(Minghui.org) I am 41 years old. When I was in school, I had the dream of going to college. I was good at studying since I was young, so all my teachers, parents and I had high expectations for me. However, one day I was diagnosed with hyperthyroidism. In disbelief, my mother took me to several hospitals for confirmation. The results were the same. Doctors told me that it was a chronic disease, I had to take medicine all my life, and it might also affect my fertility. I also had to avoid stress. Finally, it was made clear that I could not attend the final review for the National College Entrance Exam. With that, my dream of going to college ended. I cried under my bedcovers in despair.
Age sixteen marks the most colorful time in girls' lives, yet I was beginning my medical treatment. Whenever my mother heard that something somewhere could cure my illness, she took me there. I tried Western medicine, Chinese medicine, and various ointments. None of them worked. My mother then took me to try various qigong practices in Beidaihe, Anhui, Jinan, and other places. Like it is said in Zhuan Falun, “They have not found the well-known masters after having been all over the country. Being well-known does not necessarily mean that one really knows things well. In the end, these people have traveled back and forth, spending much money and effort for nothing.” (Zhuan Falun)
In 1997, I learned Falun Gong. Within a month, I threw away the medication I had needed for nearly a decade. My body felt more at ease than ever before, and I truly experienced the feeling of having no illnesses.
After practicing cultivation, I understood that Falun Gong is for cultivation rather than treating illnesses. At work, I do everything according to the standard of Dafa: I try to be a good person everywhere. I don’t squabble over personal gains or losses, and I try to be kind to everybody. Our manager said, “I'm very lucky to have such a hardworking and competent employee like you.”
I know it’s Dafa that guides me to find the meaning of life, get rid of bad thoughts, and be a pure person. I feel that being a cultivator is the most wonderful thing.
Proving the Expert Wrong, I Had A Healthy Baby
I became pregnant not long after getting married. Because of my history of hyperthyroidism and having taken medication for ten years, my gynecologist told me to have an abortion. He reasoned that even though I stopped taking the medications, there were still traces left in my bloodstream that would affect the baby's growth. Even if I had no symptoms at that time, the hyperthyroidism could relapse during my pregnancy due to the additional strain on my heart. If that were to happen, it would likely result in a miscarriage.
When I went home, my sister-in-law told me that one of her classmates miscarried in the seventh month because she had hyperthyroidism before. Another friend with a similar history delivered successfully, but her baby was developmentally disabled due to iodine deficiency. Those cases corroborated what my doctor told me.
I studied Zhuan Falun and knew that even plants have life. We can’t kill any life. I didn’t know what to do. When I discussed this with other practitioners, I was told that “Master has said in the Fa that a fetus is a life as well. Having an abortion is still killing, which will bring huge karma. Dafa can correct all wrongs. Study well and you will be fine.” This reinforced my confidence. I tore up the notice from the doctor and decided to believe in the Fa and Master.
I got up early at 5 a.m. and practiced the standing exercises. I studied the Fa whenever I had time at work and every evening when I got home. I listened to Dafa music, Pudu. I had no symptoms associated with pregnancy, such as vomiting or nausea. Thus, it was not until others saw the change in my belly three months later that they knew I was pregnant. I did the same things I did before my pregnancy, such as mopping, carrying water, and sometimes working overtime. Not only did I not feel tired at all, but my body felt even more energetic than before my pregnancy. People who saw me commented, “You're pretty agile for being pregnant.”
One time, during my fifth month, one of my colleagues was welding a pipe. He asked me to stand away from him in case it hurt me. I stepped backwards but forgot there was a large oxygen tank behind me. I fell over it onto the ground. Shocked, everyone around me asked, “Are you okay?” I got up quickly and stuck my tongue out at them, as if I were a child who just tripped and got back up. I knew that I practiced Dafa and would be fine. At that time, I didn’t know that Master was protecting me.
After birth, my daughter behaved well and seldom cried. Even if she was alone in the room, she would quietly play by herself. My neighbor, who didn't know I had a baby until I took her outside when she was three months old, asked, “Why did I never hear any crying from your home?” A little after she was one year old, she could recite many children's songs.
Even now, I greatly regret that I didn’t enlighten that my daughter also came for the Fa, that I didn't guide her to learn Dafa. I didn’t teach her based on the Fa's principles and bring her up as a little Dafa disciple. I feel unworthy of Master's arrangement and the hope my daughter placed in me when coming to this world. I must study the Fa well and correct my faults.
Getting Rid of My Inferiority Complex and Resentment, Clarifying the Truth Calmly
Falun Gong teaches people to be kind, improve their xinxing level, and let go of attachments to fame, self-interest, and sentimentality. Amidst today's materialistic society, my body and mind were purified because I practice Falun Gong. I experienced true happiness.
In middle school, there were some naughty boys in my class. The teacher arranged one of them to sit right in front of me. I liked talking to him because he was funny. However, he spread rumors about me. One time, when I was answering a question in class, he called me a “hooligan.” As the ringleader, he led many other boys to laugh at me. I was educated in a traditional family and couldn’t bear this kind of mocking. As a result, I spent my entire middle school career in fear. That’s why when I was diagnosed with hyperthyroidism, my doctor said to my mom, “Your child must have been bullied, or she wouldn't have developed this disease at such a young age.” From then on, I believed that that boy was the reason I didn’t go to college. For many years, my middle school experience hung over me like a nightmare. I was filled with resentment toward him and ignored him whenever I ran into him on the street.
It wasn't until after starting cultivation that I finally realized that everything happens because of karmic relationships. People treated me that way before because I had karma, and ultimately it was caused by myself:
“One is that you might have treated this person badly in your previous life. You feel in your heart that it is unfair, "How can this person treat me like this?" Then why did you treat this person that way in the past? You might claim that you actually did not know it at that time, and this life has nothing to do with the other life. That does not work.” (Zhuan Falun,)
The hate that shadowed my heart for years dissolved at that moment. My newfound forbearance made me feel more at ease than ever before. Later, we even ended up in the same work unit. Even though he was on unpaid leave to do business, for work reasons we still met often. At this time, I had no more resentment toward him and greeted him kindly. I could talk with him about work seriously. Through further Fa-study, I understood that everyone who obtained Dafa has suffered a lot in history. Zhuan Falun states that “The black substance is karma that can be eliminated through suffering...” Maybe it was he who helped me reduce my karma so that I could obtain Dafa. If I didn’t practice Falun Gong, maybe I would be like many other Chinese people, deceived by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) into hating the Dafa that actually saves people and teaches people to behave according to “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.” Everything in this world is insignificant when compared with Dafa. Thinking of this, I felt very grateful toward him.
Master asked us to clarify the truth of Dafa to the people who were deceived by lies and thereby save them. I thought, “I must save him so he can stay when the catastrophe strikes.” The next time I met him, I told him that Falun Dafa teaches people good things, that it benefits people’s mind and body, and that the Party is spreading lies to slander Dafa. He told me that he just took a trip to Hong Kong and said, “When I was in Hong Kong, I didn’t know what Falun Gong was. But I saw a lot of people studying it, so I guess it must be good.” When I heard this, I really felt that all the Dafa practitioners in the world are one body. Some tourists overseas may not have the chance to get a truth-clarification flyer, but the image of practitioners themselves are the best proof of the facts. For those of us in mainland China to save more people, it helps a lot. When I told him about the movement to withdraw from the Party and its affiliated organizations, he said solemnly, “Yes! I will listen to you and quit.”
I am grateful for Master's merciful salvation that changed a life full of self-loathing and resentment to one that is honest and kind, and helps numerous lives to rise in the process of Dafa cultivation.