(Clearwisdom.net) When I woke up on Chinese New Year's Day this year, I felt like I was coming down with a heavy cold. My forehead was very hot. Since I had been cultivating for more than 10 years, I was not too concerned at first. Because I didn't think that it was a big deal, I didn't look within, either. However, my condition worsened overnight. My eyes were sunken, and my eyebrow bone protruded. I could not stand or lie down due to the severe pain in my head and lower back. I could not eat either. More seriously, I could not study the Fa, nor could I do the exercises due to the unbearable headache. Seeing me suffering, my father, who is not a practitioner, told me to take some medicine. My mother, a practitioner, sent forth righteous thoughts for me. After two days without eating anything, I felt my life was coming to an end and I was in terrible pain.
At this time, the severity of my problem finally hit me. I started to look within and found that my cultivation state was not very good. I was often distracted when I was studying the Fa or sending forth righteous thoughts. I had also slacked off in doing the exercises. I realized that I had made mistakes and deviated from the righteous path amidst this evil persecution. Despite my solemn declaration, I did not closely follow Master's Fa-rectification process. The sentient beings corresponding to the part of me that had not been cultivated successfully were facing elimination. This manifested in this dimension as physical problems. I clearly knew that I must completely negate the evil beings who were trying to persecute me, taking advantage of the part of me that has not been cultivated well and that still possesses attachments. I said to Master, "I will endure what I have to endure. I will not acknowledge anything that I should not endure, which is anything that affects my studying the Fa, doing the exercises and doing the three things well. I will only follow Master's arrangements."
I started to send forth righteous thoughts. At noon when it was time for Dafa disciples around the world to send forth righteous thoughts together, I felt myself immersed in a field of peace and harmony. I saw beings that looked like gods (old forces) appear in front of me, and I sent out countless gong in the form of blue ribbons, which flew towards them, leading to their destruction. After a while, I saw a huge Falun rotating in the universe, which sucked those beings in, causing them to completely disintegrate. I felt my dimensional field become much clearer than before, so I opened my eyes after sending forth righteous thoughts for about half an hour. At that time, my symptoms of "fever" miraculously disappeared. My head and body still hurt, though, so I continued sending forth righteous thoughts, knowing that Master was strengthening me.
The next afternoon after sending forth righteous thoughts, I fell asleep around 3 p.m. When I woke up, the pain in my head and body was gone. I had not been able to sleep in previous nights. I knew Master had endured a lot for me, resolving the arrangements made by the old forces.
I learned from this that, as cultivators, we must be clear-headed and handle ourselves correctly in relation to sentient beings, to Master, and to Dafa. Because the old forces could not handle themselves correctly in relation to Master and Dafa, they dare to do evil things out of ignorance, interfering with Master's Fa- rectification and persecuting Dafa disciples. If we do not maintain a clear and rational understanding of the Fa principles, it is easy for the old forces to take advantage of the loopholes, which will bring unnecessary losses to our cultivation and delay the process of Fa-rectification.
I once deviated from the righteous path and left a stain in my cultivation. Nevertheless, this should not become an excuse for evil persecution, as our cultivation path is arranged by Master. I had a thought during the tribulation that, no matter who despises me in this universe, as long as my Master selects me, I will follow and listen to Master, because only Master has the final say. For cultivators amidst tribulations, we must fully believe in Master and the Fa and give ourselves to Master without reservations ,and Master will make proper arrangements.
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