(Clearwisdom.net) I am a doctor. I had been working in the medical field for over thirty years, but I had not been able to cure my own diseases. Then I started practicing Falun Gong in 1994. After several months of practice, my diseases disappeared. I have been healthy and energetic ever since. I would like to share my recent experience of a karma tribulation with fellow practitioners.
The Root Cause of the Tribulation
I copied a set of videos of Master's Dalian Lectures last November. There was no cover, so I decided to make one myself. I spent too much time on it, overlooking Fa-study and sending forth righteous thoughts. In the afternoon on November 28, the vision in my right eye became blurred all of sudden. I was not alarmed; I only thought, "This was not me." However, I did not immediately send forth strong righteous thoughts.
The next day when I went out, I felt as if my right eye was blocked by something. On the third day, I could not see things clearly, and I felt dizzy. While reading Zhuan Falun, after I finished reading one row, I could not find the next row. My eyeball was no longer centered. At that time I realized that it was the old forces' interference. I then asked Master for help in my heart, "Master, I want to continue to do the three things to validate the Fa. I do not allow the old forces to interfere with this. Please strengthen me!" I also let Master know, "This is not sickness. This is the old forces' interference."
Hints
I started studying the Fa more. I listened to and read Master's lectures every day. I sent forth strong righteous thoughts. However, my vision was still not improving. I thought, "Upgrading xinxing requires continuous efforts. I need to step out to clarify the facts, distribute truth-clarification materials, and validate the Fa." I decided to get a pair of glasses, so I went to the hospital to get a prescription. The doctor checked my eye and told me that everything was normal and said, "Without glasses, you'll do just fine. Even if you do use glasses, it won't help much."
After I went home, I kept thinking about why the doctor did not prescribe eyeglasses for me. Without glasses, it would not be convenient for me to do the three things. The next day, I went there again. Another doctor said, "The problem with your right eye is caused by diabetes. It makes the nerve muscle numb and will require surgery within three months."
That night, I thought about what happened. The first time I went to the hospital, the doctor did not provide me with a prescription. That was a hint from Master. However, I did not enlighten and understand it. I went there again on the second day, but with a totally different result. I did not pass the first test. And the second test came up right away. But I did not realize that it was Master's hint to have me upgrade my xinxing. I did not look inward to examine myself.
Negating the Tribulation Imposed on Me by the Old Forces
The tribulation was imposed on me by the old forces. I completely negated it. I have been practicing Dafa for over ten years. Practitioners do not have diseases. Practitioners carry gong with high-energy matter. Therefore, diabetes does not exist in me. The eye disease caused by the diabetes was merely a diagnosis made by an everyday person.
Now that I have a clear understanding from the perspective of the Fa, I should walk on the path Master arranged for me. Doing the three things is to disintegrate the evil. I took a step forward and distributed informational materials to people face to face. So I knew that nothing could block me.
Upgrading Xinxing
1. Looking Inward and Examining Myself
Since I started suffering from the eye tribulation, I have been reciting "True Nature Revealed" over ten times every day. I realized "The raising of levels is what's fundamental." ("True Nature Revealed" in Essentials for Further Advancement II) When one's level rises, the tribulation will be gone on its own. Upgrading one's level is obviously the key. I tried very hard to look within. The anxiety of doing the three things is one of my attachments. Behind the anxiety was the attachment to self. My mentality of doing things was exposed as well. Behind this were the attachments to showing off, zealotry, jealousy, money and fame, as well as the competitive mentality.
My eye was not getting any better. On the night of December 8, my eyelid gradually drooped. In the past when I was facing tribulations, as long as I looked within for my attachments, the tribulation would be quickly gone. Did I still have more human notions that I haven't identified yet? That night, I had a dream. I realized that I only focused on things that were on the surface. I had not looked inward enough. I only paid attention to making the nice covers for the CDs instead of spending time on Fa-study. I did not cultivate diligently enough and had not eliminated many human notions. When facing conflicts, I was not tolerant and had not been able to maintain a calm manner. I am still self-centered and am not considerate of others' feelings. Isn't this a hint to make me aware of the loopholes in my cultivation? I immediately started reciting lectures, such as "What is Forbearance (Ren)?" "Realms", "A Brief Explanation of Shan", "Non-Omission" (all in Essentials for Further Advancement), and "Beyond the Limits of Forbearance" (2001). I realized that being tolerant is the key to upgrading xinxing. Tolerance will lead to compassion.
