(Clearwisdom.net) When the heavy iron gate slammed shut behind me, in the dim light I saw the floor full of people asleep, and then it hit me—I am in. When will I get out? I am here when I have not yet fulfilled my mission, and many people are still awaiting salvation. Yet I am here! I wanted to cry.
What great cultivation omissions must I have? I sat down and reflected on my cultivation for a long time, which I wouldn't do when I was free. I was busy producing materials and never slacked on Fa study or sending righteous thoughts every day. Why did I get arrested? I couldn't find the reason. Recalling the days when I was held in a labor camp from 2001 to 2004, I also could not identify any weakness.
Master said,
“Pause for a moment of self-reflection,
and increase your righteous thoughts
Thoroughly analyze your shortcomings,
and progress with renewed diligence” (“Rational and Awake,” Hong Yin II )
I was determined to dig out my omission this time! I found lots of attachments, but they were not critical; in other words, they were not serious enough so the old forces could take advantage of them to cause major losses. Then one day a passage appeared in my mind, “Validate the Fa with rationality, clarify the truth with wisdom, spread the Fa and save people with mercy”. (“Rationality,” Essentials for Further Advancement II) Yes, that was it! That was my gap. I did not truly live up to Master’s requirement and was sent to a labor camp in 2001 for the very same reason.
Back in 2001 I was able to let go of everything in the world for the sake of safeguarding Dafa. I went to Beijing to appeal and did the Dafa exercises in Tiananmen Square. Workplace officials sent me to brainwashing sessions, I was fired, and detained. Later, a security officer reported me to the police when I was handing out Dafa materials in a residential neighborhood. I was sentenced to three years of forced labor. At the time, I thought I had already achieved Master’s standard for us, and I no longer worried about my life. I was not afraid when I produced and distributed Dafa materials. If I was in line with the Fa at that level, I shouldn't be arrested or persecuted. But why had this happened to me? I didn't know the reason at that time.
During the most recent arrest, the officials broke into my home early in the morning and found lots of Dafa materials and DVDs. They took me to a detention center. My material production site has operated for a few years without a hitch, but this incident made me realize that Dafa is harmonious, and we must not go to extremes.
Master said, “Validate the Fa with rationality, clarify the truth with wisdom, spread the Fa and save people with mercy.” (“Rationality,” Essentials for Further Advancement II)
I could memorize these words, but did I really live up to them?
When practitioners hastily put away Dafa materials whenever there is a hint of persecution, I used to think it was fear and a lack of righteous thoughts and that the evil would disintegrate on its own if we had no fear. I thought my fear was eliminated bit by bit over the years and my righteous thoughts were increasingly strengthened, so there was no safety concern with my home-based site, but I made the same mistake as I did in 2001. Practitioners who pay attention to safety issues and those who do not all quote Master’s words to defend their position, but they are, in fact, defending their human notions without actually realizing profound Fa principles. If we truly conduct ourselves according to Master’s Fa and are harmonious without any gap, the evil would no longer be able to take advantage of our gaps!
I recall one time in 2001 when I was handing out Dafa materials, two people walked toward me. They were talking and pointed their fingers at me. I thought nothing of it and went into another building to hand out more materials right under their noses. After I came out of the building I saw them standing not far away from me. I walked straight ahead, which meant walking past them. They stopped me. Officials ransacked my home and took lots of DVDs and materials, and I was sentenced to three years in a labor camp. I spent a total of six years in detention.
