(Clearwisdom.net) I finally became a Falun Dafa practitioner in March 2011 and was thus fortunate enough to become a particle of Dafa.
I actually first came into contact with Dafa at the end of 2002. However, due to various reasons, I didn't obtain the Fa then. Now I have come to understand that the reason for that was because of interference from the old forces. It was compassionate Teacher who woke me up. Since I've obtained the Fa, I have been immersed in the beauty of Dafa every day. The beauty that Dafa has brought to me is beyond description. I truly appreciate Teacher's care and arrangement. I have nothing to give back to Teacher in return but to walk my cultivation path well and cultivate solidly.
1. Passing by Dafa
It was at the end of 2002 that my older brother had a stroke. This illness had turned a bright person like him into someone who was dependent on others for care. He has two children, one of whom recently attended university, and the other in primary school. He, being the sole bread-maker in the family, fell short in his responsibilities. Seeing how painful this was, I was at a loss about how to help him. When I was at work, I cried every time I thought about my brother.
One of my colleagues learned about my brother and said to me, “There is a precious book that could help your brother get over this tribulation." I was very surprised and asked, "What kind of book is it?" She replied, "It is Zhuan Falun." She also told me that some people who were very sick became healed after they began to practice Falun Gong. After I heard this, I felt that it was miraculous, so I wanted to read this book myself. However, I understood that it was a book that was banned by the Chinese authorities. There were meetings held every day to defame the practice of Falun Gong. We were also told that if we happened to find Falun Gong flyers, we were required to report them to our supervisor. I worked in sales at the mall, and we always found Falun Gong flyers in our pockets. Since my colleague told me that Falun Gong was so amazing, I truly wanted to see what was said in this book. After my colleague passed on the book to me, she said, "If you can't get much out of the book after your first read, you need to keep reading it a few more times."
It took me about a week's time to finish reading the book. I found that it taught people to be good. Out of curiosity, I was about to read it the second time. At that time, my child was still in primary school, and I had a lot of household chores to take care of at home. I couldn't find time to read the book at home, so I decided to take it to my workplace to read during my break. Our break time was at 5 p.m., so at the time, I took the book to the warehouse. As soon as I opened up the book, before I even starting reading it, the warehouse door suddenly opened, and there was the manager on duty. Even though there was another colleague reading something else, the manager came over directly to me. She grabbed the book from me, as the book was wrapped with a cover. She tore off the cover and the title was exposed. Then she took the book away. My mind went blank and I was dumb-founded as there had never before been anyone checking on us at break time! I later heard from my colleagues that my situation was rather serious. The management of the mall was going to set up a public meeting and announce that I was fired. I treasured my job a lot, so I went to the manager's office to beg her not to fire me. She was very ill-tempered and always swore at people. She said that as I was studying Falun Gong, I was an anti-Party element, and that she was determined to dismiss me regardless of how hard I begged her. Three years later, I learned that she died of cancer. I also went to the Human Resources Department manager. Finally, I was fined 200 yuan, but I got to keep my job. I later learned that this HR department manager got promoted, receiving good fortune for protecting me. My colleague who gave me the book was dismissed from my workplace. That is how I missed Dafa at that time. Now I have come to understand that the underlying reason was the old forces, dark minions and rotten ghosts that separated me from Dafa.
2. Finally Obtaining the Fa
In 2008, I changed jobs. I had a crisis at home with my husband; as a result, I couldn't be focused at work and always wanted to cry whenever I thought about our relationship. I felt that I'd almost collapsed, and I wanted to end my life. I always had some wicked ideas on my mind and wanted to go dancing in order to numb myself.
When Colleague A saw that I was in low spirits, she came to have a chat with me. She cared a lot about me, and gradually she opened up my heart. She said to me that she was a Dafa practitioner. I wasn't against Dafa, and I also truly knew the power of Dafa. However, due to the Chinese Communist Party's (CCP) slander of Dafa on TV, I had many unanswered questions. She solved my confusions one by one for me.
Within the two months that we had gotten to know each other, we became like old friends. I talked to her about all kind of difficulties in my life. She reasoned things out with me, and she also managed to locate and read paragraphs in Teacher's lectures that were applicable to my problems. On top of that, she read Hong Yin often for me, which benefited me a lot. Teacher's Fa has been deeply imprinted on my mind and has helped eliminate a lot of my attachments and notions. Even though I had not obtained the Fa yet, through my friend's help, I treated emotional issues in a more positive way. My relationship with my husband also changed for the better. I began to talk to my family members about withdrawing from the CCP and its affiliated organizations.
In March 2011, I finally began to practice Falun Gong. At that time, another colleague had obtained the Fa as well. Through Teacher's careful arrangement, I moved to live close to practitioner B. When we became neighbors, the three of us formed a Fa-study group. Every week, we go to practitioner A's home to study the Fa and send forth righteous thoughts. We encourage each other, share with each other, and are improving rapidly so that my confusion and concerns easily go away. I became cheerful. At work, we work very diligently, and my colleagues remarked that I had changed a lot. I have been clarifying the facts to my colleagues, helping them withdraw from the CCP and putting out truth-clarification bills. I'm immersed in the beauty of Dafa every day.
Since I began to practice Falun Gong, I have benefited both mentally and physically. I used to have serious gynecological diseases and blood problems, but now these diseases are no longer present. I became more open-minded, and as a result, my family environment is more harmonious than before. On the evening of May 12, 2011, the night before World Falun Dafa day, which is also Teacher's birthday, on our way home, practitioner B and I were reciting Hong Yin. Then we noticed that there was light behind us. When we looked up at the sky, we saw two pairs of Falun spinning. They were following us all the way home. We reminded each other not to develop the attachment of zealotry, and we said that we should not look at them again when we got home. Then we saw each other off. After I got home, I put my bag in the room. Out of curiosity, I wanted to see if the Falun was still up in the sky. As soon as I pushed the door open, I saw a golden Falun spinning on top of the roof of the row of houses out in front. After I talked to practitioner B about it, she was also very happy to hear that. We understood that it was Teacher encouraging us. From then on, we have been more diligent.
The feeling I have since obtaining the Fa is beyond description. I regret missing the Fa before. I can see that the lies fabricated by the evil CCP have destroyed so many sentient beings. Therefore, I truly hope that people will wake up soon, not be deceived by the lies from the CCP media, and choose a bright futures for themselves. I truly appreciate Teacher's reminding me time after time and fellow practitioners' help. I will strive forward on my cultivation path!