(Minghui.org) In the process of cultivation, our weaknesses often appear in the environment of our families.
Some time ago, my husband added a configuration to our Internet. As a result, I could no longer get logged on to the Internet during the late night hours, up until early morning. I later noticed that I wasn't able to access the Internet all day long as well. I am overseas and yet my Internet was blocked. I felt this was a warning, and that I needed to calm myself and look within.
When the Internet was first inaccessible, I looked within and thought that it was because I was attached to how many hours I slept. On the one hand, I used it to judge the state of my cultivation. On the other hand, I was afraid that if my husband was aware of my usage, he might not like it and have bad thoughts. When I realized the first attachment, I wasn't able to let it go, and I then realized that I had yet more attachments.
One weekend, I was not getting along well with my husband, so I went out and stayed out longer than usual. He disconnected my wireless Internet. It was as if I experienced an explosion in my head. "Boom!" I thought, “Isn’t it correct to place Dafa things as priority? Correct! So where exactly did I go wrong? I had a lot of negativity toward my husband.”
At that very moment, I remembered what Master said,
“When your righteous thoughts are firm and when you can repel those things, I remove them for you bit by bit; however much you can do, that's how much I remove for you and diminish for you. (Applause) But since you're a cultivator, you have to truly hold yourself to the requirements for a cultivator. Even though sometimes you still can't quite get there yet, you've got to at least have those righteous thoughts, and you've got to cultivate yourselves.” (“Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Chicago Conference”)
In fact, the Fa principle that “cultivation is up to you, gong is up to the master" (Zhuan Falun) can be seen everywhere.
On the other hand, in order to eliminate the human attachments of resentment, hatred, and fear, we have to cultivate away the fake “me” fundamentally, and the attachment of sentimentality. Sentimentalities are substances that spread all over in the three realms. To the higher-level beings, they are very dirty substances. When our true selves descended into the three realms, they were surrounded layer by layer during the long time of reincarnation by the fake “me's.” When every human attachment can move us, we are immersed in and experiencing sentimentality.
But our true selves came from very high levels. The substances that make up our true selves are made of particles that are smaller than sentimentality, and its density is greater than sentimentality. That is why no sentimentality can affect our true selves. That is why the process of looking within is to distinguish the true self from the fake self, and then use the righteous thoughts originated from the Fa to dissolve the fake self. When we can do that, although we are amidst sentimentality, our hearts won’t be moved.
That is why discovering attachments isn't enough. The key is to take care of every single thought of ours, through studying the Fa and sending forth righteous thoughts. As my resentment becomes weaker and weaker, when I have the mindset of no pursuit in facing my family members, I no longer have negative thoughts and I feel very light. I feel fortunate in this life, because I can cultivate in Dafa.
The above is only my personal understanding. Please point out anything improper with compassion.
