(Clearwisdom.net) Beginning on October 12, the old forces tortured me with the symptoms of serious physical illness and tried to kill me. However, protected by the might of Dafa and with fellow practitioners' cooperation, we broke through the old force arrangements two weeks later.
While at work one day in October 2011, I suddenly got a high fever and a very bad headache. My whole body hurt, and I felt very weak. Since the symptoms of illness came on so quickly, without any warning, I felt I couldn't endure it and went home from work. In my mind I had to beg Master to help.
Cooperating as One Body and Eliminating the Old Force Arrangements
I lied in bed, and every muscle from head to toe hurt. I could hardly bear it and kept on shouting, “Master, help me!” This lasted the whole night, and I was debilitated in the morning. My mother, also a practitioner, wanted to take me to the hospital because she couldn't bear to see me suffer. However, in my mind, I was very clear and determined: “I am a Dafa practitioner; it is the old forces persecuting me.” I told my mother I wouldn't go to the hospital.
Our local coordinator then came to see me. She immediately notified local practitioners to send forth righteous thoughts for me. In the afternoon, she brought 16 or 17 fellow practitioners to my home. They sent forth righteous thoughts for me. We also studied the Fa together. They took me to my mother's home in the city so that more practitioners could come help me. They arranged for practitioners to come in shifts. Each came at a different time to study the Fa and send forth righteous thoughts with me. We formed a powerful, unified body.
For the next 10 days, my fever never went down. Because of the extreme pain, I had almost no righteous thoughts. Even worse, after October 15, I couldn't hear anything! I couldn't hear practitioners reading the Fa, I couldn't hear the exercise music, etc.
I once fell asleep on the sofa when several practitioners were sending forth righteous thoughts for me. I then clearly heard the evil say on the top of my head, “We can't win!” I sat up immediately and my brain became clear. I realized that the evil occupied my brain first and then made me unconscious; then I lost my righteous thoughts. Then they deafened my ears to separate me from the Fa and thus destroy me. It was Master who opened my ears and let me hear what the evil said, which reinforced my confidence in eliminating all evil influences.
Fellow practitioners searched Master's articles that related to my situation and made copies of them. They asked me to read and recite them. Some reminded me that the purpose of sending forth righteous thoughts was to benevolently resolve the lives that were still worth salvation.
During those days, fellow practitioners always accompanied me. One practitioner in her 50s, even though her home was several miles from mine, she still came by bicycle. Another practitioner aged 80 came to help me several times. Some practitioners studied the Fa with me in the afternoon and sent forth righteous thoughts at night. When I couldn't hear, they encouraged me to read as much as possible so that my brain would be full of the Fa. They thought of everything for me.
Every morning, I joined the global exercise practice. After the evil deafened me, I practiced with my eyes open and followed my mother's movements. I forced myself to stand even though it was very difficult.
Soon after, I could practice the exercises as usual.
Look Inside Myself, Never Giving the Evil Any Opportunity
With continuous Fa study and sending forth righteous thoughts, my righteous thoughts strengthened. I started to look inside myself. Quickly I found the main reason: I hadn't eliminated the attachment of lust, so the evil used that to persecute me. I also found other attachments, like jealousy, a mentality of showing off, personal emotions, etc.
I started cultivating Dafa in 2007. During the past four years, my desire of lust had been very intense. Master gave me hints several times, but I didn't realize the seriousness of cultivation practice. The old forces enlarged my notions. My husband worked out of the town most of the time and came back once a year, so I thought it should be OK to “fit into normal people's status” once a year. However, this was an excuse to keep my desire of lust. Sometimes when I read the Fa related to this, I just thought that it was for those practitioners who behaved inappropriately sexually and that it had nothing to do with me. When I read an experience sharing article on “eliminating desire,” I felt I had already done so.
During summer vacation, my kids and I went to my husband's. Because of the existence of desire and lust, I didn't control myself. Later, I clearly remembered that, once in a dream, my body in a certain level violated the principle of lust and was punished by being burnt with red hot objects. My main spirit couldn't look at it and fled. After I woke up, I realized that I should eliminate the desire of lust, but I didn't pay enough attention to it. At the end of September, my husband came back home again. Although I did send forth righteous thoughts and studied the “demons of lust” part in the sixth lecture in Zhuan Falun, I still didn't control myself. One week later my husband went back to work, and the old forces started to torture me.
Breaking Through All the Mental Pressure
When I was suffering, the evil not only tortured my body, but also put great stress on my family and me. Because I couldn't hear, I couldn't answer the phone calls from my husband and sister. They heard about my situation from my mother, and they called my mother everyday to ask her to take me to the hospital.
My mother endured intense pressure. Every day after fellow practitioners left, she pressured me to go to the hospital. One day, I begged my mother in front of other practitioners, “Please, please, do not force me to go to the hospital anymore. I know I was not good, but Master won't give up on me.” Fellow practitioners also shared with my mother, based on the Fa. Then my mother stopped pressuring me. She saw that my righteous thoughts were strengthened, so she had more confidence in me.
One night, my mother heard my sister say that my husband was getting old fast, so she asked me to send him a message to comfort him. I refused, because at the time I hated him. Then I remembered that I was a practitioner and that I should think of others first, so I sent him a message: “Sorry, it's all my fault. I should not make you worry about me. I am getting better now.” Right after he got the message, he called me. I answered the phone, and I could hear everything he said. I knew it was Master helping me. He felt I was really getting better, so he stopped to asking me to go to hospital. I felt that Master was beside me every moment.
Deny Any Pledge Made to the Old Forces
One day after sending forth righteous thoughts, a fellow practitioner said that we might have signed a pledge with the old forces, and we should deny any pledge we might have signed with them. I thus kept on sending forth righteous thoughts and reciting the Fa to deny any former arrangement.
One night, I saw several evil beings sitting in the room. One of them asked me, “Where's your paper?” I told them, “I do not acknowledge any pledge I might have signed with you. I only acknowledge the oath I made to my Master.” When the largest of them heard that, he threw himself at me. I said loudly, “Master, help me!” and they immediately disappeared. In the days that followed, I kept on sending forth righteous thoughts. I enlightened that Master knew I had made a pledge to the old forces, so he let fellow practitioners help me deny all the pledges. About 10 days later, a practitioner saw with her third eye that a dark layer of skin had been removed from me, head to toe. After that, my fever was gone.
By continuously studying the Fa and sending forth righteous thoughts with fellow practitioners, I realized that Master has arranged everything for me. Regardless of how many attachments I have, they will all be corrected in the Fa. The old forces are not eligible to test me or persecute me.
I got better and better over the next couple of weeks. I could hear the exercise music; I could hear Master's voice; I could hear fellow practitioners. In the end, we totally dissolved the old force persecution. My mother and I appreciated Master and fellow practitioners with tears in our eyes. It was Master who gave me another life. It was fellow practitioners' cooperation that brought me back from the old forces.
Touched by Master's Mercy and Sharing
I have deeply experienced the power of cooperating as one body. As we experienced tribulations, we never forgot that we are Dafa practitioners. This, I believe, is an essential difference between being human and being immortal. We must be steadfast in our belief in Master and Dafa, and we must always look inside ourselves to find deeply buried attachments and eliminate them. Another important point is to totally deny any arrangement by the old forces, including all pledges we might have signed before in history.
I have cried many times while writing this article, touched by Master's immeasurable mercy and fellow practitioners' selfless giving. All I can do to repay them is to cultivate diligently, do the three things better, save sentient beings, fulfill my mission, and return with Master.
