(Clearwisdom.net) Fourteen years have quickly passed since I began practicing Falun Dafa. Looking back over that time, I see that Teacher has given me more than I can describe. My cultivation state has been inconsistent, however, and I have taken many detours. I feel that I have not done well enough given Teacher’s efforts to save me. I am immensely grateful to, and have the utmost respect for, our compassionate Teacher.
A New Life in Dafa
I lived a difficult life before my cultivation. I was born in a remote southern farm village. My mother has told me that I had a high fever three days after my birth and was tossed into the wilderness. My family members were shepherding cows, heard my cries and saved me. When I was eight, My mother would not let me go to school, saying that it was useless for a girl and wanted me to shepherd cows and chop wood. I got married when I was 20 and moved to Northeastern China. But my husband suddenly got sick and died when I was 29, leaving me with two children, one 9 years old and the other 6. I did not have a job, and life was hard. I lamented all day, and my health began to deteriorate. I had ulcers, nephritis, a kidney stone, and heart trouble.
One day in December, 1996, two friends visited me, urged me to practice Falun Gong, and taught me how to meditate. Never having meditated before, I was able to sit in lotus position for over forty minutes. The next day they brought me a copy of Zhuan Falun. I never attended school, but my children helped me by reading the Fa to me. The first day I studied the Fa, I saw Teacher’s image glowing in gold, with a halo over Teacher's head becoming higher and higher and even flashing. Later I saw the law wheel.
A month later, one night when I finished work at 10:00 p.m., both children were asleep already and could not read the Fa to me. I held Zhuan Falun to my chest and said to Teacher: “It is too slow relying on my children to read the Fa to me. Please help me, Teacher.” Then I dreamed that Teacher came out from Zhuan Falun, and opened the book to show me. I said: “Sorry, Teacher, but I cannot read.” Teacher gently touched my ears once and showed the book to me again. Then he patted me on my head and left. The next day when my daughter read the Fa to me, I found I could recognize every word. Moreover, I found I could read all of Teacher’s lectures and articles, although I could not read normal books.
From then on, no matter how busy I was, I would study the Fa and recite Teacher’s articles every day.
The evil party began slandering Dafa and Teacher on July 20, 1999, but I was steadfast. On April 20, 2000, another practitioner and I went to Beijing to appeal. We were arrested at Tiananmen Square and taken to the local police station. One day the station chief wanted to take our pictures. I saw that the background had Dafa-smearing words so I refused. Then the chief forced me to hold the board in front of me, but I tossed it away. After we went back and forth a few times, he asked another officer to put the board in front of me. I sent forth righteous thoughts that the picture would not show. Indeed later the officer said that his photo shot failed.
Clarifying the facts and saving sentient beings
In March 2005, I went to the city and worked as a nanny. The host told me that his father was a retired army person. His mother broke a bone and was bedridden. The doctor said she needed to stay in bed for at least half a year, and that was why they were hiring me. I told the host that I am a Falun Gong practitioner. He said it was ok with him, but I should keep it from his father.
That night, I explained the facts about Falun Gong to the elderly lady while I fed her. She was surprised: “How can such a nice person like you practice Falun Gong?” I told her that all the CCTV reports were lies and explained to her the truth about the self-immolation case. Finally she realized the facts. I told her: “You just recite ‘Falun Dafa is good’, ‘Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good’” and she agreed.
The third day when I fed her in the morning, she called me by my name and happily said to me: “I am ok now. I can move.” I was truly happy for her. I help put her shoes on and she walked to the living room by herself. Her husband was stunned, and said to me: “You must be a divine being.” They then called their daughters. The daughters said it was impossible. When they came over and found it true, they said to me: “You must have been sent by God. You’ve been here only three days and she is well.” I said: “You are right. My Master sent me here. I practice Falun Gong and it saves people.” I took the opportunity to clarify facts to all their relatives, friends, and neighbors, and urged them to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its associated organizations. Even the most stubborn old man believed me completely and quit the CCP.
Since then, this lady studied the Fa and did the exercises with me, and went out every day to tell people the facts about Falun Gong. In the few months I stayed in their home, I managed to get over fifty people to quit the CCP and its associated organizations. Afterwards I went to a few different homes to be a nanny, and told more people the facts and got them to quit the CCP.
In the past few years I had joy and sorrow. The joy was to save some sentient beings. The sorrow was that some of them would not listen. I have been doing what I needed to do, but I am still far from what Teacher expects of me. I will study the Fa more and be diligent in saving sentient beings. I want to be a genuine Fa-rectification period Dafa disciple. I am grateful to Teacher for saving me and for giving me everything I have.