(Clearwisdom.net) I feel incredibly fortunate to be able to practice Dafa, beginning in August 2009, during this final phase of Fa-rectification. Words cannot express my gratitude toward Master for saving me.
Actually, I first came across Dafa in 1996. My father was practicing at the time, and due to his influence I started reading Zhuan Falun and doing the exercises. I was in my early 20s and did not take Master’s words to heart, so I could not understand Dafa’s profound meaning and often slacked off doing the exercises.
The cultivation environment was relaxed, so I was lax. Master took care of me as soon as I started doing the exercises. He cleansed my body, but my xinxing did not catch up, and I did not do well in some tests. This lasted two years, until my notions became overpowering. I read the Fa less and less, and I rarely did the exercises. In addition, my girlfriend was strongly opposed to Dafa, so I gave it up completely in 1998.
Over the past decade, I smoked and drank alcohol and created lots of karma; my health was failing. I kept lots of pain pills and cold medicine at home and at my workplace; my temper became increasingly volatile. Master pitied me and did not give up on me, and Dafa gave me another chance at life!
I went to my father’s home in August 2009 and saw an MP3 player on the table. Out of curiosity I listened to it and heard Master’s lectures in Jinan. I listened for a while and told my father that I wanted to take it home to make a copy. Around this time I also received an email about Falun Gong sent by a practitioner. I downloaded the software to break through the Internet blockade and was able to access the Minghui/Clearwisdom website, where I saw Dafa books and categorized information. I was ecstatic! I was speechless when I saw the magnificent pictures of Dafa around the world! What a stark contrast to what was happening in China! Tears streamed down my face as I read stories of persecution and of courageous practitioners rescuing sentient beings. I spent the next few days listening to the Jinan lectures. The second day I felt something turning in my abdomen, and I knew Master was taking care of me. It took me about two weeks to read all of Master’s articles; everything became crystal clear. I truly felt Master’s boundless compassion!
Master said,
“If he really wants to obtain it, and no matter what he still wants to obtain it, then he can obtain it. So in other words, right now there really is a very big obstacle for people who want to come and be one of the Dafa disciples.” (“Explaining the Fa During the 2003 Lantern Festival at the U.S. West Fa Conference”)
I studied the Fa and did the exercises daily, even when I had bouts of headaches, just as Master said,
“Abundant troubles rain down together,
All to see: Can you pull through?”
(“Tempering the Will” in Hong Yin)
Tests came one after another, and karma was eliminated faster and faster as the headaches came in waves. Sometimes it was so severe that I vomited and my head felt as if it were going to split open, and I also had flu symptoms. My wife told me to take medications, but I refused. She threw a fit, but I knew she was helping me eliminate karma. I had only one thought, “No one can stop me. I will do anything to practice Dafa!”
One month later I thought, “I’m a disciple, and I can’t just stay home and do the exercises, I have to go out and tell other people.” I bought an MP5 and a portable media player and downloaded and showed Dafa-related videos to my colleagues and friends.
I did not know much about computers then, and it was hard for me to make flyers. I asked someone for help and was able to produce my very first flyer. I went to a village on my way home from work to distribute flyers. At first, I had some fear but it soon got better. I handed out a dozen copies with Master’s help. I often took more than 100 copies with me to distribute during the day, and everything went smoothly, always with Master’s help. Master often performed miracles to encourage me, such as when I was making materials, I would grab a bunch of paper and some plastic bags—the number of sheets of paper and bags would always match when I finished packing them—and I would always heshi to thank Master for encouraging me.
I know how difficult it is to obtain Dafa, so I tried to not slack off and worked hard on the three things. I clearly felt many changes, and my xinxing also improved. Then came lots of tests: my wife and mother-in-law, my siblings, my superiors from work, and friends started calling and visiting me, and some even arranged meals during which the whole table tried to talk me out of practicing Dafa.
Whenever that happened, I would acknowledge their good intentions first and thank them for their concern, and then I would explain why I would continue to practice. My wife often hit me because she was terrified of the Communist Party. I knew they were tests, but at times it was really hard when my emotions were stirred. Sometimes I failed to live up to xinxing standards and would regret it afterwards. Later on she refused to let me study the Fa at home and demanded a divorce. I told her, “If there is only one thing left in my life, it would be Falun Dafa.”
I was determined not to divorce her because I had to rescue her and tell her of the wonders of Dafa. I realized this was a test of affection and I calmly said, “Let’s not divorce. Let's live a good life together.” Then we both smiled. Although she reluctantly agreed to let me do the exercises at home, she still refuses to let me read Dafa books or visit the Minghui website from home, no matter what I say. One night she saw me reading a report on the Minghui website regarding the indictment of Jiang Zemin by a Spanish court, and she hit me from behind and swore at me, but I ignored her. She grew furious and poured cold water on me. It was winter. I was in my underwear and shivered. I only said in a calm voice, “You went a little overboard.” I kept explaining to her why I was doing it, but my words fell on deaf ears. To this day, she refuses to listen to the facts.
The first person I helped quit the Chinese Communist Party and its affiliated organizations was the accountant at my company. That night I had a dream and knew Master was encouraging me and telling me this person was saved!
I have practiced for one year and I have worked very hard at the three things. Earlier this year, I bought a small color printer so that I could produce truth-clarifying materials on my own. I also mail letters, send emails, and leave messages to help offset the lies about Dafa. I often go to a different carwash and barber shop so that I can talk to more people. Sometimes I carry a camera and use it to strike up a conversation with strangers before asking them to quit the CCP. I meet all kinds of people and keep one thing in mind, “I don’t care why I met this person, there is a reason for it, and I must rescue him/her.” I always smile and speak in a humble and friendly manner, and the success rate is quite high.
I know Master has given us the best because we are particles of the Fa, and we must be worthy of the title “Dafa disciples.” Among the six billion people on earth, I am one of them, able to practice Dafa and become Master’s disciple; words cannot describe how lucky I am. I must work hard, and I believe I can do well.
