(Clearwisdom.net) I obtained the Fa in March 1999. Before practicing Dafa I suffered from bilateral femoral head necrosis. It was difficult for me to walk even with crutches. In addition, I suffered from atherosclerosis, heart disease and a dozen other diseases. Four days after I started practicing Falun Dafa, I was able to walk without crutches.
I went to Beijing twice to appeal in 2000. I was sentenced to one year of forced labor and suffered inhumane torture at Wanjia Forced Labor Camp. One time, after being tortured, my right breast became infected, and began rotting. Eight months later I was sent for medical treatment. After coming back home from the labor camp, my husband would not take care of me. I felt so depressed that I thought I could not survive due to the severe pain and my husband's coldness. Every day I just collapsed on the bed feeling extremely weak. I understood from the Fa that Master only purifies the bodies of true practitioners but does not cure illnesses for everyday people. I had previously thought that “everyday people” meant people who don't practice Falun Gong. I later enlightened that when a practitioner considers issues with everyday people's thinking, at that moment he is just an everyday person and Master is not able to protect him. From the beginning of practicing Dafa, Master has eliminated our karma that should be eliminated and done everything that should be done for us. The rest all depends on ourselves. If we trust in Master and the Fa, there is no tribulation that we can not overcome.
I thought to myself: I am a practitioner and I don't have illness. Master will take care of me. I am a Dafa disciple. My mission is to assist Master in Fa-rectification and save sentient beings. If I leave like this, how many people won't be saved because of their misunderstanding of Dafa due to my not doing well? In order to validate the Fa and save sentient beings, I cannot die.
In my heart I said to Master: I hope fellow practitioners can help me. With just this thought, the next day a fellow practitioner that I didn't know called me and told me to get my stuff ready. I was invited over on the third day. Later I enlightened that Master is right next to us. If we are on the Fa Master can do anything for us. “It is good enough if you have this wish. It is the master who actually does this, as you are simply unable to do it.” (Zhuan Falun)
When I got to the practitioner's home, a flow of putrid pus was coming out of the big hole in my breast. There were bumps all over my arm and armpit, and I was in so much pain, I could hardly move. That night, the practitioner asked me whether I would like to do the exercises. I was so weak that I stood there trembling. I could barely move due to the severe pain in my arm. I thought to myself: does Master know about my health? Master definitely knows. Isn't Master's Fashen next to us? I reminded myself: Doing the exercises is beneficial. The exercises were taught by Master and will adjust our bodies. How can it hurt me? Isn't my relunctance to do it for fear I would get exhausted the same as not trusting Dafa? I said: “I'll do it!” I tried to stretch hard using all of my strength. At that time I really had the righteous thoughts of, “My body would still be sitting there even with my head cut off.” I did not care about the pain any more. I felt completely recovered after finishing the four sets of exercises. The swelling on my breast and the bumps on my arm suddenly disappeared. I did not feel any pain any more and felt very strong. My voice was also strong, and I said: “I feel much better!” The fellow practitioner shouted: “Look at her! She's totally recovered!” Her husband looked at me and kept jumping with joy: “Dafa is truly magic! If I didn't see it personally I would never believe it.” After ten days, my breast completely returned to normal. I was able to breast feed when I later gave birth to my daughter. I cannot express my gratitude for Master's infinite grace.
After overcoming this tribulation I realized that although I trusted Master and the Fa, I had neglected cultivation. When I began feeling very bad physically, I thought I had big omissions. But since I could not indentify them, I felt helpless and tried to bear the tribulation with human notions. I had previously encountered some xinxing tests. One example is, when I was working at a brick factory, the director's sister-in-law often pushed her work off on me. I knew that nothing a practitioner encounters is by chance. I cannot get into conflicts with everyday people no matter what they did, not to mention that there are immeasurable beings behind them, waiting to be saved. I treated her like my sister and placed saving sentient beings as top priority. Later, almost everyone in the factory saw that Dafa is good.
