(Clearwisdom.net) I was fortunate to start my cultivation in Dafa in 1997. During the process of studying the Fa and improving my xinxing, I have made it through many big tribulations and problems. In 2005, in order to relieve the shortage of truth clarifying materials in our area, a fellow practitioner helped me to establish a materials preparation site. With Master’s arrangement and help, I cooperated with another practitioner to produce the truth clarifying materials.
Looking inward and improving xinxing
While working with this practitioner, we came across a conflict. At this point, if we could manage to look inward and get rid of our attachments, it would be an improvement. Master said in “Teaching the Fa at the 1998 Conference in Singapore,” “If you can examine yourselves with everything you come across, then I’d say you are really remarkable, and nothing can block you on your path to Consummation.”
There was once a meeting of fellow practitioners and I told them that a certain practitioner did not clarify the truth well enough. Thus, we agreed not to send him the names of people who had renounced their CCP membership. We wanted to exchange opinions with him before acting further. Another practitioner told me that since I knew how to use the internet, what I say will carry weight. At that time, I began arguing with that practitioner. Another practitioner saw the two of us arguing and said to the other practitioner, “You are right, only you are right.” The moment I heard this, I suddenly awakened to the fact that being headstrong and arguing with others was also a human attachment. I did not speak anymore, but I still did not let go of this in my heart. When I returned home I kept on thinking that the other practitioner was wrong and I felt that I was being treated unfairly. When I slowly calmed down, I realized that when I meet with any problems I should look inward. There was definitely an attachment that I needed to cultivate away.
I realized that I had the attachment of not wanting others to criticize me. When I pointed out a problem and did it in a manner that blamed the other party, I was not being kind to the other practitioner. Dafa requires us to be compassionate towards all beings.
Master said in Zhuan Falun “In qigong practice, however, going awry and following an evil way simply refer to people searching for external help.” Humans possess both demon and Buddha nature at that same time. We need to cultivate and reduce the demon nature and strengthen the Buddha nature. This was my understanding of Master’s teaching, “For a cultivator, looking within is a magical tool.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2009 Washington DC International Fa Conference”)
I realized that I was very self-centered. I was attached to showing off. During the process of performing a task, I often forgot that I was a cultivator. I was always so busy, day and night. I would go and repair another practitioner’s cassette player, and then I would go and teach another practitioner a task that that he did not know. A cultivator improves by elevating his xinxing. One’s xinxing is not measured by how many tasks one has completed.
When I found out that I had this attachment, I suddenly relaxed. I went ahead with the tasks that I was supposed to do in an unhurried manner. They were the same tasks, but my state of mind was different.
Responsibility
Master arranged very favorable conditions for me so that I could work on projects to validate Dafa. When I first started preparing the truth clarifying materials, I was not familiar with the printer and computer. During the process of learning and doing, Master gave me much wisdom. I also had this thought: I want to cooperate with these magical tools to help Master in Fa-rectification and thus achieve the biggest impact.
At that time only a few practitioners in our area knew how to access the Minghui website. I had the thought that I wanted to achieve the effect of being a news conveyor so that practitioners could get the news of Dafa on time. As the pace of Fa-rectification progressed, there was more family material preparation sites set up in our area. I was then needed for technical support. The coordinator brought me along to teach the technical aspects of using these machines. This was also a process of cultivation. Often, a practitioner would ask a lot of personal questions irrelevant to the technical issues at hand. My human heart was moved. In the end, the other practitioner did not learn the necessary technical skills. During this process I looked inward and realized that I was not kind. I was not understanding when a practitioner was undergoing a tribulation. They wanted wanted to improve themselves and thus needed someone to exchange experiences with. As a cultivator, improving xinxing was fundamental. It was not that if teaching the technical aspects of things means this task would be considered done. This was also a cultivation opportunity. During this process I also realized my shortcomings.
In order to teach the technical aspects of operating the machines, I would go regardless of the weather. I have never considered it to be hardship. I knew that I was doing a very great task. During the process of cultivation, I realized that I needed to let go of my attachments and my self-centeredness. The path that Master has arranged for me was the best.
During the sixth online experience sharing conference for practitioners in China, the volume of articles that our materials site received was more than usual. Since September 25, 2009, I cooperated with another practitioner and we managed to get the ten articles sent to the Minghui website. One materials site had some technical issues and was not successful in sending the articles out. A practitioner suggested that both of us should take over. We took turns using the character recognition board and keyboard. When we were tired, we would rest and share cultivation experiences. During the process of editing the articles, we benefited much. Faced with the light emitted by this fellow practitioner, I found my own shortcomings.
All the articles were sent to Minghui on time. When I looked back, Master made good arrangements for me: During those few days my husband was not at home; he would be a disturbance if he was home. During that period, the internet was also blocked very tightly. However I was able to break through the internet blockade whenever I wanted to submit an article. We were able to submit twenty-six articles within 6 months. It was really a miracle. It manifested the supernatural power of Dafa.
Master arranged the path for us to go home. It is usually human thoughts and attachments that cause barriers for us. I still have many human attachments that I need to cultivate away, but I will rectify myself during Fa-rectification and return home with Master.
Thank you Master! Thank you fellow practitioners! Heshi.
