(Clearwisdom.net) I try to study the Fa and send forth righteous thoughts daily, but I sometimes skipped it when I felt tired or just did not feel like doing it. I would play video games instead. At first, I didn't think there was anything wrong with it. After all, I only played video games occasionally. It was not as though I had a severe attachment. I didn't even care about winning or losing. It was just something I did to kill time. After a while, I realized that I had become increasingly addicted. I thought about playing video games when I wasn't playing them. I kept thinking of the possible paths I could take in the video games. Before I knew it, my thoughts would wander off to video games.
At the same time, I knew that I was a Falun Gong practitioner and that I must not be attached to anything. I decided to delete the video games from my computer, but I started playing again when I felt bored. I went on and off video games. On the surface, it did not seem like a big attachment, but in reality, I had become very attached. My emotions were the real attachment behind it. When I wanted to play video games, I felt empty, bored, and lonely. When I decided to quit, these emotions got the better of me. Wasn't that a sign that I was being manipulated by my emotions?
I have learned that I must not neglect attachments that appear to be insignificant. Any attachment, as insignificant as it might appear, is an attachment that a cultivator must regard as a serious matter. I must not let my guard down. Once one forms an attachment, one will be lost. Before one knows it, one will be degrading one's level and deteriorating in cultivation. Attachments know no size. The smaller the attachment, the harder it might be to identify and face. Nothing is worth being attached to in the secular world. Let's stop being lost in the secular illusions, let go of all attachments, fill our hearts with the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, and return home with Teacher.