My father-in-law married again. I knew that his new wife must have predestined relationship with Dafa to come into my family. Sometimes no matter how nicely I treated her and no matter how much work I did, she always took everything for granted. Looking inward, I thought maybe I hurt her in one of my previous lives and I should do good in this life and be kind to her. But I felt my kindness towards her was superficial and not from my heart. Master said,
“...superficial changes are for others to see. Whether or not you can be saved depends on the change and ascension of your own heart. If change does not occur there, you cannot improve and nothing can be achieved.” (“Dafa Cannot be Used” from Essentials For Further Advancement)
After enlightening from the Fa, I remembered to look inward when facing problems and truly cultivate my own compassion. Now my mother-in-law and her family have all quit the CCP and its affiliated organizations. She now tells people that Dafa is good wherever she goes.
For some reason, my neighbor despised me and was against Dafa. She always went out of her way to insult me in front of other people. In order to avoid having conflicts with her, I set a rule for myself. No matter how bluntly she bad-mouthed me I would smile and just keep quiet. Not only is she my neighbor, she also has a great predestined relationship with Dafa. I was afraid that I could not clarify the truth to her face to face well, so I gave her some materials to read. Little did I know that she would throw it on the ground. I picked up the materials and said calmly: “If I didn't practice Dafa I would be angry at you and would never step in your home again. But I practice Truthfulness-Compassion- Forbearance, so I don't get angry.” I smiled and left. I realized that the evil in other dimensions was manipulating her and keeping her from being saved. So I sent forth righteous thoughts for her for over a month. Finally she quit the CCP's organizations. Not only did she quit herself, she also helped her family to quit. She has been practicing Falun Gong for two years. Her mother, her sister and her sister's mother-in-law have also started practicing.
Through truly cultivating my xinxing, I've experienced many miracles. One day I found that my leg, which had been lame, for years returned to normal. Now I can walk as normally as everyone else even though I lack the femoral head on my left side. I will continue to strive to cultivate my heart. At the same time, my continued good health also validates the Fa.
I realized that there are two kinds of practitioners who have been interfered with by serious sickness karma; one kind are those who have done very little of the three things, the other kind are those who have done a lot of the three things but substitute work as cultivation. They look outward when facing conflicts and don't truly cultivate xinxing. Because they neglect cultivating xinxing, when they feel uncomfortable they try to find their attachments, but are not able to identify them. So they start to waver. Their family may ask them to go to the hospital. If they have strong righteous thoughts, this tribulation will pass no matter how bad they feel physically. Because after all, these are just illusions. If they don't have righteous thoughts and want to go to the hospital to check it out, they are already using human notions. The exam may show that they are in late stages of cancer and they would have a heavy mental burden. They don't know how to improve xinxing and passively endure with human notions. Then the three things they do are no longer pure as whatever they do seems to be done with a pursuit of getting better. It's like a tooth extraction in western medicine where one suffers a lot but at the end the root is still not extracted. It should be like tooth extraction in Chinese medicine where one doesn't need to suffer. As long as one's xinxing improves, the tribulation is dissolved. I realize that everything is done by Master. What's important are our thoughts and intentions. If we use human thoughts then nothing can be done. If we have the righteous thoughts of a practitioner, then Master can do anything for us.
I think practitioners who are being heavily interfered with by sickness karma should have pure strong righteous thoughts no matter what agreement with the old forces they may have signed in history: “I am a Dafa disciple in the Fa-rectification period and I only walk the path arranged by Master. I will not acknowledge the path arranged by others. I will assist Master in Fa-rectification until the Fa rectifies the human world.”
We must let go of life and death, and let Master decide our lives. There is always a limit to physical discomfort. We must not let the tribulation be taller than ourselves. We have compassionate Master and Dafa. There is no tribulation that we can't overcome. If we have ample righteous thoughts, the physical tribulation will pass immediately. If one has the attachment of fear, then the old forces will increase the persecution and prolong the condition of discomfort until the practitioner enlightens.
We must truly cultivate xinxing and fundamentally deny the old forces. The factors that make our bodies uncomfortable will manifest in our xinxing, so we must not get angry when facing conflicts. Whenever facing issues in everyday life, if resentment and anger materialize, we should look inward immediately and eliminate it.
The above is my personal experience and enlightenment. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.
Category: Improving Oneself