2. Digging into the Root: "No Second Cultivation Way"
My eye did not show any signs of improvement until mid-December. I didn't know what the root cause was. One afternoon I was reading "Lunyu" (in Zhuan Falun) and had the following thought, "Science is a religion." I was shocked. Isn't medical science also a "religion?" I had been working in the medical field for over thirty years and practicing Dafa for over ten years, but I hadn't seriously thought about "no second cultivation way." I had not yet gained a deep enough understanding of the relationship between diseases and karma. I had not completely eliminated the interference of modern medical science in my personal cultivation. Cultivation is to cultivate our minds. Thoughts are substances too. If we do not eliminate bad thoughts, the bad substances will remain in our bodies. I practice Dafa. I should use Dafa's principles to understand the root cause of disease and the methodology of curing disease.
Whether it's Chinese medicine or western medicine, they are all only treating the illness at the surface. They cannot reach the substances in other dimensions. Falun Dafa teaches people to cultivate, eliminate attachments, and endure hardship to eliminate karma. Practicing the exercises helps purify one's body and elevates one's level to reach a state of no illness. Every time I have bad thoughts, I recite, "... you are a cultivator: someone who is on a divine path and who is not controlled by the factors of ordinary people or low-level principles." ("Teaching the Fa in the City of Los Angeles")
I was reading Zhuan Falun on the patio with sunglasses on the morning of December 16. When I raised my head, I unintentionally saw an eye on the right side of the glasses. It was the eye of an animal-- gray, hairy, and with many wrinkles around it. Master says, "It is because in another dimension there lies a being in that place." ("Lecture Seven" in Zhuan Falun) This is the reason why my right eye was not normal. I completely negated it. I firmly believe in Master and firmly believe in Dafa.
3. Choosing with Determination
My child saw that my right eye was completely shut and asked me to go to the hospital on December 25. I felt annoyed by the trouble. I immediately studied the Fa and sent forth righteous thoughts. Suddenly, two words "Dao Fa" appeared in front of me. I was shocked and stood up immediately. I said to Master, "I want to cultivate. I want to practice Dafa." I recited "Expounding the Fa" and "True Nature Revealed."
At night, when I was practicing the exercises, I felt as if I was shocked by electricity. My muscles hurt. I felt pain in my face and my right eye.
4. The Power and Miracle of the Solemn Statement
On December 28 I recalled my state during the past month. I knew that I had been very energetic. My bleeding gum disease over the past twenty years disappeared. I was very healthy except for the condition in my right eye.
Master said, "Whenever there is interference of one kind or another in qigong practice, you should look for reasons within yourself and determine what you still have not let go." ("Lecture Six" in Zhuan Falun)
What attachment did I have that I hadn't let go of yet? Right then, I heard a light voice, "It was Master who asked me to come here. It was Master who asked me to come here..." It was the voice of a fellow practitioner who visited me the day before. He brought a list of people who made the "three withdrawals" as well as his own solemn statement. He asked me to post it on the Minghui website for him. Before he left, he said to me several times, "It was Master who asked me to come..." When I looked at his solemn statement, I had a thought in my mind, "How about writing your own solemn statement?" That's right. I knew I should write my solemn statement too. On December 31, 2001 a phone call with fellow practitioners (regarding a Fa conference) was tapped by the evil. Consequently, I was illegally detained at a detention center for one month. Later I was transferred to a brainwashing center for five months. Under pressure, I wrote an article that criticized the concept of karma. The next day, I realized I was wrong. I immediately went to the 610 Office to get it back. But they rejected my request. So I solemnly stated to them: "That was not written by me." I declared it void. After I returned home, I could not calm down. Last spring, I wrote my solemn statement on paper money and spent it. I thought it was fine. But today looking back, that was not serious enough.
I immediately wrote my solemn statement. My heart was calm. It felt that all sound stopped. It was so quiet that it could not be expressed. Since then, I have done well in my Fa-study, sending forth righteous thoughts, and practicing the exercises. Nothing else arose in my mind. I felt very relieved. My right eye felt much better. I could move my eye lid and could see some light. I realized that the solemn statement not only suppressed the evil, but it also was an acknowledgment of my own mistakes and to ask for Master's benevolent forgiveness. This was done to show it to Master, Buddhas, Taos, and Gods.
A miracle happened on January 3. At 1:00 p.m., as I lay on the sofa on the patio to rest briefly with my eyes closed, all of a sudden, I saw an eye in front of my right eye. It was very deep and shiny. I immediately recognized that it was my own eye. There was a pretty clear scene behind it, like a computer screen. Five seconds later, it was gone.
My eye has now completely recovered. I am able to visit the Minghui website again. The old forces were disintegrated. I am so grateful to my great and benevolent Master.
Category: Improving Oneself
