(Clearwisdom.net) In the last two years, I suffered from poor eyesight and my vision gradually became blurred, just like the advanced symptoms of cataracts. My vision was foggy when I studied the Fa. To discern the words in the book I had to squint, but the words soon became blurred and twisted. Many people told me, “This is normal for people at your age--when you are old, your eyesight weakens.”
Recently, when I studied the Fa, I thought about how the human body is its own universe. When a cultivator succeeds in his cultivation, he would have his own cosmos. If he fails to be diligent in his cultivation, he would incur tribulations for the beings in his cosmos. In the physical dimension, a human body is composed of organs. Microscopically, the organs are individual cosmoses that make up different parts of the larger cosmos. Falun Dafa cultivates one's physical body and character. The ordinary aging process can thus be reversed, and the cultivator will look and feel significantly younger after starting the practice. However, some practitioners may not experience such an effect, and it may be because of interference from the old forces or one's failure to diligently cultivate. The latter is one of the major reasons for the beings in their cosmos not being able to free themselves from the restraints of the old cosmos. I concluded that my poor eyesight is the result of my failure to cultivate diligently in the past few years.
I came to understand that only through rectifying my cultivation can I fix the problem with my eyes. I thought, “If it is an arrangement of the old forces, I will negate it entirely. If it is my fault, then I will rectify my cultivation.”As I strengthened my personal cultivation, I communicated with my eyes, “You are a divine being. It is because of my failure to cultivate well that made your world gray and blurred. Now I have realized my problem and will begin making improvements. Please help me eliminate all the degenerated substances in your world. I am a Dafa practitioner and I have my Teacher. He will also help me when it's necessary.”
That day, I studied Fa lectures that Teacher taught in different locations and read the whole book, Zhuan Falun, without a break. As I read, I kept reminding myself not to squint as before, but just to read as if my eyes were completely fine. When my vision became blurred, I said in my mind, “Eyes, be attentive and eliminate all those degenerated substances for me.” When I did that, I could sense different things. Sometimes it was like a wind that blew through my eyeballs, sometimes my eyes felt slightly pained, and sometimes tears came out, as if I were cutting an onion. When these things happened, my vision sharpened and I said, “Eyes, you are doing well.”
During that period of Fa-study, I was interfered with by human attachments, but I knew those things had happened to test my xinxing and remind me to look inside myself so that I can improve in my cultivation. For instance, sometimes I could sense nothing and I thought, “I didn't sense anything in my eyes. Maybe it is not working at all.” But I negated that thought right when it came up, “I will trust the power of my righteous thoughts, even if I can't sense anything.” Sometimes I was overjoyed when I felt better in my eyes and I came up with the thought, “My eyes will recover if I study the Fa and send forth righteous thoughts diligently.” Behind that thought hid a pursuit to heal my eyes as if it were a normal disease. Behind such pursuit was my conviction that Dafa would rectify my eyes. This belief was not based on my righteous belief and understanding of the Fa, but the functional idea, “My eyes will be cured by my practicing Falun Gong.” The idea came out of my failure to understand the Fa principle from Zhuan Falun, “The cultivation is up to you, gong is up to the master.” The other thing that hid behind the pursuit was the thought in my subconscious, “I will feel better after doing the Falun Gong exercises today, and I will feel even better tomorrow,” in which I regarded the purification of the body of a cultivator as a course of treatment for ordinary people. These human notions are based on modern science, but do not apply to cultivation. They were exactly the frames of mind that I needed to break through in my cultivation.
Sometimes, when reading the book very well, I thought, “My vision is so clear. Is it because of the good light and the right distance between my eyes and the book?” When this happened, I removed the thought as a form of interference and tried to trace it back to its root after I finished my Fa-study. I found that all those thoughts could be traced back to the thoughts and suspicions that I had accumulated in the past, which needed to be rectified.
During that period of time, I found many loopholes in my xinxing and rectified many things that were unrighteous. When I read Zhuan Falun, I could perceive more Fa principles and came to new understandings. After so many years I started genuinely sensing the profoundness of Zhuan Falun that is there in every word.
I can still remember reading Zhuan Falun for the first time. I thought that the sentences in the book were not well organized. I even thought that the book would be more readable if it could be revised this way or that way. I was so foolish back then, and I failed to live up to Teacher's compassionate salvation. It was more ridiculous than trying to measure the height of heaven and the thickness of the earth with my fingers. Teacher, I have failed to live up to your expectations and now I know I was wrong.
In the past few days of looking back on my cultivation, I came to many understandings. I think I have genuinely cultivated myself by actively negating the arrangements of the old forces. Such progress was a process of purifying myself, removing my human notions and rectifying myself.
Several days before, I asked my husband while we were having dinner, “Look at my eyes, do you see any changes in them?” He looked at my eyes and said, “Your eyes are really shining and piercing, like a living being with a spirit.” As Dafa practitioners, our physical bodies should be assimilated to the Fa and validate the Fa. Letting our physical body be divine is also a manifestation of the great power of Dafa.
Above are just some personal understandings. Please kindly point out anything improper.
Category: Improving Oneself
