(Clearwisdom.net) In the first half of 2006, I suffered from several serious health problems. I felt bloated, my legs were swollen, my face turned yellowish, and I lost more than ten pounds.
A family member insisted on taking me to the hospital, where doctors diagnosed me with advanced stage stomach cancer! My family was stunned. I told them, “Don't worry, I'll be OK. I have my Master protecting me.”
I didn't worry about myself at all; instead, I worried that my relatives, neighbors, friends, and family members would have negative thoughts about Dafa due to this frightening diagnosis. I felt very responsible for their futures!
The one thing I was happy about was that they all knew the truth about the Chinese Communist Party and they had all quit the Party and its affiliated organizations.
At that time, I asked some fellow practitioners to help me look inside and deny the old forces' arrangements and strengthen my resolve to walk the path that Master arranged for me.
I repeated these words to myself: “Only Master can change the course of my life. I have to be more diligent on the path of cultivation. A true practitioner has no disease. My so-called health issue is a false phenomenon. Whatever happens to me is a good thing as it can help me eliminate karma. I will maintain a clear mind at all times. I believe in Master and Dafa and I just need to do what Master requires of me.”
At the same time, I calmed down and looked inside for the root cause of my tribulation. I realized that I did not study Fa well and that I was attached to eliminating karma.
Back in 2004, I felt something moving around in my stomach. Thinking that I had worms, I bought some pills to kill them. Master gave me a hint through my husband, who said, “If you're a practitioner, you should not take those pills.”
In order to cover up my attachment, I said defiantly, “These pills are for killing worms, not for curing illnesses! The worms will die if I take the pills, that's all!” As it turned out, I felt a lot worse after taking the pills. Still, I did not realize my problem.
On the contrary, I felt that there might be a lot of worms inside me and perhaps one dose wasn't enough, so I took a few additional doses. Afterwards, my face turned yellowish and I lost more than ten pounds. I should have learned a lesson after the first dose, but I didn't.
When I finally discovered my attachment, I firmly and completely denied the old forces' arrangements. Although I had not done well in this area, I refused to accept the old forces' persecution and chose instead to walk the path that Master had arranged for me.
This time, after I was diagnosed with “stomach cancer,” I could not fall asleep at night, so I studied Fa a lot, did the exercises more, and sent forth righteous thoughts more often. I studied the Fa until 7 a.m., then I did the five exercises.
When I studied the Fa, I sat in the lotus position. I can usually cross my legs for one and a half hours, but during this period of time, I felt severe pain after having crossed them for only five minutes. I told myself that I should sit for at least a half an hour and do the five exercises every day.
Despite having little or no sleep, I still went out to clarify the truth at 9 a.m. everyday. In the beginning, I was so weak that I did not have the energy to talk, but after a while, things got progressively better. I also systematically studied all of Master’s lectures. I cried when I studied, thinking to myself, “Why didn’t I enlighten to these truths earlier on?”
Actually, it was because I did not really put my heart into studying the Fa—I just went through the motions. I now realize that the more I study the Fa, the less attachments I will have and the more righteous my thoughts will become.
I enlightened to the fact that the process of studying Fa, doing the exercises, sending forth righteous thoughts, and clarifying the truth is also the process for eliminating karma and upgrading our mind nature.
Master said in Zhuan Falun:
"Once you upgrade your xinxing, your body will undergo a great change. Upon xinxing improvement, the matter in your body is guaranteed to transform."
For three solid months, I couldn't sleep well, nor did I have an appetite. Shortly after, I recovered completely. I indeed felt the Fa’s great compassion and magnificence. I now cherish Dafa more than I ever did.
I know that my life was extended by our great Master. The miracle that occurred in my body deeply touched my relatives and friends. They became more respectful of Master and Dafa and started to actively spread the miracle of Dafa.
As long as we have firm faith in Master and Dafa, anything is possible!
