(Minghui.org) I am a Dafa practitioner in college, and, like many young practitioners, I often feel the temptation of lust and desire. Sometimes I feel the attachments decrease, but other times they intensify, and I am tormented. After studying the Fa and reading the Minghui website, I realized I need to distinguish what my true thoughts are and completely negate any interference and arrangements by the old forces.
I obtained the Fa several years ago, and I had one fundamental attachment before I obtained the Fa. I was always searching for something that would make me more attractive and popular. I read many books on psychology. The understandings regarding lust and desire from the perspective of psychology were the same as that of our deviated society. I was unknowingly contaminated by those books. After I obtained Dafa, I did not pay close attention to my fundamental attachment. Six months after I obtained Dafa, I went back to China. There were temptations everywhere, and I behaved like an ordinary person, thinking maybe I would cultivate later. I had an affair with one person, and I had intimate contact with another. I almost gave up cultivation. I restarted cultivation when I came back to America, but the deviated notions still interfered with me. I had intimate contact with two more friends. I did not feel it was wrong at the time, but later I realized that those were the deeds and thoughts of deviated ordinary people. After I enlightened to that, I was deeply repentant.
Before I obtained the Fa, I was contaminated by indecent websites. After I obtained the Fa, I would still visit those websites. Finally one day I decided to completely cut off that behavior and no longer visit those sites. But I still spent too much time on ordinary people's websites and videos. Master told us: “A person is like a container, and he is whatever he contains.” (“Melt into the Fa” from Essentials for Further Advancement)
Other things from ordinary society also wear out my righteous thoughts.
I believe young practitioners should avoid the interferences from lust. There were two young fellow practitioners who asked me out, but it was my Fa study time, so I refused the first time. When they persisted, I went in order not to affect the relationship. We just talked about ordinary things not related to the Fa, but that affected my mental state. I think fellow practitioners of the opposite sex should not joke around, laugh, or touch each other inappropriately. For example, I often joked with one married practitioner. I did not feel anything wrong at the time, but later I developed wicked thoughts about her. If I do things righteously from the beginning, I will not be interfered with later.
The current society is full of wickedness, and there are more temptations around young people. If you do not pay close attention, you can easily fall. If you do not measure yourself with the Fa and hold on to righteous thoughts and deeds at every moment, it is very difficult not to be affected. Only by getting rid of the attachment to lust and desire in your thoughts, words, and deeds can you experience the purity and wonder of cultivation.
Please kindly point out any shortcomings.
Category: Improving Oneself
