(Clearwisdom.net) Below is a tribulation I experienced. By studying the Fa, practicing the exercises, strengthening righteous thoughts, and looking within, I battled through the tribulation with my steadfast belief in Teacher and Dafa.

Since childhood, I was frank and outspoken. I refused to listen to or obey anyone. I could even work like a man. When I was young, my parents owned a restaurant. At that time, when I was pregnant, I was in charge of rolling out noodles in the restaurant. I worked until about 11 p.m. each day for no pay. After I gave birth, I quit the restaurant and decided to start a clothing business. Since I did not have much money, I went to ask my parents for help. They refused to help me, and I went home in tears. I had done so much work and earned so much money for them, but they refused to give me a hand when I was in need. After that I began to hate them. I did not go to the restaurant to offer to help them or go home to visit them.

Fortunately I became a Falun Dafa practitioner. In my cultivation, I kept on improving myself, discarded my hatred for my parents, and tried my best to harmonize our relationship. Looking back, although I made great efforts to do better, Rome was not built in a day. Nobody can let go of hatred all at once. That left me with tribulations.

Since July 1999, Falun Dafa has been brutally persecuted, but I never departed from Teacher and Dafa. I firmly believe that Teacher is righteous and Dafa is righteous. No matter what happens, I will continue to cultivate. Even when I was detained, harassed, or in the severest period of persecution, my heart was always with Teacher and Dafa. I behaved myself like a cultivator and did the three things well. As a result, my body and mind improved. My face looked rosy. When I ran into someone in the market, they would say, "Your complexion is so good." I responded immediately, "I am a Falun Gong practitioner. That is why my complexion is good." Then I would clarify the truth about Dafa and urge the person to quit the CCP. One day my sister and I discussed renting a booth in a market to do business together. That way we could meet and save more sentient beings. When doing all kinds of paperwork, we met with the market boss, the manager, the deputy manager, the office director, and administrative staff. We clarified the truth to almost all of them and helped them quit the CCP. The complexion that I took pride in became the starting point for me to clarify the truth. But as time passed, my unperceived attachments began to accumulate, and finally became the chasm that was hard to get over in my cultivation.

At the beginning of last year, I started to notice pustules on my head. They oozed yellow pus, which made my skin very tight, and it was hard for me to close my eyes to sleep. I sent forth righteous thoughts for a period without noticing much improvement. The pustules spread, and both my ears began to ooze pus. Later, they spread to my face, which became itchy, painful, red, and purple, and developed layers of incrustation. My rosy skin finally became too horrible to be seen. A one-year-old child living in the same building got scared and cried when she saw me. My husband couldn't even look me straight in the face.

At that time, I was afraid of others making complaints or developing doubts about Dafa. I was badly battered during that period. The pustules kept on spreading—to my chest, my groin, my private parts, and feet. My private parts and groin oozed yellow pus and itched, destroying my skin. When I rode a bike to work, it hurt so much that I could not keep from crying. That period of time was torment for me.

At that time, my sister urged me again and again to look within. But in a time of tribulations, I was at a loss how to cultivate. Other practitioners also helped me to send forth righteous thoughts and look within. Thus I had no choice but to sit down to study the Fa and look within for attachments.

I found that after I started to cultivate, although I did not resent my parents like I did before, I still felt ill at ease when I met them and my brother. A while ago, they sold the restaurant for 650,000 yuan, but I did not get a penny. They did not even tell me about it. I was very upset. My sister said, "The money the restaurant earned came from killing dogs, chickens, fish and other animals. Are you asking for money or karma, or gong to return home with Teacher?" I was startled by what she said. How could I have such strong attachments after so many years of cultivation?

In group Fa study, we read Teacher's “Explaining the Fa During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference.” Teacher said, "As a matter of fact, I can tell you that at the final moment of the Fa's rectification of the human world, in a flash everything will be disintegrated. What money? There won't even be a piece of paper left." So I should let go of the attachment to money and make improvements quickly. I kept on cultivating my mind and looking within to find the hidden attachments and eliminate them. I could never tolerate the old forces persecuting my body. I sent forth righteous thoughts to completely eliminate all dark minions, rotten ghosts, and the CCP's specter: “I am Teacher's disciple. Nobody can affect me. I refuse to acknowledge other arrangements, I only follow the path arranged by Teacher.” I recovered gradually.

This experience made me realize that "looking within is a magical tool (“Fa Teaching at the 2009 Washington DC International Fa Conference”)" Before, I overlooked one important point, that cultivating myself well is the premise of doing everything well. The accumulation of unnoticeable attachments such as hatred, showing off, competition, saving face, and so on provided the old forces good excuses to persecute me. Fortunately, with Teacher's care and fellow practitioners' help, I battled through the tribulation.

Here I also remind fellow practitioners who are in a similar situation not to indulge yourself—that is very dangerous. We should rectify our every word, deed, and thought in normal times. Only this way will we not leave obstacles or attachments on the path of cultivation.

I have now totally recovered. I enlightened that only by studying the Fa a lot, looking within genuinely, and doing the three things well are we walking well on the path arranged by Teacher. Then the old forces will run away when they see us, not to mention be unable to persecute us. In tribulations, we must believe in Teacher and the Fa, instead of giving ourselves up as hopeless and tolerating it helplessly. Only by believing firmly that I was Teacher's disciple without a doubt could I battle through the tribulation. Let's forge ahead diligently to fulfill our pledge at the final stage of Fa-rectification.

The above is my understanding at the present stage. I welcome fellow practitioners to point out my improper points.

Thanks to our mighty Teacher once again.