(Clearwisdom.net) Every time I prepare experience-sharing articles, I reflect on my cultivation path and feel that my heart is being cleansed. I also feel regret about being too idle and lazy, but still happy that I am able to continue to cultivate and have a chance to report my progress to Master. Here I want to share my experience of stepping out to attend the group Fa study.

I am a veteran practitioner. I graduated from a university and regard myself as highly educated. For a while, I did not think that I needed to attend the group Fa study, but then my shortcomings appeared. After I finished housework and sat on the bed to read the Fa, I fell asleep after finishing just a few pages. Then I promised myself to read more the next day, but fell asleep again after reading no more than six to seven pages. I thought that it was because I did not get enough sleep, but eventually I realized that this state is not right if it lasts a long time.

I did not have this issue when I just started practicing Falun Gong, as I was clear-headed and felt energetic back then. I could hear someone knocking on the door each morning, which prompted me to get up, study the Fa and do the exercises. When my diseases disappeared through the practice, I felt like a weight was removed from my body.

Now I was worried about my cultivation state. Because of my pursuit of comfort, I did not want to leave home, so I asked fellow practitioners to come to my home to study the Fa instead. However, they were not available and I felt disappointed. After thinking more about this situation, I realized that since group study and group exercise were forms established by Master, I should really make an effort attend them. I decided to go to the group Fa study that night, but I arrived too late and felt very regretful.

Since then, I was able to become clear-headed and merge my Fa study with the whole body. I also started to pay attention to what fellow practitioners said in order to address my attachments, an opportunity which I did not have when I studied the Fa alone. With Master's kindness, I understood that only by merging into one body could I have the power to be diligent and move forward in cultivation.

Once, it seemed that many conflicts appeared all of a sudden and I felt sad and angry. We needed 2,500 yuan to buy a computer to establish a truth-clarification material production site. Two fellow practitioners each paid 1,000 yuan. I contributed 500 yuan and also paid over 2,000 yuan for other consumable materials. At the same time, I also bought closets for my new home for about 5,000 yuan. One fellow practitioner said, "Why did you buy such expensive closets?" implying that I could have contributed more to the materials production site if I had not spent so much money for the closets. He also criticized me in front of other fellow practitioners for over a month, no matter how hard I tried to explain. In addition, I also had conflicts with colleagues.

I decided to visit a fellow practitioner who lived far away and talk to him about my problems. In the evening, we attended a local group Fa study, where one new practitioner shared his cultivation experiences and efforts of looking within over the past month. I was moved by his pure sharing from the heart. As each of us listened quietly, we also started to reflect on our own shortcomings and search within.

I thought: Master always points out that we should look inward, but even though I am a veteran practitioner, I always stay on the surface and do not search deep within, and as a result, I feel that I am being treated unfairly. When I understood this, my unhappiness, sadness, and feeling of being treated unfairly disappeared.

Through this experience, I realized that sharing opportunities are arranged by Master to help us upgrade our xinxing. If I only talk but do not follow through with appropriate action, then it cannot count as cultivation.