(Clearwisdom.net) When I had symptoms of sickness karma between April and July in 2011, I came to understand that true practitioners must conduct themselves according to the Fa at every moment.
Earlier this year, I went with my husband, also a practitioner, to live in our son’s home to help look after our granddaughter. I had plenty of time to study the Fa, do the exercises and send forth righteous thoughts, but I began to slack off in my cultivation. I started to use my son’s computer in April and found many games to play on it. Despite my husband’s warning me, and without realizing it, I became addicted to them. I kept telling my husband that I would only play for just a little while, but I played everyday and slid into becoming an ordinary person.
One day after lunch, I couldn’t help myself, and went to play on the computer. As soon as I sat down in front of the computer, I started to hiccup. I thought, “I should stop playing games. This is the last time, and I'll never play again.” Suddenly, I felt my heart was blocked. I realized the seriousness of the problem. I had given in to my attachments and wasted precious time playing computer games, leaving a loophole for the old forces to take advantage. Even though I turned off the computer, I still couldn’t breathe and my face turned red. I also could not stand up straight or sit down.
I leaned over the desk, and said to Master in my heart, “Esteemed Master, I have done terribly wrong. Instead of going out to save people, I was wasting precious time playing computer games. Please forgive me!” Suddenly, I let out a long burp and was able to breath again. My body felt relaxed and I was able to stand up. I thanked Master, and opened the book Zhuan Falun to the page of Master’s photo. I couldn’t hold back my tears. I told myself that cultivation is serious. Only by remembering that I am a practitioner at every moment and rectifying every thought in accordance with the Fa can I fulfill my vows. Otherwise, I will be dragged down by my human attachments and follow the path arranged by the old forces.
I began to feel a little pain in my right eye in mid-May. Learning my lesson from before, I was very strict with myself in doing Fa-study, exercising and sending forth righteous thoughts. Two weeks had gone by, but the pain in my eye had gotten worse and had spread over the entire right side of my head. My eye became very sensitive to light, and my vision was blurred. When the pain became so intense that I couldn’t sleep, I sat up and sent forth righteous thoughts and listened to Master’s lectures. I looked inside and found many attachments. The pain went away after four days, but the vision in my right eye was still blurry.
By the end of June, I couldn’t see anything out of my eye. I started to panic. But then realized that I am a practitioner and Master is watching over me. When my son and daughter-in-law urged me to go for a check-up at the hospital, I said, “Don’t worry. It’ll become normal in a few days.” Indeed, the sight in my right eye came back, a little blurry at the beginning, but my vision is completely normal now.
It is actually quite unusual for people in their 50s to have vision as good as mine. My husband and I decided that we should not stay in my son’s home any longer and must return home, because we needed to do the three things well in our own area. When we went home we resumed participating in group Fa-study, sending forth righteous thoughts, distributing truth-clarification materials, and helping people to quit the Chinese Communist Party and its affiliated organizations.
Master words have helped to firm up my righteous thoughts and advance diligently in cultivation:
“Cultivation practice is serious. In your process of continuously strengthening your determination, continuously studying the Fa, and continuously deepening your understanding, you will gradually turn around. Before, you didn’t truly cultivate in Dafa. Although you were reading the book, the purpose of your reading was to have your body adjusted or to get rid of what you considered tribulations. I have imparted the Fa to save people, to enable them to reach Consummation through cultivation. It’s not for solving some crises for people, curing people’s illnesses, or getting rid of things that people consider bad. So only when you truly want to cultivate and have a steadfast faith in Dafa will everything of yours change. If you’re studying Dafa just for those things, you will gain nothing. Why? It’s not that we don’t have compassion for people. It’s because what I look after are students and their cultivation, whereas people ultimately have to pay off the karma that they’ve created” (“Teaching the Fa at the Eastern U.S. Fa Conference”).
I have failed some tests in my cultivation and let the old forces take advantage of my loopholes, but I do not acknowledge the old forces’ interference and persecution. As long as we have the Fa in our heart and righteous thoughts, we can walk well on the path arranged by our esteemed Master and save sentient beings!
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