(Clearwisdom.net) Throughout the thirteen years of cultivation, I have encountered many difficulties and felt that cultivation is not easy, as I did not know if I would be able to continue on my cultivation path. However, after realizing my historical mission, I joined the current of cultivation in the Fa-rectification period. I would like to share with everyone my cultivation experience. Please point out anything inappropriate.
Establishing a truth-clarification material production station
In 2007, I set up a materials production site. Initially, I was not familiar with computers or printers, but with the help of fellow practitioners, I logged onto the Minghui website and the learned basic skills needed. My wife assisted me in running this site, but sometimes we could not cooperate with each other well. By looking inward, we both came to realize our individual problems and reconciled our differences. I have a busy schedule and we supported each other to run the production site well. Moreover, I helped other fellow practitioners to establish new production sites.
Doing the three things well
I studied the Fa during lunch break and again with my wife at night. We studied two to three chapters a day and sent forth righteous thoughts four times. During the wedding of one of my relatives, I told the villagers about the facts of Falun Gong and over a dozen people agreed to quit the Party's organizations in addition to several of my colleagues.
I often went out to distribute truth-clarification materials, which had built a solid foundation for people to be saved by other fellow practitioners. We must have a pure heart and mind when we are distributing truth-clarification materials. Normally, I always send forth righteous thoughts before I go out. Sometimes I would go with a fellow practitioner who would help send forth righteous thoughts and eliminate the evil factors. If my mind was not pure and righteous, I would encounter trouble. One day, I had my pocket full of Shen Yun DVDs because I wanted to give out more DVDs. Usually, my wife and I went out together and she sent forth righteous thoughts, but this time, she went back to her hometown and I did it by myself. I did not send forth righteous thoughts before I went out. I went into a dorm building and went upstairs as I saw a man coming down. After I left one DVD there, I did not find any other proper place to put them, so I went downstairs and saw that man again. He looked ferocious and shouted, “What are you doing here?” I became very nervous and hurriedly left. All kinds of bad thoughts popped up in my head and I was so scared that he would run after me. I returned home quickly and looked inward. I realized that my heart was not pure and I was too attached to the amount of DVDs I could deliver. Afterward, I went back to the same dorm to distribute truth-clarification materials a few times. I kept my mind in a righteous state and nothing happened.
Improving Xinxing
Upgrading one's Xinxing is the prerequisite to making progress in cultivation. Only by doing so, can one eliminate the evil and save more people. Master said, “...the entire cultivation process for a practitioner is one of constantly giving up human attachments.” (“Lecture One” in Zhuan Falun)
I have many attachments, such as the attachment of lust, jealousy and fear, which are initially hard for me to get rid of. Before cultivation, I was very attached to lust. When the attachment came, I recited Master's Fa, “Desires, lust, and things of these sorts are all human attachments, and all of them should be given up.”(“Lecture Six” in Zhuan Falun) Gradually, I got rid of the attachment to lust.
There is a fellow practitioner in our area who is very capable and good at editing truth-clarification materials. However, I was often not satisfied with his materials and sometimes I did not want to use his materials. I realized that I was very jealous, so I tried to get rid of the bad thoughts and forced myself to use his materials. However, sometimes, out of jealousy, we could not cooperate well, which gave the evil an opportunity to take advantage of our loopholes. These are lessons for me as I should be more diligent in getting rid of jealousy so that we can become one body and save more sentient beings.
Fear is also a bad attachment. Out of fear, I was too afraid to tell people about Falun Gong and sometimes I would pick and choose people to approach. I was persecuted by my workplace so I was afraid that I would be persecuted again. That thought is not righteous. I should get rid of all the bad thoughts and openly talk to people about Falun Gong and the persecution.
Master chose us as Dafa disciples and we should fulfill our vows. I should cultivate myself diligently, cooperate with other fellow practitioners and save more sentient beings. I will try to become a diligent Dafa practitioner.
