(Clearwisdom.net) Looking back at the ups and downs in the last 10 years of my cultivation and assisting Master in Fa-rectification, I feel so grateful for Master and Dafa. Here I want to share my cultivation experience with fellow practitioners.
Dafa Turned Me into a Brand New Person
I obtained the Fa in March, 1999. Before I obtained the Fa, I had a lot of diseases. Not long after I started cultivation practice, I completely changed into a new person. However, only several months later, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started its persecution of Falun Dafa.
Maintaining Strong Righteous Thoughts
After the persecution was started, like many other practitioners, I was confused by the sudden changes. I asked myself what I should do. Then I had one thought: “Step forward!” Because of that thought, I decided to go to the provincial capital to appeal for Dafa.
I had never been to the provincial capital before. I didn't know what bus to take, so I followed people to the bus station. After I got onto the bus, I thought how great it would be if I could meet some fellow practitioners. So I paid attention to observe and listen to other people talking around me. Since I didn't find any practitioner, I closed my eyes and started to recite the Fa. On the way, the bus driver stopped for a while, and we all went out of the bus to take a break. After I got back on the bus, I was so glad to see that several books of Master's lectures in other countries were placed on my seat. I held them very happily. I knew Master arranged this to help me find fellow practitioners.
We arrived at the destination smoothly. In the middle of the trip, we stopped several times. I didn't know it was to block Falun Gong practitioners. I came back home at night on the same day. When I did the sitting meditation, my legs no longer felt pain, even if I sat for one hour. In the past, it was very painful when I sat for half an hour. I knew Master was encouraging me.
On October 25, 1999 I heard that the regime was trying to defame Dafa by calling it a cult. I made up my mind to go to Beijing to appeal. That night, when a fellow practitioner sent me off at the train station, I felt that my righteous thoughts were so strong that it could pick up a mountain. I knew Master was encouraging me again.
When the train started, I began to recite the Fa. After a while, I found that fellow practitioners began to gather together. It turned out that there were fellow practitioners on every car. I was so happy to see them. I discussed with them about our cultivation experiences, and it was like going back to the days of group study.
When I was detained in Beijing, I didn't follow the evil's orders. If they didn't allow us to recite the Fa, then we recited it very loudly. Beijing Fengtai Stadium was full of practitioners who were detained by the authorities. At that time (around October), there was a big difference in the temperature between the daytime and nighttime. In the evening, the police officers all wore heavy jackets, but the practitioners had on only thin shirts. Later on, the police transferred the practitioners to detention centers and ordered each of us to turn in our I.D. and all the money we had. My thinking was that my money and my I.D. should be used to validate the Fa, so I shouldn't give them to the evil. As a result, they didn't take them away. I enlightened that my thoughts at that time were consistent with the Fa, and Master therefore protected me.
Eliminating Fear and Assisting Master in Fa-rectification
Because I didn't let go of some of my attachments for a long time, I was persecuted several times, and my family members also suffered a lot because of that. I still had a lot of human attachments, and I didn't fully understand the nature of the persecution. For a long time, I moved from place to place in other cities to avoid the police. Although I knew that state wasn't right, I wasn't able to break through it. Later on, when the truth-clarification materials production site (where I was staying) was discovered and damaged by the evil, I got out of prison with righteous thoughts. Although my physical strength was very limited, and I only had 30 yuan left with me, I miraculously went back home.
After I adjusted my cultivation state, I started my Fa-rectification cultivation again. I hung up banners, posted truth-clarification posters, and distributed informational materials. When I first went to the countryside to distribute materials, I met an elderly woman who was looking at me all the time. So I walked over to her and greeted to her: “I've brought the best gift for you.” She said: “I've been waiting for you.” So I told her about the beauty of Dafa and how the communist regime caused so many disasters to the Chinese people; in the end, I persuaded her to withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations. From then on, I started to clarify the truth to people face to face. The rural people are very pure and simple. I clarified the truth according to their situations and the issues they wanted to know about. Once when I was in the countryside, a dog ran up to me very fast, and I said to the dog: “Please remember Falun Dafa is good and you'll have a bright future.” Then the dog came by my side and bit down on the lower hem of my clothes. Very soon, the dog's owner came in a hurry and said the dog often bit people. I told him that the dog doesn't bite good people. The owner asked what I was doing there, and I told him that I'm a Falun Gong practitioner, and I came there to distribute truth-clarification materials to them. That owner invited me to his house, I kindly refused his invitation and clarified the truth to him. In the end, he said: “I didn't know you've been wronged, no wonder the dog didn't bite such a good person.”
Sometime after that, I went to villages farther away with fellow practitioners to distribute materials and clarify the truth. Every time we encountered problems, we looked inward to see if we had developed or didn't get rid of some attachments.
It's Not What We Want to Do for Dafa, but What Dafa Needs Us to Do
For quite a while, I always felt that I needed more truth-clarification materials; I never had enough. Then a practitioner told me that Master wanted us to set up family-based sites to make truth-clarification materials. Some time later, I got the necessary machines to set up a materials production site. At first, regardless of where I put the machines, I felt it was unsafe. I moved them here and there all the time. However, after I studied the Fa, communicated with fellow practitioners, and sent forth righteous thoughts more, my heart gradually became calm and stable. At first, I only made enough materials for myself. Later on, I made enough materials for seven or eight practitioners or to support other materials production sites.
At first I didn't dare to use the printer because I thought that if it were to break, then I would have to find fellow practitioners to fix it for me. However, I kept running into the problems that I feared. Sometimes the ink leaked, and sometimes the printer didn't work at all. I knew that the reason I had these troubles was because my heart wasn't righteous. So I started to send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the interference, and now I can use the printer well all by myself.
After that period, I came across things to help me get rid of the attachment to comfort. Once we had a group discussion, and a fellow practitioner said we should have a practitioner who knows how to fix machines in our local area, that we couldn't always rely on practitioners in other cities to cover it. I wondered why they spoke about that issue with me? Should I break through my current state and learn the technology? Then I had another thought that I couldn't do it. Moreover, I didn't want to take the time to learn the technology. I thought that it was easier to go out to clarify the truth to people!
Once when I studied the Fa, I suddenly had one thought: “Selfish!” I knew the practitioners who handle technical issues need to resolve all kinds of problems, and shouldn't I help relieve some burden for them? Since I enlightened to it, I started to learn the technology. At the beginning, all my head was filled with was the machines' problems. It really took a lot of time and energy to fix them. Now I finally understand the difficulties of practitioners who deal with technical issues. Sometimes I spent a lot of time just to fix a small problem. Later on, I learned that whenever a fellow practitioner's machine had some problem, I looked inward first. I've learned to fix my heart first, before I started to fix the machine. In this way, the problem can be resolved very easily. But if I developed the attachment to doing things or other mentalities, then it became hard for me to fix the machine.
I know everything I have was given by Dafa. In the future I'll be more diligent in validating the Fa.