by her kind words.
Fellow practitioners' righteous thoughts, unselfish conduct, and tolerance are like a mirror. They helped me to see my shorcomings and become more diligent.
One day, we planned to distribute materials in the countryside the next morning. At night, I could not resist temptation and spent hours surfing on some indecent websites. I did not get much sleep. The next day, my situation was not good. The evil took advantage of my loopholes. During the trip, one practitioner stayed at one place for too long, and the other went a separate way without informing the rest of us. We ended up wasting some time. I had to drive back and forth to find everyone. I was quite upset. Although I knew my own problem was the root cause, I could not help blaming others. An elderly practitioner smiled and apologized repeatedly. I felt a deep sense of shame. Fellow practitioners’ compassion and unselfish attitudes exhibited a sharp contrast with my dirty mind. I told another young practitioner: “We should learn from elderly practitioners.” The elderly practitioners said: “Young practitioners have made huge contributions in their work, such as expertise in computer and other technical skills.”
In our cultivation group, fellow practitioners all helped each other. One practitioner had no regular income; she could barely pay for her child’s education. Evey time she went grocery shopping, she saved some change. And every time her savings reached 200 yuan, she would donate it for the material printing costs. I was very touched by her story. Practitioners all face many difficulties and high pressure, but they manage to move forward. My economic condition is much better, and my contribution is not that much compared with other practitioners.
We have experienced many miracles during our work. One day this past winter, after a heavy snow, the road became very slippery. On our way back after distributing truth-clarifying materials, my car could not make it up a hill. Unable to find another route, we were stuck in a village. A stranger asked where we were heading to. He offered to guide us to another road. Soon we were back on the main road. One rainy day, we sent forth righteous thoughts before our departure. Soon, the rain stopped, and we went on to complete our job. But no sooner after we returned home, a heavy downpour began.
Listen to the coordinator’s arrangement
In the past, no practitioners in our area were using cell phones to broadcast truth-clarification messages. One day a coordinator mentioned that he wanted to instruct me on this. I volunteered to experiment with the idea. I had no knowledge about cell phones and MP3 players, and I had never used a soldering iron. But I believed that I could learn. I bought a used cell phone, a phone card, and an electric soldering set. I also borrowed an MP3. I began to connect the earphones with the MP3. After I connected the wires, I could not play the MP3 through the cell phone. After more than ten days of unsuccessful experimentation, I became frustrated. But I was not ready to give up. I gathered my strengh and began experimenting again. I rearranged the wire connection pairs, and suddenly it worked. I was thrilled, and played the music to my son’s cell phone. He was also surprised at my new talent: “Dad, how did you do it? You are so capable!”
Looking back over the last two years, I feel very fortunate. Without Master’s compassion, and fellow practitioners’ help, I could not have come this far. I am determined to become more diligent, relinquish bad habits, validate the Fa and assist in saving people with the most righteous mind.