(Minghui.org) Like a stick warning, Master's comment pointed clearly to my future cultivation road. From this I understood: "good and evil co-exist" - I will choose good; "just as do human thinking and righteous thoughts" - I will choose righteous thoughts. I don't want to be sifted out. I will treat everything as an opportunity to improve rather than a disturbance, and walk well the final path.
For me, this means completely changing my conventional thinking, detaching myself from human notions, truly following the Fa, and using positive thinking and looking inward, instead of negative thinking and looking outward. Some may think what I have said is too abstract and theoretical. In fact, for a while I was struggling and could not find my way. Master's new comment was published just in time for me. It was the bright light in the dark night. I saw the way Master pointed to me.
I have been fighting the persecution and fighting to get my job back. At first I fought alone. Later we came to understand that practitioners are one body and we should cooperate and treat everything as an opportunity to save sentient beings. If it is a project, then the task is bigger, hence my own capacity should be larger, too.
My xinxing should improve first. There was much interference and my physical condition got worse. Whenever I wanted to study the Fa, visitors and other things disturbed me. I could not sleep well at night, and, as a result I was in a bad state: I was sleepy while sending forth righteous thoughts, when I exercised, and even when I studied the Fa. I was clarifying the truth though phone calls, letters, and in person, but there was little change at my workplace. I did not know what was wrong. But I knew the problem must be me. My xinxing was not high enough, so I could not clarify the truth well.
After studying Master's new comment, I saw more and more meaning in it. Today when I was sending righteous thoughts, Master put the words "conventional thinking" and "thoughts" in my mind. I knew Master was giving me a hint to look into these. When I looked, I found I had big problems. For example, when I encountered something, my first thought was usually a human thought. The second thought might be righteous, but the first one already created negative matter that I needed to suffer for and hence later eliminate. I had not moved from the "conventional thinking" mentioned in Master's Lunyu (Zhuan Falun). I did not think all tribulations were good. I was fighting my tribulations, so they became even bigger. I knew something was wrong, but I did not know what. I did not find my fundamental attachment.
How could I change my human "conventional thinking?" Through Fa study I became enlightened: studying the Fa is the foundation, looking inward is the key element, and positive thinking is the standard by which to change "conventional thinking." If this becomes a habit, then everything around us will be a good thing, and the cultivation environment will be good. I must change my conventional thinking, truly cultivate myself, follow the progress of the Fa rectification, and complete my historic task.
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