(Clearwisdom.net) Many practitioners were impressed with the practitioner, who wrote the article entitled “The Cultivation Story of a Presiding Judge in China” (http://www.clearwisdom.net/html/articles/2010/12/6/121811.html), which was published in the Seventh Internet Fa Conference for Practitioners in China. They thought that she did really well. However, I had an issue with the way she handled some of the incidents. She mentioned that her husband once assaulted her, pushing one of his legs down on her chest and breaking two of her ribs. She thought this could be an opportunity for her to improve her xinxing and she said that to her son. In addition, she also mentioned that her husband put a copy of the Minghui Weekly, which she had casually placed on the table, into the garbage. I would like to share my understanding on this.
I have read on the web and witnessed many situations, where practitioners had many tribulations at home. In 1999, a practitioner was strangled to death by her husband. Obviously, the evil was rampant, but I thought that this practitioner would not have been so helpless, like an ordinary person, had she been clear about the Fa principles.
This reminded me of another article by a practitioner from Shanxi Province, entitled “Let Our Original Side Guide Us,” in which she explained how she passed tremendous tribulations in her home environment, guided by Teacher's article “Expounding on the Fa.” I applauded her and thought that this is cultivating in the Fa. We should not, as Teacher said,
“Having humanly fostered the evil demons, you allow them to capitalize on the loopholes in the Fa.” “This results from an inadequate understanding of the Fa by your human side” “Evil demons then capitalize on this point and inflict endless interference and damage, leaving students in long-term tribulations.” “So why doesn’t the side of you that is your original nature rectify the Fa? ” (“Expounding on the Fa” from Essentials for Further Advancement)
On our cultivation path, almost every practitioner has tribulations with their family. My husband does not practice and he has given me a lot of tribulations, some of which, I thought were for improving my xinxing and others were interference by the evil, which used him to persecute me. We have to be very clear on this, and we cannot just endure it passively.
For example, one day after July 20, 1999, when many practitioners avoided going out to do the exercises for fear of being arrested, my husband tried to stop me from going out. I rejected him flatly. Then he threatened me that if I did go, he would jump off the building and kill himself. I was not afraid, but examined myself and realized that I had a strong attachment to fame. I was the assistant for our practice site and didn't want fellow practitioners to think that I was afraid to go out. When I found my attachments, my husband had no more issues with me going out to do the exercises.
When I tried to persuade him to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), he refused. On another occasion, we talked about it again. He then conceded that there were some bad guys in the communist party, although it was good in the past. I pointed out to him that it was never good. He got upset and shoved me to the ground, sat on me, and hysterically punched me in the head. Although I could not move under him, I firmly said to him, “Get off me! Heaven is watching you. You will have to pay for this.” He immediately backed off, and I went into another room and locked the door. I was black and blue all over. He knocked on my door, but I just ignored him. I knew that he woke up and regretted it. The following day, he apologized and quit the CCP.
Amidst these tribulations, the most important is our starting point, whether we react for ourselves or for others. This particular thought is the most important.
I had many tribulations during 1999. I was the assistant of a practice site and my employer had a high profile locally. When I came back from Beijing, where I tried to appeal for Falun Dafa, they pressured me to “transform” and to write a guarantee statement, which I refused to do. Many of my fellow practitioners were arrested. Although I was constantly harassed, I did not get arrested. I realized later, that although I had a strong attachment to fame, I had one thought that was very pure – to be responsible for the world's people. I had the thought that I should not be arrested, otherwise my colleagues, family members, neighbors would have misconceptions about Dafa. I thus made it through this period of time without being arrested. I also realized that it is important for practitioners to have a functional and intact family, which will help in clarifying the truth. As morality has declined in general, people no longer take marriage seriously. My husband is in a leadership position and is a good looking man, while I am a little chubby. Because of my righteous thoughts, and despite some interference, he has stayed away from other women. Therefore, my family was well regarded by people around us and the envy of many of them.
I also enlightened that we have to play our roles well within the family. We need to behave like a spouse should, otherwise it will not help to save them. This is an issue of our level as well as our compassion. We should behave in line with our roles in society. What matters is our xinxing. Then our spouses will at least treat us according to the ways of ordinary society, and they will not dare to abuse us physically.
Teacher said in “Congratulatory Message” in 2006,
“Dafa disciples, you are golden light in the mortal world, the hope of the world's people, Fa-disciples who help Master, and future Fa-Kings.”
We are enlightened beings and we should not regard ourselves as a disadvantaged group, much less should we accept tribulations as if we deserve to suffer due to our karma. We should openly validate the Fa with dignity. Because I was very clear on this, although I am young, our extended family respects me highly. When the world's people respect Dafa disciples, they will have positioned themselves well.
Fellow practitioners, our family members have a deep predestined relationship with us. Therefore, we cannot treat them like someone we meet on the street. Since our family members know us very well, we need to do better in rectifying each and every one of our thoughts and treat our family members with compassion and think about them first, before we can really save them.
